resolved!

I am always telling people to do what they believe in and if they end up doing things they don't like,they should stop doing it only coz other people tell them to do so.Ironically,things never turned out that way with me.I was shoved into doing shit I hated for years and the worst (or best) part is that I survived.I did it.

I hated school and I wanted to be home schooled but such things cannot be done.Not here.Not in this country.So I was shoved into school.Spent 11 years there and thought that when I was done with the major exams when I was 17,I was done with school.I was wrong.I was very wrong.

Shit loads of things headed my way after that.The university I shoved into wasn't somewhere I wanted to be at all.I wasn't given much choice.I was threatened to either do it or I was gonna get kicked out.I almost did quit halfway through but I couldn't risk not being able to play with my band.The only way I could do what I love most in the entire world (jamming & making music) was for me to endure the degree program.

I really was on the verge of suicide AGAIN.Managed to pull myself right out of it and here I am now.Happily out of the God-Forsaken place I hated so very much.

SO........I can't really tell people shit like "if you don't like doing it,then you might as well drop everything and leave before it's too late" coz I am the living proof of having to go through such things in my life.

I'mma surviver,muthafuckas!

Because I have survived such hell in my life,I've decided to give myself a break by just doing what ever I want now ;) Let's start with getting into a fashion school...........

major issues

I am going to say this and I am going to be really honest about it.

I really am not up for working.I've been sending in job applications only because I have to.I'm not up for a routine life.Not yet.

As boring as it may seem,I really lurve waking up super late in the mornings (afternoons) and not knowing what's gonna happen.Not knowing where I'm gonna end up at the end of the day.Not knowing what I'll be doing.

It's not like I've given up on my band.Not completely.I just cannot find my bandmates (Kamal & Ayie)

I cannot wait for 2010 coz I am getting a bit sick of so many people swarming the malls.Even on weekdays!WTF?!

I really wanna go on a holiday away from the city.

I was just telling Shu that I may not want to stay in KL.I am not a city person.I'm not a people person.

I wanna find a place where I can just take my time to do what ever it is I want and I want to feel happy and comfortable being where I'll be with the people (and animals) I love ^_^

Omaticaya of Pandora:The Na'vi

*This is a spoiler for the movie Avatar by Cameron.Please do NOT proceed reading this is you have not watched the movie!*

I really thought the movie was so much better than Disney's Princess and the Frog.Seriously,I have seen loads more of Disney's previous original animated films which were so much better with songs you'd actually wanna sing-a-long to long after the movie is over..........

*sigh*

Anywho.........

I was so overwhelmed by the movie Avatar!Seriously,when I first saw the trailer months and months ago,I didn't think I'd wanna bother watching the movie.I am ever so glad I did!And Azim was right,we should have gone for the 3D .Like seriously,the entire movie was made for a 3D release!The cinematography of course.........

Let's put aside the very base of the movie which is the theme coz like most other movies we've seen eversince the 9/11 incident,this movie was also about the invasion of a foreign country and it's complete with the killing of the a great leader alongside the destruction of innocent people's homes...........

I thought the whole idea of the creature's connection with one another through bio-chemistry was interesting.Like these Omaticaya have some sort of thingy at the end of their braided hair which is used to connect to any creature they wish to get onto as mode of transportation like a usb port or somesort which they call tsaháylu.

*Yes,I know!!!!!A new language!Yey!!!!!*

The creatures in general (on Pandora) were somewhat strange but mostly looks as though they are based on the creatures which are currently present.The colorful and glowy part of them are most probably inspired from the deep sea creatures which glows in the dark depths of the ocean.

Having been a Star Trek (TNG) fan,I think the whole idea of being able to get into a machine which helps transfer yourself into another body (psychologically) was something I never saw coming.Avatar is most commonly understood as a representation of one's self when being in other realms like the internet......or something.It just never occurred to me that the avatar they were talking about regarding the movie was exactly that.

*I know.....talk about ultimate slowness!*

I think the part that totally (almost) made me cry was when the Omaticayas saw their home (the Hometree) burned down to the grounds.They were literally crying the way we'd see war victims cry on TV after an attack on their homes.

