me want now!

I am not up for working.Not yet.I haven't looked for a job.Not going to.Not anytime soon.

I just wanna lepak and shop.

I wanna do art all day.

I wanna go travel some place else.

I'm too bored to not do anything but I'm too malas to work now :p

babysitting

Funny.Considering the fact that I don't even have a baby.I do but he's obviously not a homosapien.Hah!

Kecik is just a few days away from having that cone collar removed from his neck.I'm just making sure that he's comfy so I'm always trying to do what he wants like giving him a scratch at spots he can't reach on his body.Giving him a good chin rub till he falls asleep.I even let him sleep in my room these days.I just want him to know that we're not doing this to hurt him.I don't care if he hates the vet but I hope he knows that we (Shu and I and even my folks and Kak Yah) are doing the best we can in trying to show him some love.

Ghost aka Snow Bear is altogether another problem.He's too smart for a kitten and it can sometimes annoy me.He's good at opening lids and doors with his paws.He doesn't even have fingers!How the hell does he do such things?!I was afraid if he'd fall into that hole in the kitchen.Its actually a drain hole like the ones in showers where there's a lid on it.Snow Bear is tiny enough to get himself sucked into one of those.

Bedah has shown signs of madness today.More than usual.I caught her biting the metal pipe on her water bottle several times.I have put every damn biteable thing in her home.What more does she need?!

Gemok and my sister were doing the usual cat communication in the room yesterday and then out of nowhere,there was a third mewing coming from the window.It was that cute grey cat whose usually downstairs behind the house asking for food.She lurves my window and she was actually talking to Gemok.That was pretty funny!

Shu's folks stopped by at my house this morning.They had some light breakfast and talked about a few things with my folks and then they left for Terengganu.Shu had gone with them to get a car and some stocks.He should be back by Sunday.I hope they'll all get home safely with the flood and all :/

I know I should be looking for a job now but.........

It's been sometime since Shu and I went out to just lepak.Ok,I know,we always do it but the last couple of days felt so long.It feels like I've been super sick and he's been going back and forth about his business.Today was just plain and simple.We walked around the mall(s) and sat down for cake and some drinks and then carried on walking around again.Managed to get the eye liner in the color I want.I feel pretty much 70% recovered.

Shu drove Kecik to the vet this morning.I was sick and still in bed.He said Kecik had some part of his flesh cut off.He said Kecik was in so much pain that he was literally screaming.I'm glad I wasn't there.I couldn't have been able to hold up.After that,Shu came home waited for me to get up and he took me to the clinic.The doctor took a look at me and I am so thankful that it's nothing serious.I really cannot get myself quarantined again.That would totally suck!

I still don't feel safe being in my room eventhough my dad has gotten the window fixed.I go to bed with a bokken at my side.I have trouble leaving things like my engagement ring and my wallet and cellphone lying around.I don't trust anyone I don't know in TTDI.Especially those so called security home guards.WTF?!Those people are supposed to keep this place safe la konon.Blah la!I feel like they just made this place a whole lot worse.

Yeah,there used to be robberies and break-ins but I think the statistics and hiked up a whole lot eversince these strangers invaded our housing area.They'd go on bikes all around TTDI kononnyer nak tengok2 but I seriously think they are the informers to the people who'd do the dirty work.I know I am being judgmental but I've lived here for about 18 years now and I DEFINITELY know WTF goes on over the years here in TTDI.

I want those people to leave TTDI!

how to tell people to shut the hell up

We can't.It just won't happen.People are sensitive beings and they only think about themselves when they say something.They won't bother about considering how you would feel.And the other thing I've learned about these creatures (people) is that they would always say negative things about you no matter how well you do in life.They always want to say that they are doing better.How could you measure better when you don't even like or care about what they do?

I like doing what ever it is I do.I make decisions when I am sober and if I make a mistake,it is going to be my mistake.Not anyone else's.People also like telling you things that doesn't matter much to you.How do I tell them that I don't care and that they are wasting their time?

So yeah,I have no clue how to tell people to shut the hell up regardless if it is because I do not care about what they are talking about or it's because I don't wanna hear what they have to say.So,I'd say the best thing to do is to avoid them at all causes.That way,we not only save time and energy but save ourselves from going through another one of those boring whatever talks.

hunting for a new laptop......again.......

It's weird how I am not so upset about my laptop getting stolen.I'm just upset that someone broke into our house.I have serious issues about private territories being violated by strangers.Worse,I really hate it when people mess around with my things!

I'mma be on my way to looking for a new laptop (although I really3 lurved mine so I might just get something exactly the same) At the same time,Shu's sister wants the same laptop as the one I lost so we'd probably end up getting 2 laptops.Maybe 3 coz Shu is gonna need a laptop as soon as his business takes off.

I am coming down with a fever.I think.I can't go on looking at what the doctor does to Kecik everytime we go to the vet to get his stitches cleaned.The wound is deep and it looks like Kecik was in an awful lot of pain.Today,Shu followed me to the vet and helped hold down Kecik on the examination table.I couldn't look at Kecik.He was mewing in pain.

My other problem is finding the time to get Ghost aka Snowbear aka Snobe vaccinated.My sister thinks I'm too paranoid about my cats that I am splurging cash on them like their lives depend on it.Actually,it kinda is.Still,my sister told me to stop worrying about the cats and I am having a hard time trying.

I am looking for time to draw or sketch which would probably be possible AFTER I clean up my room which most probably happens day after tomorrow.

I'm just glad that Shu is home.