So we were at the National Heart Institution on Friday night......

My grandma was rushed to the emergency over there late that afternoon. Docs called my mum and said that her heart beat was dropping and her eyes were shut. Turns out she had a heart attack. She's never had a heart attack history. She got the attack twice. The options the doctors provided were either to give her medication whenever it happens or have surgery for her 3 blocked arteries. At her age, surgery doesn't seem like a good move.

She's stable now. Still at the hospital.

It's sad enough that she is suffering from a bad case of Alzheimer's and that she has a hard time remembering who we are. I was heartbroken to see her in so much pain last week :'(

Flying

Yusuf had been wanting to get on an airplane. Doesn't matter where. He just wanted to see and touch and possibly fly somewhere. This had been going on for a few weeks.

We did take him to KLIA 2 yesterday. Since it is after all near to our home, it's not like we've ever been there to fly ever. Just to shop and hangout really.

Anywho,I suggested we'd take a flight from Subang International Airport one day and just take a daytrip somewhere on the ATR. It's still a plan. Shu had been working on moving our stuff in and out of our house(s).

Long story.

Today,we decided to just fly a damn plane instead. On a simulator of course! It was a Boeing 737. Never flown one ever although I can roughly anticipate what the cockpit is like. My dad had been flying Boeing aircrafts for over 20 years!

Conclusion: I am just not pilot material. Haha! I didn't crash the airplane but my landing was a bit off.

Years ago,back when I used to mess around with my dad's Flight Simulator on the pc, I was flying small planes like a Cessna. Never a commercial plane. I landed pretty badly. Crashed was more like it.

Next stop,the ATR simulator!!!!!

Kylo Ren or Kryolan?

Haha!

Was talking to my brother, Eeno about Star Wars and clearly he did not get that joke.

He is the movie freak of the family. You name the movie,he has got it covered. We don't share the same taste in movies at all.

Nope. Not. At. All.

I don't understand

Some people are just unhappy with other people who are happy. And the best part of this is that they try to tell you how to live your life when it is pretty clear that they aren't happy with theirs. Sometimes, they'd comment on things they have never experienced before. It's weird.

You've made your choices and decisions and I have made mine. I am happy with my life but unfortunately,yours did not quite turned out as you've planned. How is this my fault?

It's one thing if I did ask for an opinion. I just never did.

Hi-5 live in KL 2015

Gone are my rock band gigs and concerts days. My life is all about Yusuf and Ali Imran now. And since Ali Imran is still just a baby, it's basically just about Yusuf.

He's been watching Hi-5 since his walker days. He and I would sing and dance to all their songs. I have memorized 90% of the lyrics to their songs.

Eventhough his interests have changed bit by bit to other random things like robots and cars,he'd still dance to some Hi-5 songs from time to time.

He liked Lauren a lot. And Stevie. Unfortunately,Lauren has left by the time we managed to catch their live performance. Stevie is still around although......he'll be leaving soon.

Anywho,the show was awesome. It took Yusuf a while to digest that the Hi-5 gang was on stage right in front of us. I had a blast singing and dancing with the other kids.

Just one of those days

Having a brother who is doing a degree in performing arts is just fun. I am already a guitar player and I write songs from time to time. He just adds a bit more jazz and bass and sometimes even rythm to what ever I play.

Since I have kids and they have cousins, I couldn't avoid Disney's Frozen because it's everywhere. About a year ago Yusuf discovered Let It Go and he was singing it from time to time. Eventually,I came to know the song myself.

A few weeks ago,I was at my mum's just busking on the guitar. I was playing random songs and finally,I found myself singing and playing Let It Go. Then,my brother came around and decided to join in on the bass guitar.

Before we knew it,we were rockin' the song. My brother paused and laughed. Just coz it's an E chord we had to make it into a rock progression! It was unavoidable but fun.

Yusuf was just looking at us like we just made it different than what he'd usually sing. We did. We totally did :)

Sometimes I still follow my mum around town

A few weeks back, I met my mum's friends and one of them happens to be the dad of an old school friend of mine. He's also a family friend. That's kinda how it is growing up for us. Our friends' parents are friends with our parents.

Anywho,this man I've known since I was 8 or 9 years old haven't seen me in ages and that day I showed up with my 2 kids. He was just blown away. Well,I've changed and Yusuf is gonna be 3 years old in January.

He was asking about what's been going on and I told him that I have been staying at home,raising my kids. He gave me a very good advice. Something I'll always remember.

He said "Never leave your child at the mercy of the maid". Of course,he said this after discovering how I ended up being a stay-at-home mum. There is a lot of truth in what he said.

Seriously, with the number of insane people waltzing into our country, can we really trust anyone at all? Especially with our kids?

I'm not against working mothers. It's much tougher on them but I just think that I have serious trust issues ESPECIALLY when it comes to my kids.

