So........I'm 40 today........😂 It feels so funny saying that out loud coz......I'll be honest, I never expected to live this long...

  I had to do it. I always wanted to do it and it didn't fit Designated Chaos so.....here is Eternal Hearts......❤️

 I need to get myself straightened out and get my shit together. I keep having to remind myself why I started writing and writing songs and ...

 I've been working on Designated Chaos for a while now.........I started the channel slightly over a month ago.....on YouTube......  Des...

 I kinda like how the weather forecast is inaccurate these days. It keeps us on our toes. We don't know what's really gonna happen a...

 So.....I decided to make a thing........ it was just supposed to be like a practice thingy.....refreshing something old......

 I always get asked if my area or my house is flooded coz I have no idea what shit the news is broadcasting throughout the country about the...

 They don't. Only Shu knows me for who I truly am. You could pass me in a public place and not recognize me at all. You don't know h...

Why I behave this way I don't need a reason to be me I do what I want -Anyway by Designated Chaos- I'd say this was a song I wrote s...

 A few years ago, we decided to move coz I wanted to learn to sail. By the end of that year, I was officially a sailor. The following year, ...

 If you're gonna do something new and huge like anything from starting a business or a channel or a career, some of the worst people to ...

  The lyrics are me. That is why I wrote is as such. I also like the music style.......It's so.......emo...... Hahahahaaa......... I am ...

 My head had been on songwriting for the past 1 week and I can't seem to stop. It just keeps coming and everything else is just on hold ...

 Shu and I were laughing so hard over breakfast this morning coz I was talking about Artemis Gordon and the Wild Wild West movie. We both kn...

 I can't put my emotions into words but.......I cried like a mofo last night. I delayed and refrained myself from watching Act 3 right a...

 I miss writing emo punk songs.........

 Caitlyn said it and I couldn't agree more. Everything Ambessa brings is nothing but violence. All she ever wants is war and blood. Woah...

  I only do it for one reason but getting there usually requires a lot more so I do it anyways.......And I know that I am most likely a NOOB...

Way before Shu and I were married, I did come over to his house here, in this state. It was my first time ever here and I loved it. It was m...

  do you wanna come play? I am not......wait......I haven't been living in this world....... *laughs* that's nothing new! I have bee...