kill me if you dare

I was kept up all night by the dissatisfaction of Tokio Hotel's end product of the Automatic video.I really don't like their songs in English and the video was awful.I expected something a whole lot more since it was after all shot in South Africa!

I don't feel like I've been fasting at all these days.I was throwing up since morning so mum told me to fill my tummy out before I started going overboard with all the gastric juice.This month had been the worst month ever.I am always hungry and my health has gone way down.I feel like a vegetable most of the time.

Went to IKEA with Shu coz he wanted to get those curry puffs they make.We bumped into CT.Haven't seen that girl in ages.Most of my school friends remember Shu from my 17th birthday bash.Shu wasn't so sure on who is who so he was surprised to hear CT say that she remembers him.

Anywho,I am still on a fashion hunt.Been going in and out of stores looking for a pair of knee high boots.I lurve them Ugg boots but until I can get myself to Australia anytime soon,I'm gonna have to just find whatever around here.I fell in love with some of the boots over at ALDO.

Shu and I have a list of things to buy once Hari Raya is over.He wants to get an RC car.I figured I should get some new wheels for the skateboard and just practise till I can no longer take the fall anymore.

Mum will be heading to Bandung sometime in November.I'm planning to tag along since I won't have anything to do then.Hahaha!I'm hoping Shu will come along so that we can get our wedding invitation card done there.I am so getting some kain batiks!

Not So Quarantined:Day6

Got earlier than the last 2 days but it was still late.I could have gotten more sleep if Fei Mao didn't make so much noise about wanting to come into my room and all.

*sigh*

Anywho,I was out and about with Shu.We went to the mall for a bit coz I needed to get shampoo.Rashid had been using my shampoo and I only used it once or twice and I found the bottle empty.Not very happy about that.

We went to check out the RC store coz Shu is planning on getting one after raya.Those things are supercool but I need a whole stash of cash and passion to get started on it.I think I'm gonna watch and observe and learn more about those things before actually getting one myself.

I went snooping around the rabbit's cage at the pet store next door.I got bitten by one of those things.Thank God its teeth was not sharp!Then,I looked at the hamsters and the fish and we left.

We got some takoyakis!YEY!We're always around that takoyaki shop eating and chatting away and we haven't been there in a while so today,we decided to get some for buka ^_^

Oh!I saw these awesome pair of Adidas all-terrain crosstrainers!ME WANT IT!

We went to get some stuff for my mum and then we did some food shopping and headed home.We walked quite a lot today.I could tell by how painful my knee tendon hurts.Hahahaha!I am gonna need one of those sonotron treatments again one of these days.I am also in major need of endless workout routines!

Not so Quarantined:Day 5

I've been going out......with my mask on,of course.It does get pretty darn boring staying in.Went out for a drink last night.It was pretty funny.I did quite a lot of things yesterday considering the fact that I got up at 3pm.Haha!

As usual,Shu and I were experimenting in the kitchen.Our experiment worked!Hahahaha!

Quarantined:Day 4

I took a walk outside last night.I got so sick of staying in.I stayed up till morning watching TV.Shu is planning to sneak me out later while my folks are out ;)

My being infected should not be kept.I should use this opportunity to spread this virus to the world.Let's start with my university since I hate that place so much.I should cough and sneeze everywhere beginning with the medical unit and then the admin.Oh!I should have done this since I first got the results!

instead of being sick and locked up all by myself

I figured maybe I should go out and spread the virus tomorrow and let the whole world fall sick.Why waste this opportunity to do something for the world?

Hahahahahahahaaaa!!!!!!!!!<---evil laugh

Shu has been hugging and kissing and temaning me eat and talking to me and sometimes he doesn't even wear a mask.I cried to him today.I can't take this anymore.He offered to sneak me out today but we didn't coz my folks were around.He wanted to take me to the park.

It's not like I could kill someone.I could kill myself most likely coz I am still in a recovering state but seriously,does it really take a whole 7 days to keep me in?I don't want to take those fluhalt pills anymore coz seriously,they could kill me.I was fine before I started taking them.Yeah,I had a temperature and some head throbbing at times but after 2 days (1 day actually) it was gone and I am fine.My nose is stuck coz I cried not because of some flu.

I'm gonna start sneezing out the window and see what's gonna happen ^_^

Quarantined:Day 3

Food does NOT taste or feel good goin up your throat and out your mouth.It works better the other way around.

It is just unfortunate for me to have made the 1% of people who would have adverse reactions towards those fluhalt capsules!I threw up 4 times yesterday.Twice after popping a pill after a meal.I just popped one today and I think I'm gonna go AGAIN.I want to stop taking it but the docs tell me that those are the vital meds I have to consume.Well,guess what........if I do throw up after this,I ain't takin' no more pills and I am gonna stop this whole quarantine game coz I am fine!

