sunlight

We took Yusuf to his follow up (check up) at HKL yesterday.The appointment was set at 2pm but we got there earlier coz we weren't sure where the building was and what we had to do.Shu dropped us off at the pediatric building and parked the car elsewhere coz the place was PACKED. He parked all the way at IJN :p

I got Yusuf registered and weighed and measured and then we waited for our turn. There were so many people but there were a lot of doctors on duty and plenty of room for everyone. It turns out that the doctor who checked Yusuf was the doctor who came to see him the morning after he arrived at HKL.She was aware of Yusuf's condition and she thought Yusuf seemed very healthy. Alhamdulillah.

However, we asked her about what Yusuf's pediatrician said to us last week about Yusuf's head growth. There a growth chart used by the hospital in Bangi and HKL have their own chart. So after doing a bit of measurement and comparison, we decided to get Yusuf's head scanned anyways just to be safe. We were referred to the radiology department to get an ultrasound scan done on Yusuf's soft head.

Alhamdulillah, everything seemed alright eventhough Yusuf was crying so loud and hard through it all coz he was sleepy and in shocked when we placed him onto the hospital bed. After the scan, we headed back to the clinic area to get the printed photos sorted out and explained.

While waiting, I was distracted by the babies and toddlers around me. There were 2 sets of twins and a very tiny 4 month old baby. Yusuf seemed rather big compared to the 4 month old baby beside me.The doctor said its coz he is fully breastfed so he is healthy and strong. Then again, Shu said the baby I was looking at looked small but he/she weighed just 1kg less than Yusuf's current weight :p

After 2 hours, we finally were able to leave. I just so thankful to know that Yusuf is alright :)

never growing up?

Oh Hello Avril! Never thought I'd see you again the way I first did back when I was 16 ^_^

waka waka

I've been fasting. Replacing and trying and hopefully succeeding at puasa sunat. So far,it's been 3 days. I skipped a day. So far so good. I still have a long way to go. Gosh! I think I have been trying to repay and replace debts (with God) since forever! This just shows what kind of person I have been :-/

It's been so hot. I know that eventhough 33 degrees Celsius isn't as bad as most other places in the country, I do feel it coz I keep getting thirsty throughout the day.I almost drank this morning forgetting that I was fasting. Yusuf hasn't been able to cope with the heat.

Ok,wait. Yusuf never had been able to cope with heat. He sweats ALL THE TIME and then he'd get restless. He hasn't been wearing socks or bootees and mittens anymore. In fact, he's been wearing minimal clothing to help him not sweat. I've been drinking lots of water to help him. I just wish there was something I could do about the heat.

Shu got the car tinted super dark. The air conditioner in the room doesn't seem to help much. I'd set the aircond temperature at 22 degrees and the room temperature would only go down to about 29 degrees max. Hah! The sun sets in a way whereby the red light of the sun setting would glare directly into my room. This makes the room hotter than its supposed to.

We usually have every possible door and window opened just to get some air flow in the house. After 6pm,the house gets pretty warm coz we'd have to close everything up so that the mosquitoes won't get in. I need to fix some screen doors badly.

The cool thing about this house is that we'd have random insects coming in and out which is also a bad thing coz some of them can sting. I DO NOT LIKE FLYING INSECTS THAT CAN STING! >.<

Yusuf's hospital trip

I don't know how to explain it but I think it's coz my son was born with a condition, Shu and I became very VERY overprotective over him. People always say "It's ok,he's gonna be fine" Well,I don't think we would wanna risk anything. It's hard enough to go through 10 days (or more) after birth without being able to hold him and just watch him from outside the incubator in the NICU. I've decided to not risk anything when it comes to him.
I will take care of him.
I will feed him even when I am tired.
I will entertain him.
I will pray for his well being.
I will learn to understand him in times when we are unsure of what's happening with him.
I had cousins who says things like "Our kids were all born early and spent 6 weeks in the incubator" Well, my son was born with lung infection and there were times when he couldn't breathe. He was constantly on the oxygen support so I don't think that our situations are in the slightest bit similar in any way.
I told Shu that I don't trust daycares and even with a maid, I wasn't about to let her juggle between taking care of Yusuf and doing housework.
I've had times when I would come out in the middle of bathing just to feed him coz he's crying. There were occasions when I'd be praying and he cries so I'd stop and calm him down and then start praying all over again.
I'm not complaining. I'll do it for his sake.Until he is stable enough and strong enough, I'll be on my toes for him.

awesome possum

Weekends are usually fun but tiring coz sometimes we'd wake up super early in the morning just to make the most of it and then we'd be out all day and then we'd be home by nightfall. Other times, we'd just laze around at home and play video games or clean the house or maybe just run out to get some groceries.

Speaking of groceries, I am yet again OBSESSED with groceries.  It's weird that growing up, my favorite time spent with my mum would always be grocery shopping and I could memorize the items and aisles. Now, I seem to still love doing it but lately, I've began making lists of the price of things we'd buy and compare them between the hypermarkets/supermarkets around.

I used to be obsessed with laundry but eversince we got someone to do it, I kinda not do it much anymore. I should get back into the habit of cleaning my clothes myself. It liberates my soul. Hahahahahaha!!!!!!!

When I was pregnant, I used to have problems sleeping at night and sometimes, my cure or rather thing to do to past time is to clean the toilet floor. It's weird.........

wedding bells?

OOOH! LIFE!!!! >.<

Despite the chaos this country has been going through, I do pray that what ever the outcome may be,it is for the best. I firmly believe that everything happens for a reason and I pray that we all have faith in God.

