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Wednesday, August 20, 2025

the world today

 I don't know if I should laugh or cry at this point. 

There's been an ongoing uproar about AI and all of its capabilities in the world today. They create lies. They do. They are not some form of intelligence you should rely on though. GPT was made to collect data online. Any form of data.

The whole AI art creation was not made to be monetized. It was made for fun. Just good fun. Making things you can laugh about and move on with your life. Not making art and claiming it to be something you made like artists do. They create things that are not real. Things that are borderline lies,fictional just for fun. So, artists are having a hard time with these so called AI claiming themselves as "art". It's not. It's made for fun. Shit gets annoying when you put something online and it gets stolen and used without your knowledge. That's just downright plagiarism. There is no control over it. Once you put it out there, who knows who finds it and if you are lucky, you will be able to track it all down and send in a C & D. If you don't, you will never know.

It gets worse with music too. The creation of Voice Cloning has opened up a whole new world of problems. People saying things they don't. It's crazy. Again,there is no control over it.

Deepfake has created a new problem now too. Big ass production companies no longer care to have actors come in as cameos anymore coz they can AI generate the actor's faces into the film now. The actors are definitely throwing a fit about it. It ain't my problem though. I like to filter through what i watch. Most of the time, mainstream shit don't interest me one bit.

So yeah, welcome to a whole new world of problems. It's not a major problem but shit gets out of control when fallen into the wrong hands. Again, people create lies now with absolutely no control whatsoever.

People also have stopped having fun and just taking it all as humor.

Tuesday, July 22, 2025

Movie Trip: Jurassic World Rebirth

 Right off the bat, I think the movie was just NOT good. Honestly, I wasn't sure if it was the direction of the entire cast or the film editing or the storyline but.....yeah...the referencing were all there....tributes to all of the previous characters and iconic scenes but......but.....but......*sighs* what the fuck is a D-Rex? I could tell you what the D stands for...but let's not go there right now.....that alien looking 4-legged 2 tiny hand crap was.....well.....uh.....um......let's just say that if they went on some free AI generator online and typed weird ass made up dino shit, that's kinda what you see in the movie......I totally get the part where these are all mutated experimental dino that went south but.....ya know like that time when the guy in Jurassic World said "they should just let the sponsors name the dinosaurs at this rate....."......well, imagine that but visually too....so....uh....yeah.....take whatever shit you have ever read about Paleontology studies and throw it out the window and go forth with AI dinos with no limitations whatsoever...... 

Friday, June 20, 2025

my brain is flooded and my thoughts are crowded

 I need to get a lot of things out of my system but I don't know how. I don't know why things happen and turned out the way it did and all I can think of are the adults who are at fault on so many levels. Why? 

The main theme that's been going on throughout this past few months are youths who are neglected by the adults who should be protecting them but failed. Now, the kids will suffer.  If you don't give a shit about your kids, you shouldn't have them. Period. 

I was dealing with teens on bikes without helmets and getting into collisions. FUCK. I am still suffering from the traumatic account,having to witness such stupidity that occured with seconds. FUCK.

And then, recently......the whole shit showdown with the school.....my kids are in the damn school. It's supposed to be a good school. Fuck all of your reputation and standards. Kids are injured and kids are being neglected because the fucking adults could not make proper decisions in trying to get the fucking situation under control. I blame the adults. ALL OF THEM.

The right call could have been made. What if someone died? What if the injuries are incurable? What kind of moron would try to fucking sweep shit like this under the rug? The adults are at fault. They always are. These are underage kids we're talking about. Yes, they should know right from wrong but someone HAS TO TEACH THEM. They aren't robots you can just update with new programs.

You wanna talk about corruption? This is fucking IT! They should all burn down and fucking go to hell. The kids are suffering because of these fucking adults.

Saturday, May 03, 2025

Thursday, May 01, 2025

Shu introduced me to this band.....and now....I can't stop listening to them.....

