resolved!

I am always telling people to do what they believe in and if they end up doing things they don't like,they should stop doing it only coz other people tell them to do so.Ironically,things never turned out that way with me.I was shoved into doing shit I hated for years and the worst (or best) part is that I survived.I did it.

I hated school and I wanted to be home schooled but such things cannot be done.Not here.Not in this country.So I was shoved into school.Spent 11 years there and thought that when I was done with the major exams when I was 17,I was done with school.I was wrong.I was very wrong.

Shit loads of things headed my way after that.The university I shoved into wasn't somewhere I wanted to be at all.I wasn't given much choice.I was threatened to either do it or I was gonna get kicked out.I almost did quit halfway through but I couldn't risk not being able to play with my band.The only way I could do what I love most in the entire world (jamming & making music) was for me to endure the degree program.

I really was on the verge of suicide AGAIN.Managed to pull myself right out of it and here I am now.Happily out of the God-Forsaken place I hated so very much.

SO........I can't really tell people shit like "if you don't like doing it,then you might as well drop everything and leave before it's too late" coz I am the living proof of having to go through such things in my life.

I'mma surviver,muthafuckas!

Because I have survived such hell in my life,I've decided to give myself a break by just doing what ever I want now ;) Let's start with getting into a fashion school...........

major issues

I am going to say this and I am going to be really honest about it.

I really am not up for working.I've been sending in job applications only because I have to.I'm not up for a routine life.Not yet.

As boring as it may seem,I really lurve waking up super late in the mornings (afternoons) and not knowing what's gonna happen.Not knowing where I'm gonna end up at the end of the day.Not knowing what I'll be doing.

It's not like I've given up on my band.Not completely.I just cannot find my bandmates (Kamal & Ayie)

I cannot wait for 2010 coz I am getting a bit sick of so many people swarming the malls.Even on weekdays!WTF?!

I really wanna go on a holiday away from the city.

I was just telling Shu that I may not want to stay in KL.I am not a city person.I'm not a people person.

I wanna find a place where I can just take my time to do what ever it is I want and I want to feel happy and comfortable being where I'll be with the people (and animals) I love ^_^

Omaticaya of Pandora:The Na'vi

*This is a spoiler for the movie Avatar by Cameron.Please do NOT proceed reading this is you have not watched the movie!*

I really thought the movie was so much better than Disney's Princess and the Frog.Seriously,I have seen loads more of Disney's previous original animated films which were so much better with songs you'd actually wanna sing-a-long to long after the movie is over..........

*sigh*

Anywho.........

I was so overwhelmed by the movie Avatar!Seriously,when I first saw the trailer months and months ago,I didn't think I'd wanna bother watching the movie.I am ever so glad I did!And Azim was right,we should have gone for the 3D .Like seriously,the entire movie was made for a 3D release!The cinematography of course.........

Let's put aside the very base of the movie which is the theme coz like most other movies we've seen eversince the 9/11 incident,this movie was also about the invasion of a foreign country and it's complete with the killing of the a great leader alongside the destruction of innocent people's homes...........

I thought the whole idea of the creature's connection with one another through bio-chemistry was interesting.Like these Omaticaya have some sort of thingy at the end of their braided hair which is used to connect to any creature they wish to get onto as mode of transportation like a usb port or somesort which they call tsaháylu.

*Yes,I know!!!!!A new language!Yey!!!!!*

The creatures in general (on Pandora) were somewhat strange but mostly looks as though they are based on the creatures which are currently present.The colorful and glowy part of them are most probably inspired from the deep sea creatures which glows in the dark depths of the ocean.

Having been a Star Trek (TNG) fan,I think the whole idea of being able to get into a machine which helps transfer yourself into another body (psychologically) was something I never saw coming.Avatar is most commonly understood as a representation of one's self when being in other realms like the internet......or something.It just never occurred to me that the avatar they were talking about regarding the movie was exactly that.

*I know.....talk about ultimate slowness!*

I think the part that totally (almost) made me cry was when the Omaticayas saw their home (the Hometree) burned down to the grounds.They were literally crying the way we'd see war victims cry on TV after an attack on their homes.

*This is when I wanna start talking about how human beings are destructive creatures*

Seriously,what's wrong with living with Mother Nature?

Ok,here's the part where I'm just gonna spill the entire movie plot.........

The entire movie was about homosapiens attacking the Omaticaya over some mineral source which happens to be UNDER their Hometree.SO....the only way they can get their hands on those things which costs zillions is by driving out the natives.Sounds familiar?Uh-uh......from the history of Native Americans to the Afghanistan war.Well,in Disney's Pocahontas as well <---my all time fav movie! ^_^

Bottom line is I am most likely to TRY to get my ass into one of them 3D cinemas to watch this movie AGAIN!Doubt that I'd get in especially this weekend.

not listening,nope,na'ah

I hear..........sounds........sometimes buzzing.......sometimes squeeking..........white noise.........hurmm........

I just figured that I tend to just stop listening to a person if he/she has a certain voice tone that completely shuts my brain down.I'd end up listening to only 50% to what they're saying.......maybe less........

out and about

Had one of those late night lepak session at the mamak with my sister my 3 brothers.It was fun.Haven't done that in a long while.I was telling a story about a movie and after I was about 80% done,Rashid asked me if I had seen the movie.Aiyo!

We had a hard time laughing out loud in the car coz we were talking about horrible subtitles in English movies and surprisingly,Azim and Qarim came out with some of the worst I have ever heard.

Oh yeah!Qarim so came clean about his new girlfriend.Nevermind the fact that she looks like a goodie two shoes (in the picture on his cellphone),I was more worried if she was one of those freakos like that girl he liked before back in his school.Well,from what he's told us,the girl ain't that type of person.That's good.Coz I'd be worried if she can't lay back and hang with us.AND......she's a Scorpio.Haha!

My sister just realized that she's become this boring person from all the books she's been reading.Like right now,she's reading a book about the Russian cold war.WTF?!I have a strange feeling that all her years of debating has something to do with it.Oh well........

While Azim is busy shuffling with jumpstarts and stuff,Rashid just got himself a white shirt today coz he said his band is going for a mafia image and he's gotta wear a white shirt with suspenders!I actually picked up this nice one for him but he insisted on getting a black one :/

Yes,we all agree that Snow Bear is somewhat human :p