*This is when I wanna start talking about how human beings are destructive creatures*

Seriously,what's wrong with living with Mother Nature?

Ok,here's the part where I'm just gonna spill the entire movie plot.........

The entire movie was about homosapiens attacking the Omaticaya over some mineral source which happens to be UNDER their Hometree.SO....the only way they can get their hands on those things which costs zillions is by driving out the natives.Sounds familiar?Uh-uh......from the history of Native Americans to the Afghanistan war.Well,in Disney's Pocahontas as well <---my all time fav movie! ^_^

Bottom line is I am most likely to TRY to get my ass into one of them 3D cinemas to watch this movie AGAIN!Doubt that I'd get in especially this weekend.

not listening,nope,na'ah

I hear..........sounds........sometimes buzzing.......sometimes squeeking..........white noise.........hurmm........

I just figured that I tend to just stop listening to a person if he/she has a certain voice tone that completely shuts my brain down.I'd end up listening to only 50% to what they're saying.......maybe less........

out and about

Had one of those late night lepak session at the mamak with my sister my 3 brothers.It was fun.Haven't done that in a long while.I was telling a story about a movie and after I was about 80% done,Rashid asked me if I had seen the movie.Aiyo!

We had a hard time laughing out loud in the car coz we were talking about horrible subtitles in English movies and surprisingly,Azim and Qarim came out with some of the worst I have ever heard.

Oh yeah!Qarim so came clean about his new girlfriend.Nevermind the fact that she looks like a goodie two shoes (in the picture on his cellphone),I was more worried if she was one of those freakos like that girl he liked before back in his school.Well,from what he's told us,the girl ain't that type of person.That's good.Coz I'd be worried if she can't lay back and hang with us.AND......she's a Scorpio.Haha!

My sister just realized that she's become this boring person from all the books she's been reading.Like right now,she's reading a book about the Russian cold war.WTF?!I have a strange feeling that all her years of debating has something to do with it.Oh well........

While Azim is busy shuffling with jumpstarts and stuff,Rashid just got himself a white shirt today coz he said his band is going for a mafia image and he's gotta wear a white shirt with suspenders!I actually picked up this nice one for him but he insisted on getting a black one :/

Yes,we all agree that Snow Bear is somewhat human :p

Christmas shopping!

Yey!

My dad drove my mum,my sister and I to the mall today.He dropped us off outside and left.My brothers came in a car.All 3 of them.The plan was to do what ever shopping and then have brunch or early dinner and then go home.

My sister and I spent a whole lot of time at the Clinique booth talking to the promoter about my sister's face skin condition.Strange.I thought she just started using H2O about 3 weeks ago.Anywho,she was torn between trying out Biotherm or Clinique.Finally,I told her about the reviews I read and heard about Clinique's 3 step skin care system and she decided to give it a go in the end.Haha!

I am so NOT the type to use moisturizers and toners which is an ultimate faux pas in skin care but I don't care.I have a facial cleanser and that's it.Ok,here is a sin I commit when it comes to skin and make up.I admit that I'd wash my face with a cleanser and then pat it dry and head straight for the primer :p

Well,here's the thing.I do not use foundation coz I'd usually just use pressed powder or something.I always ALWAYS ALWAYS splurge on eye make up.I cannot make sense of the liquid eyeliner so it usually ends up being the thing I'd use to draw on my face.Hahahahaha!!!!!

Ahem!

I finally got the Schwarzkopf Bonacure Moisture Kick spray on conditioner I've been looking for.I got the 200ml bottle ^_^ SUH-WEET!

For wanting ice cream today,I was pushed to going home with my brothers in the car they came in.That wasn't such a big deal.The big deal was that the car was parked all the way at the underground hotel parking space.Getting there took us quite some time coz the elevator we were supposed to take was not fully functional AND there were shitloads of people waiting for it.