Speaking of everything happening for a reason, I did receive some good news about some people I love getting pregnant. It is wonderful news! I can't begin to express how happy it makes me feel inside!!!

Also, Yusuf recently got a new cousin who is all the way in JB ^_^ Can't wait to see her!

And last but not least, I do pray that this will indeed end well for I always feel that something good such as marriage is a sacred thing to do. I do hope that my parents will find the light in all of this. It is always a happy moment to receive new family members.

house hunting?!!

Hahaha! Lately, we've been looking at houses AGAIN. My husband is looking for a house with a bit of land. No, won't be selling off this condo. We would most likely rent it out. Anywho, we were in Nilai the other day just lookin' around thinking that I might have to move for my new job and all. I love some of the houses. They have very unique designs and layouts and DUH it definitely is cheaper than here! But of course, I had my eyes on the 1.3 million Ringgit house :p It comes with a swimming pool!!!!

We're still looking.........and then, we got side tracked........by the idea of getting a bigger car since our current car is all full of stuff. We have Yusuf's stroller occupying 60% of the boot and Yusuf's car seat in the back. I love our current car but then, we thought.......how about getting a Hummer?! WOAH!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! Insanity strikes! I ain't payin a 6 liter SUV road tax! The idea of a bigger car is a good plan but not the Hummer.

It's been weird for me lately especially since I began getting attached to a certain TV Show. I watch cartoons and animes. Not TV Shows. Waiting for a new season sucks. It's like being stuck in space until the new season is released. How the hell did I get here?!!!!

I FINALLY managed to get a haircut!!!!! I thought it would take forever that my hair would end up all over the place when ever I walk around the house.It's short now. Also, the post pregnancy hair loss is annoying me.

It's been really, really, really warm these days. Lately may not be as warm as before but it is warm and it just so happens that my son does not do well in warm weather. He's all red and sweaty and he'd get all annoyed. He bathes 3 times a day and just before bed, we'd have to make sure he is wiped clean with warm water before getting his last diaper change for the day.

The past few weeks have been pretty tiring and fast moving. I hardly leave the house on weekdays. Oh wait, I never leave the house on weekdays.My life is basically revolved around my son.And yet again, I am being spoiled by Mar.She makes sure I eat rice at least once a day coz I have to feed Yusuf. I must say, breastfeeding has motivated me to eat healthier food these days. I'm still a junkaholic but not as bad as before.

I was hanging out with one of my husband's nieces back when we were in Terengganu. She likes Yusuf a lot and they converse with another from time to time.She said she wanted to trade Yusuf with her youngest brother so that she can eat Yusuf. It was funny. She was doing a bit of writing with me. Maybe next time I should bring a whole lot of papers and some toxic-free crayons and we can all have a good doodle time together. Me and all of Yusuf's cousins. Yeah, we should do that...........

PCTFD

Ya know......with all the elections coming up and stuff,I feel like I get more and more annoyed by FB. I mean yeah I am aware that when it comes to elections, campaigning is definitely something unavoidable but when it gets a bit too much, it gets annoying.

Here's how I see it. This event affects everyone coz it could make a drastic change especially when it comes to helping out the needy and of course, knowing that our tax is well spent. I have my stand and I know which direction I would want my country to head to. And yes, I do talk about it with my family and all but let's just  face it, even within a family, not all of us are looking at this the same way and its fine coz I respect their opinions and point of views.

And yes, we have supporters who are campaigning online and stuff. I totally think that its definitely a step up from how it's been done before. Kudos for that. Yey! And again, not everyone is seeing eye to eye on this which is cool coz that's what makes us all different anyways.

What I don't get is that (typically) when rivals come head to head, they each have their own goals and stuff. It's up to us to either accept it or not. Having said that, I can't seem to make sense of it all when the supporters from both sides begin behaving just as bad as the other. So you say A is not a good at ruling coz he's done all this crap and so on and so forth, well, OK, it is time for a change then. But how the hell would that statement convince me when you are behaving the same damn way A is behaving!

The changes you propose are supposed to make things better but it ain't lookin' no better when you start dissing the same way.Not cool AT ALL.It's like we're deciding between 2 sides of the same coin.WTF?!

Again,it's probably a mentality issue.A major issue most Malaysians are facing. I honestly do not have anything against the candidates but I do hope that they can just tell their supporters to CALM THE FUCK DOWN! We're all in this and we're all rooting for a change and we've all been paying our taxes the same way so just please,let's not get things out of control and stay calm.

I do wonder if there would ever be a major change where social problem is concerned. Just trying to do what's best for my kid :)

random shenannigans

I haven't been quite myself lately.
I don't know if it's coz I have nothing much to do or if I have a bit too much on my mind.
Either ways,I have been drowning my so called "lost" self into playtime and bath time and feeding time with Yusuf.
He brings much joy to me.
He speaks now.........in a language which only I can understand.
He's currently in a phase where he is testing his screams. It gets pretty loud. He recently discovered that screaming in small spaces such as in a vehicle or in a department store is fun to do. Of course it is!
And he also discovered that playing with drool is so much fun especially when he is able to tilt his head forward and let his drool get all over his shirt and the arm of the person who holds him and best of all,the floor.
Sometimes, I'd feed him and at some point, he'd play around and later starts choking on his saliva and milk. Of course, I'd have to bring him upwards and pat his back till he is able to breathe again.
He loves bath time and splashing around in the tub.
He loves getting all his clothes off except for his diapers and mittens and booties.
I can tell that once he is able to get up (crawl or walk or run) I may need to put a bell on him.