I am sick of staying in,watching a lightning-free rain go by from my window.I am sick of not being able to run around freely in the sun.My cat misses me!They look at me weird when I see them with a mask on my face and they wonder why I haven't left my room at all.

*I threw up already*

I think mum is gonna take me to the hospital.I'm waiting for Shu.

This is sick.The pills actually make me sick!

I need to get my hair washed!

automatisch by tokio hotel

Wenn du lachst

Lachst du nicht

Wenn du weinst

Weinst du nicht

Wenn du fühlst

Fühlst du nichts

Weil du ohne Liebe bist

A long awaited album.Finally the first single is out.I think I've been listening to it millions of times over within the last couple of days that I keep hearing it playing in my head.

I have put one thing on my list of things to do as soon as I can leave the premises.I wanna go do my hair BIG TIME!

Shu has plans for buka puasa sessions outside while mum and Aunty Intan has plans to take me to the place in KL to have me try on some wedding gowns.

They (Aunty Intan and mum) actually bought me a pink cotton baju kurung with sakura prints all over it.It's so preeeeeetty but when I saw the tag with the size XS,I didn't think I'd fit it.I wear a size S for ready made baju kurungs but I've never tried XS.Luckily,the baju kurung fits me.

Hahaha!Shu made a funny remark about that.He says that he wears XL while I wear XS.Hurmm......and the miss XS is the one who is always up for tackling mister XL in rugby games.The plan usually fails.Shu would just walk pass me without any problems.

P.S.: NEVER EVER poke your hamster they are asleep.Mine bit me and when I pulled my hand away she flew right out from her home onto my room floor.My right finger is bleeding a little :p

Quarantined:Day 2

Just as I thought things were gonna get better,I accidentally cut myself from opening the crab shell while I was eating yesterday.I was happily enjoying the crab Shu bought me and I was telling Shu that breaking the shell open was the calming part of the eating process and I cut myself.I didn't see it at first so I carried on eating.I stopped and felt totally grossed out when I saw blood flowing down my palm.EUW!

It's horrible to know that every part of me has to be sanitized.I know that I am only at the first stage of the viral infection and any healthy person who touches me must wash their hands after doing so and that if I were to talk to anyone they must wear a mask just as much as I have to.All the tissues and whatever things I have used must be disposed separately and carefully.

Shu helped send my MC to my lecturers and my course department earlier today.I don't know what I'd do without him.This is so weird.I am trying very hard to stay ok and I am trying my best to get better but my quarantine period is still a week.I sometimes feel fine.So fine that I could probably go running in the park.Sometimes,my body temperature hikes up and that gives me the throbbing headache which really3 sucks.

I miss laughing with Shu and who ever who passes by at the dining table downstairs.I miss making fun of people on the road as well as my siblings.I miss picking on Rashid and grossing him out so much that he'd whack me.I miss listening to my sister going nuts over little things.Today was the first time I saw Kak Yah in 2 days.I haven't seen my grandma and I don't think she knows my condition.

Shu has spent his time thinking of things to do once my quarantine period is over.Actually,I haven't quite thought of what I'd wanna do just yet.I spend way too much time laughing at my hamster whenever she falls asleep.She sleeps in very strange positions and sometimes she'd get nightmares.

I really want this all to be over ASAP!

Quarantined:Day 1

I was super fine this morning.Finally got to shower and washed my hair and all.I was on the phone with Shu (who was in UNITEN) and we were laughing about something he accidentally blurted out to his project supervisor.Hahahahaa!!!!!Awang Goneng betul!

As time passed,I think it must have been about 2pm-ish,my head and my entire body starting throbbing (aching).That was so painful that I wanted God to just pull the plug on me coz I couldn't take it.Finally,I passed out.I was super hungry when I got up so my mum prepared some food for me to eat downstairs.

I had to eat coz I can't take the meds on an empty stomach.Right after I drank down a Ponstan capsule,I went to bathroom to brush my teeth and I totally threw up.I think the pill went right back out.

Anywho,I feel better now.Shu is on his way back here.He went to get himself checked and he is cleared.Thank God!I am trying my very best to stay away from my mum coz her lungs are fragile.Can't do that much coz she's the house doctor so she has to monitor me.So,we'd usually have our masks on when we talk and we'd keep our distance (which is so funny) I am trying to stay away from Azim coz he's sick.I definitely have to avoid my grandmother.

So that basically leaves me with my hamster.She's so chomel when she yawns............