SO..........my brothers and I decided to ditch the elevator and headed for the stairs which did not exist.SO.......we had to walk into the hotel area and got into a hotel elevator and headed down to the concourse and then get into another elevator down to the basement car park.Getting out from the car park was a whole different story.

Well,that was pretty much what happened during our trip to the mall today minus the part that the place was not as clustered as I thought it would have been,I'd say it was a pretty good trip ;)

I really lurve the Color Shop.I did my hair there once.I think if I ever have to get a haircut or hair wash I'd just head over there.The dude who sold me the conditioner asked if I wanted to get a haircut.I told him I'd come back for one if everything else fails (regarding my hair and all I have done to it)

in major need

I need new shades of eye shadows.Maybe some shimmery ones.Something other brown!The only reason I use loads of brown is coz my eye color is brown :/ I don't even use black eye liners.I have shit loads of problems when it comes to using liquid or gel eye liners.I am still LEARNING to use the make up brushes I have.AND.........I don't have a blusher!Yey!

Honestly,I don't quite use THAT much make up.I like eye make up loads but that's it.I have never even owned a lipstick!Hah!

Right now,I am in the state of mind to sell off my things (what ever it is I have that I no longer use) I can't work with too many things (owned items) SO........I'mma be selling them all off real soon.I'm constantly getting rid of clothes coz I really don't use all of them.I'd wear t-shirts till they look really awful and too painful to be seen on me :D<---that usually drives my dad insane.

I think SnowBear cut his paw.It was dripping blood when I picked him up togo for a drive tonight.Shu tried to clean it up but the little guy kept screaming and screaming like we were gonna kill him! :/ Then again,he's always been like that even when we just gonna put some eye drops into his eyes.Oh well........

It's weird how I feel like I'm on a holiday when I really should be getting a job but I just can't be bothered and I'm just happy to be helping Shu out with his business :p

*Can't help it,love.I love hanging out with youuuuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >.<*

And I like doing happy dances ^_^

42!

Spent the last couple of days in UNITEN.I was supposed to help Shu set up his booth and sell stuff but I ended up selling a whole lot of my books instead.For dirt cheap only coz I shall be moving AGAIN so I do not intend to carry shit loads of things especially heavy stuff.I managed to clear out loads of my books PLUS I managed to sell off the cooling pad and mouse I got free with the laptop the other day ^_^

It's been tiring but really fun coz I was mingling with different types of kids selling different things and stuff.There were some girls selling customizable stuff like necklaces and charm bracelets and stuff.I saw some really neat tops too but I never got to go over and check them out coz only Shu and I were at the booth and I really wouldn't wanna go around alone :(

There was this one kid from the booth opposite ours who came back and forth.It started with my FFX Kotobukiya Lulu resin statue.Only people whom are aware of how much she's worth would take a closer look and not be surprised at the price I was selling her/it for (which I think is really cheap looking at the trouble and amount of cash it cost me) but of course,no one bought it anyways coz it was selling at a very high price ;)

*psst......in a way........I kinda think I like her still so I ain't gonna let her go that easily :p*

People kept asking us if the Super Mario brothers hats we had on were for sale but we disappointed a whole lot of them by telling them to head over to Giffy themselves to get it<---been promoting Giffy a lot these days.

One dude came to our booth to get some books and Shu mentioned something about ABRSM and music and stuff and he(the dude) started telling us about his kids and the musical instruments he had at home.The next thing we know,he wanted Shu's card coz his company organizes a lot of functions and my band might be able to get some gig slots some day ;)

Just before packing up,the project manager of the entire event walked up to Shu and started talking to him about some business opportunities where he can expand his business and increase sales.That is good news.He will arrange a meeting with Shu sometime next week to discuss business.Yey!

twist and shout

Everytime I try do a happy dance,the happy song changes from time to time.Strange.........I really lurve Cornman by Kinky.I also lurve The Go! Team's Get It Together and some random Hip Hop song...........or something.I dig Punjabi MC a lot.Haha!

But......for 2009,my ultimate HAPPY DANCE looks like this........

Complete with my Super Mario hat and my dad's shoe horn thingys ^_^