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 So.....I decided to make a thing........

it was just supposed to be like a practice thingy.....refreshing something old......

I feel like people are just confused and this needs to be addressed properly

 I always get asked if my area or my house is flooded coz I have no idea what shit the news is broadcasting throughout the country about the weather.

I live on the sunny side up area of the beach. If we did get a lot of water it would have been from the waves crashing so hard or the rain water accumulating from long hours of rain. The actual flooding happens upstream and the river areas. Water comes gushing down from the mountains and down the rivers. And if you live in town or the city area where water flow always suck.

Erm......upstream is up the river.........downstream is where the water flows down and out into the sea......Does that make sense for everyone?

I sometimes find it strange that people think they know me at all

 They don't. Only Shu knows me for who I truly am. You could pass me in a public place and not recognize me at all. You don't know half of who I am. Don't ever say that you know me coz you don't. What I share with the world or what I share on social media and what I share to family are different, filtered things. Not everyone can understand the different degrees of me and my way of thinking. What I let people know about me are different. The things that I like doing are many and not everyone can take it all in at once. Except Shu, of course. That's why we're married ❤️

why I do the things I do

Why I behave this way

I don't need a reason to be me

I do what I want

-Anyway by Designated Chaos-

I'd say this was a song I wrote solely for myself 😂

It had a lot of Avril influence but hey, I grew up listening to her. It's not the best performing song on the channel but I do what I want and I write how I feel so, I can't please everybody 😉

accidental goal fulfilled

 A few years ago, we decided to move coz I wanted to learn to sail. By the end of that year, I was officially a sailor. The following year, I began writing and somewhere along the way, I found myself in a sailing coach course. By the end of that year, I wrote about 10 books and got my level 1 sailing coach certification.

Continuing with the pursuit of being creative, I continued writing and designing and drawing and painting and before I knew it, I was writing songs a couple of weeks ago. Not the way I usually write songs but before this year ends, I have already put out at least 18 songs on YouTube. It's not something I planned to do but I did it and I am still doing it. And I am also writing and painting and sketching and gaming at the same time.

I have some plans for what I wanna do next but I think it's gonna take some time. I'm up for the challenge. Bring it!

Oh yeah, I have also joined the "Glorious Evolution" of Viktor Nation 😂

someone once said

 If you're gonna do something new and huge like anything from starting a business or a channel or a career, some of the worst people to ever give you any support are family members. It's so weird and so true at the same time. I've always thought it was more of a cultural thing but apparently, it goes all across the board.

The funny thing about me is that I have spent my entire life not getting any form of support whatsoever from family and it's kinda something I'm used to. Shu had always been my biggest supporter no matter what I wanted to do. Again, I don't always succeed and my attempts are sometimes not the best but he had never told me to stop or give up.

I also happened to have a very strong support system from my kids. They will always tell me I'm doing good, no matter what the situation is.

When you're going to change the world, don't ask for permission- Viktor

So, whatever it is I've decided to do had already been decided. I really don't give a shit about what you think coz it's happening, regardless. Sometimes, when you want to do something, it usually just makes sense to you and you alone. People won't always understand why you do it and it's ok. Just stay your course.

let me go

 

The lyrics are me. That is why I wrote is as such. I also like the music style.......It's so.......emo......

Hahahahaaa.........

I am currently at a stage in my life where I am just doing things that I like. I am doing things that brings me so much joy and I am not even getting paid for any of it and it doesn't bother me. I wanted to do what I like and therefore it is what I do. 

People can hate what I make or produce. People can like them. People have opinions. I cannot control them. 

It's just so peaceful to be able to make and create and produce and not think about anything else.

The temperature drop has made is such that my art pieces are not drying properly and it's been about 2 days and the paint is still wet -_- I have paint on my hands now 😂