often times, I'd lose faith in humanity.....

 Like why things are happening and why we are ignoring certain matters......it does bring me down. I am not immune to it all. I just......feel helpless....

And then, something would happen.....maybe not to me,but to someone I don't know personally....and then, people come together to help.....and then, I'd find my faith in humanity once again. It's not about who you are or what you have, it's the things you do, things you can do......for others.....

Yusuf is growing up and we'd have a lot of chats about social interactions and how we'd go about it. I always tell him how it's been with me growing up. I never try to be someone I'm not. Not when it comes to my kids. I tell them how it is. So now, he understands why I am like this and why I do what I do and why my upbringing was different from Shu's.

I would always remind our kids to always lookout for one another which includes their friends and schoolmates. Especially kids coz they don't know any better and if the adults don't help them, no one would.

Shu said he was watching a movie about this couple.....

 The baseline was that the girl left the guy coz she said he's poor but that was not the real reason. He was constantly whining and not doing anything about it. So Shu said, that is the problem he has with people today. They want everything but they just whine and rant and complain about it but not actually doing anything about it. My stand is clear. I usually ghost people who refuse to help themselves. I feel like it's a waste of my time and energy trying to help someone whose only goal is to rant and complain but not doing anything to change their situation.

Life is not easy. Nothing is. But if you just go on and on about how someone else should spend their money or time that has nothing to do with you,you should probably change something in your life and make that shift. I was once told about it's better to teach a man to fish rather than giving him fish. Well, that's exactly what I do now. I won't give you just coz. If people can hustle and do multiple jobs at once trying to make a better living, so can you.

And the whole social situation about girls saying "I will only marry rich guys" is getting out of control. I can only say, good luck with that. Coz these days, the guys are also looking to marry rich girls only. So.....yeah.....there it goes.....my last flying fuck.....Hahahaha......There is no more hope in humanity 😂

it's official!

 Designated Chaos has finally joined Spotify and YouTube Music and ETC.....

Designated Chaos Spotify

To think that 2026 started with us getting sick......and then the flight delays......and the horrible accident (thanks to my clumsiness) I scraped my arm on a door hinge which sucked coz it hurt like hell......and then....I got assaulted by my own feathered pillow -_- sometimes I wonder if I am actually living a life based on someone's writing on what they think is fuhney......

But then, someone commented on our YouTube channel,saying that we should get our music onto Spotify.....so we did......

hola 2026!

 I'm late coz I haven't been at home.....also.....I've been moving around too much.....eventhough I have all of my shit with me (laptop,iPad,phones,watercolor) I still haven't had the time to do anything much. We were doing way too much shopping. WAY. TOO. MUCH. Shu wanted to take us to Lalaport in KL......I found the Gundam I wanted......so....I bought it.....it's a huge ass box and I have been lugging it around everywhere....and then.....we were in Berjaya Time Square......there was an XL-Toy shop there.....I found a figure I had been looking for.....it wasn't listed on their site.....so I got it.....and then....oh yeah, we were at IOI mall,the New Year's Eve Astro concert was held there....even though we never went for the actual concert, we got to see Alley Cats doing a sound check which was AWESOME!!!!Daymn! They sound good.....

Anywho, managed to use the tub one night and I accidentally forgot to put in a little more cold water into the tub so I uh.....burnt myself 😑 Um.....yeah....Shu booked me a spa sesh and it was pretty good.....I've always like Balinese massages. I've been distracted....too distracted....

The Bambu Lab A1 Mini arrived a few weeks ago. I've been 3D printing shit...getting used to STL files and stuff....learning threshold supports....stuff....Shu got me 400 bux worth of filament and I made quite a lot of things......I've been loving my Sakura Koi watercolor paint set so much that I have been painting a lot on the go. It really is nice to be able to paint again. 

At this point, we are already used to airport security checks that everything is planned ahead. If I am gonna be out of town for more than 3 days, I would usually bring along my laptop so....the security checks is a bit messy coz I have to take my laptop out....but at this point, I usually take everything like my phones and watch and put it into my backpack and I would take out my laptop and iPad out before getting scanned. The process is quick. 

Now, I am currently at the lounge coz our flight had been delayed from 3pm to 8:30pm. YEAAAAAAAAAAAH........I took out all of my shit and starting camping out here 😶‍🌫️