I feel like people are just confused and this needs to be addressed properly

 I always get asked if my area or my house is flooded coz I have no idea what shit the news is broadcasting throughout the country about the weather.

I live on the sunny side up area of the beach. If we did get a lot of water it would have been from the waves crashing so hard or the rain water accumulating from long hours of rain. The actual flooding happens upstream and the river areas. Water comes gushing down from the mountains and down the rivers. And if you live in town or the city area where water flow always suck.

Erm......upstream is up the river.........downstream is where the water flows down and out into the sea......Does that make sense for everyone?

I sometimes find it strange that people think they know me at all

 They don't. Only Shu knows me for who I truly am. You could pass me in a public place and not recognize me at all. You don't know half of who I am. Don't ever say that you know me coz you don't. What I share with the world or what I share on social media and what I share to family are different, filtered things. Not everyone can understand the different degrees of me and my way of thinking. What I let people know about me are different. The things that I like doing are many and not everyone can take it all in at once. Except Shu, of course. That's why we're married ❤️

why I do the things I do

Why I behave this way

I don't need a reason to be me

I do what I want

-Anyway by Designated Chaos-

I'd say this was a song I wrote solely for myself 😂

It had a lot of Avril influence but hey, I grew up listening to her. It's not the best performing song on the channel but I do what I want and I write how I feel so, I can't please everybody 😉

accidental goal fulfilled

 A few years ago, we decided to move coz I wanted to learn to sail. By the end of that year, I was officially a sailor. The following year, I began writing and somewhere along the way, I found myself in a sailing coach course. By the end of that year, I wrote about 10 books and got my level 1 sailing coach certification.

Continuing with the pursuit of being creative, I continued writing and designing and drawing and painting and before I knew it, I was writing songs a couple of weeks ago. Not the way I usually write songs but before this year ends, I have already put out at least 18 songs on YouTube. It's not something I planned to do but I did it and I am still doing it. And I am also writing and painting and sketching and gaming at the same time.

I have some plans for what I wanna do next but I think it's gonna take some time. I'm up for the challenge. Bring it!

Oh yeah, I have also joined the "Glorious Evolution" of Viktor Nation 😂

someone once said

 If you're gonna do something new and huge like anything from starting a business or a channel or a career, some of the worst people to ever give you any support are family members. It's so weird and so true at the same time. I've always thought it was more of a cultural thing but apparently, it goes all across the board.

The funny thing about me is that I have spent my entire life not getting any form of support whatsoever from family and it's kinda something I'm used to. Shu had always been my biggest supporter no matter what I wanted to do. Again, I don't always succeed and my attempts are sometimes not the best but he had never told me to stop or give up.

I also happened to have a very strong support system from my kids. They will always tell me I'm doing good, no matter what the situation is.

When you're going to change the world, don't ask for permission- Viktor

So, whatever it is I've decided to do had already been decided. I really don't give a shit about what you think coz it's happening, regardless. Sometimes, when you want to do something, it usually just makes sense to you and you alone. People won't always understand why you do it and it's ok. Just stay your course.

let me go

 

The lyrics are me. That is why I wrote is as such. I also like the music style.......It's so.......emo......

Hahahahaaa.........

I am currently at a stage in my life where I am just doing things that I like. I am doing things that brings me so much joy and I am not even getting paid for any of it and it doesn't bother me. I wanted to do what I like and therefore it is what I do. 

People can hate what I make or produce. People can like them. People have opinions. I cannot control them. 

It's just so peaceful to be able to make and create and produce and not think about anything else.

The temperature drop has made is such that my art pieces are not drying properly and it's been about 2 days and the paint is still wet -_- I have paint on my hands now 😂

my apologies

 My head had been on songwriting for the past 1 week and I can't seem to stop. It just keeps coming and everything else is just on hold for now. I haven't abandoned anything, I just.....have not been in tune with everything else.......I had always been writing songs and this is a way for me to do it on my own and it's really helping me write without the help or assistance of other human beings. Also, I had always wanted to make music without having to put my real self out there coz.......I really can't do the whole front-man thing.......

laughing myself to tears

 Shu and I were laughing so hard over breakfast this morning coz I was talking about Artemis Gordon and the Wild Wild West movie. We both know how we feel about theoretical physics but on different levels. Shu hates theoretical physics solely because it's always theorized in an ideal state. I like a little bit of it from time to time but not to the extent of having Michio Kaku's statue erected at our yard 😂

I was quoting some lines from the movie and we were laughing so hard as we were breaking down and analyzing the gadgets and techs from the movie. We can't really be so picky on it coz Barry Sonnenfeld was the guy behind MIB after all. We all know how that shit goes down. But me being me, I am all over Star Trek and Sakura Wars and Voltron and shit. It's never fully real world with me.

Then, as we were driving and stuck at the traffic lights, I asked about how movies and shows depicts war and how the so called "villains" always has some sort of troll in their army. Shu said it's a way of justifying the battle between good and bad. The antagonists will always have some form of disfigured monster like creature on their team. It's only to portray the perfect and good looking ones are the protagonists or heroes.

Arcane, LOTR, Harry Potter.......even Mulan. The Khans are just people. They're Mongolians but they're just peeps. War armors are meant to make them look scary and intimidating just like the Samurais and the Maoris. Still, there had never been a war between people and other creatures......ok, except that one time the Aussies lost the battle against the emus....... 🤣

The best depiction of what war really is was actually portrayed so well in Black Mirror. They had these chips embedded into them so when they go into battle, they won't hesitate to pull the trigger on the innocent civilians coz what they see are monsters. Just like in games. It's so fucked up but it's happening IRL.

this world is a wasteland

 I can't put my emotions into words but.......I cried like a mofo last night. I delayed and refrained myself from watching Act 3 right away last week coz I was still trying to digest Act 2 and getting my shit together. Last night, I bit the bullet and took the plunge. I swear to God I had never been so blown away by a finale.

I started out season 2 not liking Caitlyn as much but that fight scene when she went up against Ambessa. Holy freakin' hell! She got really injured but she kept going! Like a true warrior! Woaaaah!!!! And Mel! I was hoping she'd come back around. Still grounded and still diplomatic but so powerful! That fight scene in itself was like WOAH!!!!

And then, let's not forget Viktor and his "Glorious Evolution" line. I never thought Jayce would do what he did but damn! He came for you, Viktor! I still love Viktor though........I've always liked him........maybe it's the accent. Maybe it's his sarcasm and ideology.........Nah, it's just him.

Jinx was just as how we expected her to be. I swear I was crying when she showed up with Ekko and Come Play was playing in the background. I've been playing that song since it was released and I had been waiting for them to include it in the series and it finally came on and boy, was it EPIC!!!!!

The first episode was really, really nice. I really liked how Powder was helping Ekko and the professor coz that's exactly what she is. A genius. And how Zaun and Piltover was one. OMFG! I almost lost it when I saw Silco coz.......I was really missing him and he was there.......I was in tears.......

*NOT TO FORGET SEVIKA and the rest of the ZAUNITES united!!!!

Ekko was epic. No words can explain him. It was his thing anyways but he took it to the next level and I was losing my shit. I was crying so much coz I was sad and happy both at once. I swear to God if I ever get the guts to do it, I'd watch it all over again for the hell of it coz it's so fucking epic!