Its all about the he says she says

I don't understand people in general. Anything and everything is a problem especially with women.

Wear hijab. Don't wear a hijab. Married. Not married. Have kids and not have kids. Stay at home or working mothers. It's all petty to me.

I know what it's like to be commented on and I may have commented somewhere sometime in my life.

I have problems too but I'm not gonna rub it into other people's faces. Just live life. Be happy. Shit happens. We move on.

I have a supportive husband who understands what I go through and he is willing to go through everything together.

Holy Schmoly

It's coming up to the end of 2015. So many things happened and I am still hoping for an awesome birthday holiday. Thanks to these people who dislikes peace and happiness, we have to not only plan waaaay ahead but to only purchase flight tickets and reservations at the very last minute. God knows what else is gonna happen next :-/ I am NOT happy.

Anywho,looks like I'm just gonna have a birthday holiday elsewhere now.....huh?

In order to kill time and lift my spirits,I shall continue planning Yusuf's birthday party.

After so long.......

Shu and I were actually out and the kids were asleep in the strollers. We had dinner and had uninterrupted conversations about vape and weed and 3-D printers. It was pretty good. And I had an awesome frappe!

Everything is AWESOME!

So my mum was talking to my dad and a family friend

They were talking about how some jobs have to be taken home like phone calls and emails are neverending and stuff........

And I was thinking "Yeah......like when I finally get my kids to sleep and chillin' with my husband while rollin' up a joint and just as you're about to light it,one of the kids wakes up crying......"

It's neverending..........

My babies know me too well

Yusuf knows the difference between my coffee pitstops and dining-in time.

He also knows my pampering mask sessions :)

Now,he compliments me whenever I wear something I don't usually wear like summer dresses and long blouses ^_^

A random conversation

Shu: Why don't you send me a picture of that handbag you want so much........

Me:OK..........

Starts browsing and finds a website with handbags........after a few pictures,randomly sends a picture of a pair of shoes from the same designer...........

I like the shoes a lot more than the handbag now...........

-____-"

Shoppin'

Was at a boutique looking at handbags and of all things he said about the first bag I picked up was "Omg...... Macam Phua Chu Kang if he was a handbag "

Caramel is the new mocha

Thanks to Juan Valdez Cafe ,I have discovered the Granizado!

Blended white coffee with caramel.

Since Juan Valdez Cafe isn't everywhere, I have found Coffea Coffee's Caramel Coolist with a shot of coffee to be just as good :)

Torn

I have an issue deciding what I want for my birthday (or unbirthday).

I have been eye-ing this handbag........but,I also want a 3-D printer.......

Hurmm.........

It's that time of the year again........

Sephora is luring me in with its beauty insider sale and all the newletters and invites..........

-_-"

I know for a fact that if I just say the word, Shu would say "OK. Let's Go"

The pressure is on and eventhough I have been really good at prioritizing,at some point,I'd still break. Hahaha........

Anywho, my only issue with Sephora SEA is that I only love going to the ones in Bukit Bintang and my recent discovery over at Avenue K.

I hate that there aren't samples given out here in Malaysia. I don't know why.

Daily Shots@Taman Tun Dr Ismail

They have the new dose of happiness for me. For ultimate yummyness salted caramel butter cakes its The Grumpy Cyclist.

I finally discovered a hidden talent of mine. I can spot a fancy coffee shop from a mile away.

Yup.

Blues buskers@The Curve

As usual, we were at our second home towards the weekend and our hangout spot had been the same for a long while now. It's mostly coz of live bands and coffee shops. Last weekend however, we did miss the St John bagpipe boys but something better happened........

Earlier that day, Shu told me to pamper myself at the hotel spa. Thank God I decided not to go. These uncles had what I needed to unwind.

Death.......

I had always been fixated on the one experience that we shall all go through some time in our lives. It bugs me that no one is able to tell the tale. We know it will come. It's just a matter of time. We don't know when. We don't know how.

As a Muslim, we have been warned and reminded over and over. The stages of death from the moment we are no longer alive right up to the judgement of heaven and hell.

Lately, I have been having trouble sleeping. Not because of the people I have lost. Not because of the very fact that I will someday lose the people I love. But it's more of what will become of me. Or rather, when the time comes, what state would I be in when I die.

Will my body be found, cleaned and buried properly? Or will I die where no one will find me? What if I won't even have the honor of being buried? Will I die in one piece? Will I be cleansed and prayed for?

It's not a scary thought. It just keeps me up. I keep telling myself over and over that if it's gonna happen, then it will.

It's almost like me telling myself that I may not survive giving birth because I don't know what's gonna happen.