 Full of color on the outside

But I only see in black and whiteI'm desperate for some light in the corners of my mindHaving hope but not enoughReaching out to find no oneAm I the only soul to have lost all control?
It gets hard to breatheStuck in between on what has become my fake realityAnd there's no escape from the voice in my headIt's driving me crazy!
Nobody understandsMy sanity's not going to lastAnd I'll smile on through the nightEveryone will think I'm alrightBut nobody knows what I'm dragging alongWhen I'm aloneWhen I'm alone
I'm about to tear off this pageBut it's something I can't erase


I wish I could rewrite the story of my lifeWhat I hide every day behind the mask there's painThey say I'm not aloneBut do they even know?
It gets hard to breatheStuck in between on what has become my fake realityAnd there's no escape from the voice in my headIt's driving me crazy!
Nobody understandsMy sanity's not going to lastAnd I'll smile on through the nightEveryone will think I'm alrightBut nobody knows what I'm dragging alongWhen I'm alone
Nobody understandsMy sanity's not going to lastAnd I'll smile on through the nightEveryone will think I'm alrightBut nobody knows what I'm dragging alongWhen I'm alone
And every day I'll tryTo keep my feelings hidden insideBut nobody knows 'bout the hole in my soulWhen I'm aloneWhen I'm alone

Wednesday, April 16, 2025

you know how when you witnessed something......

 .......and it haunts you a litte?

Well, something happened today. As we were on our way home from getting the kids from school, there was a motorbike in front of us with 2 school boys on it and there was a car ahead of them. The car ahead of them was slowing down and these 2 boys must have been surprised by the sudden stop so they swerved to the side to avoid it as a reaction, they collided head on with another boy on a motorbike.

I witnessed all 3 of the boys flying off their bikes and to make it worse, neither of them were wearing helmets. I was in so much shock as we pulled over, one kid was bleeding so much in the head, the other 2 kids were walking but had severe memory lost. We waited for the ambulance and so many people stopped by to help,we drove one of the boys to a nearby clinic to get immediate medical help while the other 2 boys waited with some people for the ambulance.

I was in so much shock and I was constantly praying so hard for the boys to be ok. They must be about 16 years old. I was just telling Shu this morning that the kids from the secondary school nearby has a lot of kids going to school on motorbikes and none of them bother to wear helmets whatsoever.

I am still a little shaken from witnessing the whole thing and I will never forget their faces. I was crying a little as I waited for Shu at the clinic when he took that boy in. I was praying so hard for them to be ok. I hope they are ok. I told the boy who wasn't as injured to call his parents coz he was walking around like he was trying to figure out what to do. 

Friday, April 11, 2025

5 hotels in 2 weeks

 We were stranded in KL/Selangor for about 2 weeks. It was supposed to be us heading down there for Hari Raya. It was supposed to be 1 week tops and in was like an in and out situation like most Hari Rayas are.......but no this time. Nope.

We headed there during Ramadan and joined in Shu's family for a buka puasa sesh. From there, Safiyya got sick, she picked up the Influenza B. Fuck population density, right? We were doing just fine before heading over there coz we've been at home the whole month through.

Anywho, Influenza B sucks like shit. Safiyya got sick and we immediately moved into a hotel to isolate her from Shu's parents. I got sick right after that. I spent most of my quarantine days in DoubleTree Putrajaya coz that was our home for about a week.

To make it worse, we had a Legoland trip planned just as well. Let me tell you how fucked up the southbound trip this time around. We were getting sick one person at a time and we were heading south.

I couldn't stand being among so many people so we spent a night in Legoland hotel and then we moved to a hotel in JB. I swear to God, i have no idea wtf was going on but none of the shops were opened late enough for us to have a decent meal. Mind you, we have been throwing up so much at this point and i was actually at the hospital on drips for at least an hour.

The fucking drive back to Selangor/KL was so fucked up, we spent 7 hours on the road. It usually takes us 3 hours tops to get to KL from JB. Something was definitely up. I do NOT wanna go south anytime soon. No thank you.

We ended up back in Putrajaya that night after the long ass drive. We spent 2 nights in Moxy hotel. It was kinda nice but not the kind of hotel I would like to spend so much time at. The mall access was very convenient but when you are half ass trynna recover and there are so many people, shopping becomes a little challenging.

We finally decided to leave KL for good and drove home. I didn't have a Hari Raya at all coz i was quarantined for most of the trip. I saw Shu's parents on the 3rd day of Raya I think, and I saw my parents just before leaving for home. My mom was crying, thinking that I left without seeing her. I swear to God, this time around made us all miss home so damn much.

We don't wanna leave home. Not yet. I miss my usual coffee shops and routines.