I crashed. It's been a while. It's been a long while. I think it's just pressure. I think it's an accumulation of stress.
I wish I could just wake up one day and just "get over it". I've been battling this for so long. It's always back and forth.
I am trying to get over something that happened over 20 years ago. In fact, it's probably a lot longer than that. I am aware of the contributional factors. I thought I've addressed them and it's all gone and forgotten.
I was wrong. I can't fix this. I can never fix this.
I'm so sick and tired of listening to psychologists and counselors telling me shit I already know. I know what my problems are. I can't make it go away. I have been suppressing memories. It's making me forget so many things along the way.