Him & I

I am all about frappe
He is all about long black,double shots

My weapon of choice is a grenade launcher
He likes sniper rifles

I'm a Rolls Royce person
He is a Nissan Skyline GTR

He is all about Burberry,Gucci and CK
I love Bath and Bodyworks

He loves shopping
I am not as enthusiastic
So he does the shopping for me
My damages usually consists of random things like animes and cartoons

We both enjoy killing people
And valet parking
Good food
Enjoying each other's company

Maid experiences

We had a maid when Yusuf was a few months old. She was young. She took care of Yusuf really well and I almost trusted her. After Yusuf turned one, I started a part-time job. It was a bit hectic but we got it all worked out.

One Friday evening, Shu took Yusuf and I out to dinner. When we got home, we discovered that the grill was locked but the front door wasn't. The maid's slippers were gone. We got into the house and checked her room and we found her cupboard empty.

We kinda anticipated it to happen. It was just a matter of time. She left her 3-month-expired passport. We kinda know where to find her but we just didn't bother. She didn't even have a permit.

We did apply for a working permit for her but thanks to bureaucracy, our application was pending. It had been pending for a long while. Then again,if she did have a permit and we made a police report,we would have gotten a ticket for letting our employee run off.

Kinda stupid considering the fact that we did go through quite an ordeal trying to get a damn house maid to begin with so why the hell would we "allow" her to run off? Then again, since she did not have a permit nor a valid passport, she is as good as dead out there anyways. It's just a matter of paying the authorities to let her stay in the country.

I don't get how the law works when it makes no sense.

Anywho,we attempted to get another maid a few months after Ali Imran was born. She turned out to be a liar and an asshole. We got rid of her almost immediately and asked for a refund. She ran off in the custody of her local agent.

I am NEVER letting my sons be taken care of or raised by or with the help of maids. Other than Kak Yah, they are all liars.

Such an honor.......

This is a Tomica replica of the Suzuki Lapin. It had been bestowed upon me by my son, Yusuf........

Of course,this was a free gift coz his car of choice was the Honda Civic Euro Type R. That and the movie Camaro Bumblebee :-/

I am ok with it since he also lets me have the Fast Lane firetruck.

Nice to meet you, where you been?

I can show you incredible things.......

I cannot teach my sons to socialize with other human beings. I don't know how :-/

The Sims was as social as I could ever get. Well, that and GTA 4....... I doubt if GTA is a way to socialize rationally.

But Yusuf is doing well so far. Ali Imran had been friendly since the day he was born. So I guess, God is giving me a little break by letting them have those instincts pre-installed......... Or what ever you call it.....

Randomness

So we were at an Ostrich farm in Negeri Sembilan today......

These chicks are about 6 months old

You are very much encouraged to feed the big birds

And befriend some African mountain goats.......they have spooky alien eyes.......

Well,I got over my slight fear of Ostriches and learned so much about them today that I almost want them as pets.......almost.........

Anywho, I am still working on getting over my addiction with expensive coffee. After all these years, I am still trying. :-/

Just puttin' it out there........

Luke Shaw, we feel ya man. Have a speedy recovery. It looked painful so.......yeah.....get it fixed.......

In the meantime, this is for the referees that night......

The dude is only 20! His leg broke in 2 places! Wth is up?!

Every damn time I try to be a grown up and get in touch with the local news update

My reaction would be......

We often find ourselves walking around malls........

Specifically The Curve most of the time. And then, there is LaundryBar. Such a place to be when there are live bands performing. Last night, a 3-piece band played some awesome music. Saw the guitarist doing an awesome outro solo. We made our way slowly away from that area heading back to the hotel.......but then, he starts playing a familiar tune........and he said SING ALONG! Shu and I stopped. It was familiar. It was Fear of the dark by Iron Maiden! How can you not stop to appreciate such cover!

Livin' On A Prayer

If anyone asks what song I'd like to sing and dedicate to my dearest husband this year,it's Bon Jovi's Livin' On A Prayer.......Yeah.......

Haha.....and then there are days when I would be screaming She's Gone by Steelheart...........

But no,it's Bon Jovi for now........

House cleansing

I usually don't pay much attention to supernatural thingys but eversince we moved to this new house, I have been getting a bit spooked out. Especially when Yusuf keeps saying he sees monsters and gets scared every other time. I mean really,really scared. And in the past 3-4 weeks none of us got much sleep. Ali Imran keeps waking up crying every minute.

We finally got help and it turned out that there really was something in our house. Especially in the master bedroom. Our house had been empty for a good 2 years. I should have seen this coming.

Anywho,its all good now. Hopefully, things will stay this way :)

Unpacking

Omg........my husband hopes that this would be the last time we'd move.........again :p At least we are back home and not in the city area :)
The kids are tired though. We haven't been home in almost an entire week and the worst part is that we were not staying at one place. It was fun while it lasted. Tiring but fun.

