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Wednesday, February 04, 2009

sometimes......everything is just too much to take......

For me it is.I feel like the things that I wanna do in life are simple.The fact that they intertwine with other things.......related things which supposedly we could do without in order to not make things complicated exist and that we may have to depend on it coz we're made to do so just fucking pisses me off.

I am talking about a very specific thing here.Still,it could be applied to most other things we go through.

I'm sick of crying and still unable to make things better.I try so hard to just brush them aside and pretend that it doesn't bother me but I can't.Coz it does bother me and for as long as I cannot just learn to adapt and compromize,I can't move from this spot.It kills me.A lot.I can't imagine what it's gonna be like after this.

I don't want to take action over something really huge just because I have to.I wanna do it coz I want to.Right now,I know I want to but there's just so many things I would have to consider........and probably reconsider.

Is this what growing up does to a person?Drives them mad coz of things which cannot be avoided?