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Tuesday, September 04, 2012

Pregnancy and being pregnant

Before I discovered I was pregnant, I really thought I was probably putting on weight starting with my tummy area. It's usually flat unless I have gastrict or something. I just couldn't figure out why it was bulging out the way it did. It wasn't obvious but because I know my body so well, I knew that something was wrong. Luckily, I did a pregnancy test first before jumping into my running shoes or I could have lost the baby.

So yes,it just after our second year anniversary and I discovered I was pregnant.We were so psyched! I was partially freaking out.I still am.I wasn't sure what to expect.I wasn't sure what needed to be done.One thing I did realize was that I suddenly realize how badly I took care of myself health wise.I was thin not because I was healthy but because I was constantly neglecting my needs especially where food is concerned.I just wasn't big on eating and it wasn't something I was much interested in.

When I got into my first trimester, I was sick.My hormones were changing drastically and I was sick. I was constantly throwing up.I couldn't eat the food I used to like.Things which had the scents that I like made me so sick that I would throw up.I hardly use perfume anymore coz they make me sick.I hate the smell of that Ambi Pur we hang in our cupboards.I can't wear anything with the slightest smell of that.

Then,I got hospitalized several times due to dehydration from all the throwing up.My body wouldn't let me drink plain water.I couldn't eat pretty much anything.It was horrible.But throughout it all,I was constantly praying and hoping that my baby would be ok.And he was.In fact,he was jumping everytime we had an ultrasound scan.I was almost in tears when I first heard his heartbeat.He seems like a happy baby.I hope he is.

Now I am 16 weeks into my pregnancy.I am not throwing up as much as I used to although,my gastrict problem is still pretty severe.I have to constantly feed myself which is a bit hard to do.I have also been losing weight instead of putting on weight and because of that,my baby is about a week smaller than the size he ought to be.I'm trying to feed him and myself but it's just not that easy.My gastrict needs to be tamed in order for me to get my diet back on track.