Time off

Yusuf loves soccer. Doesn't matter where. Doesn't matter when.

Pet peeve

This had been bothering me a while now. Why do people with no luggage or trolleys or strollers swarm elevators especially when there are escalators nearby.....??? And then they don't know elevator etiquette. Erm.....if someone is trying to get out,you should move. And if you are going into the elevator, wait for people to get out.....that way,there would be more room for you to get in......And if someone says "excuse me" or "tumpang lalu" it really just means that you are in their path and it would be logical to just budge :-/

Just a thought........

I once had an FB account. It was fun and interactive......sorta. Then shit got serious with photos posted online. How people can just take the pictures you uploaded and use it for whatever they want. No credits. No reference and no way to track. Coz lets face it, anyone can cover their tracks online. Even Georg can do it........

Anywho,it got annoying at one point when people started treating status updates like journal entries. And of course, the confusion it creates like how we'd get when reading text messages and being uncertain about the intonations and stuff...... 

Random thoughts

• I have been listening to System Of A Down's BYOB and singing along to the song......
• Was listening to Limp Bizkit and suddenly I was 16 again.......
• We are moving......again......back to good old Cyberjaya. Home sweet home.
• Losing weight again and it is worrying me......
• The dryer mode on the washing machine changed my life......
• Don't know if I need a major wardrobe overhaul or I just need to not complicate things.
• I miss my Sims and killing in GTA4. And I kinda want to have another go at COD Black Ops. And not to forget dancing with Yusuf to Just Dance.
• My laptop still runs on Windows XP after all these years. Battery-less but working :)
• Everything is AWESOME >_<

Me and my homies be like......

Random memories: Gigs

I once headbanged so hard and a little too much at a gig one night that my neck hurt so much the next day :-/ Maybe it was Rock The World,maybe it was Modar..........

Had a blast everytime I go to concerts. I was singing to every word of every song at Avril's Best Damn Tour :) and Tokio Hotel......although, the kids at TH's concert sucked coz they have no idea what concerts are like -_-

I got totally soaked when it started raining at the Indonesian Rock Concert that my shoes were just muddy. No color. Just mud. All over :p

Things I've learned from having kids

• When packing, make sure you have EVERYTHING. e.g.:-diapers,wet wipes,extra clothes........etc.....
• When travelling, make sure everyone has space and are strapped and secured in their carseats.
• Make space because there will be a lot of things you will be taking with you. Strollers usually take the most space in your car boot.
• Sleeping hours will change from time to time depending on how many kids you have. Usually babies sleep and wake up at the oddest time of the day.
• To the mommies, always use a crossbody or sling handbags which enables you to reach things easily while holding your child- like your mobile phone :-/

15 days already?!

So it's been 15 days since I gave birth. I can still remember the pain of being in labor for 9 hours straight. I almost had a C section and I almost got an epidural shot. I totally passed out. I was heavily drugged due to the pain.......and the screams..........erm........

I am just glad that my baby came out safe and sound.

My boys

Yusuf is such a loving older brother. He understands that his brother is a baby so he keeps talking to him and tries to calm him down when he cries. He just loves his baby brother's crib though.......which isn't really built for toddlers his size i think.

April 27th 2015@3:17pm@DSH

Meet our newest family member!

In a few hours time.....

I'll be heading off to the hospital. Getting a CTG scan to determine if I should be induced.......or not. I'm terrified. I got a different gynea since we moved and it's a different hospital with better facilities. I am praying that everything will go well. I am worried about Yusuf eventhough my mum and my brothers are here for us. I don't want to tire Shu out. It's been a long week as it is.

40 days to go

My dad thinks that I'm suffering a lot coz I am underweight and not gaining enough mass to support my tummy. I am beginning to think the same. My worry now is if I cannot handle the pressure during labor. I just want the baby to be safe no matter what happens. Also, I have a new gynea so I am not sure what to expect. I keep praying and hoping that everything will be alright looking at how close by the hospital is this time around.

Malaysia F1 weekend

We were at Bukit Bintang doing a little shopping and it turned out they had a whole bunch of cars displayed throughout the mall area. Yusuf was yet again super excited.

Yusuf's first F1 experience

Since Yusuf is obsessed with cars,Shu decided to take him to the Sepang circuit to catch a glimpse of the F1 cars up close. Yusuf was super psyched.

32 weeks/56 days to go

This pregnancy has been quite challenging although I haven't been throwing up. I've only been admitted to the hospital once so far. Hopefully it stays that way. I've been trying to get my weight back on track coz a few weeks back I've been losing a lot of weight. Maybe it's just stress. I am already a lot lighter than when I was carrying Yusuf. I sometimes find it funny whenever I look at myself in the mirror and I'm all scrawny with a huge tummy. I just need to get my diet straightened out.

Penang trip January 2015