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......from Umbridge.......

The only time Shu and I could ever hang out during the weekdays would be in the mornings only coz he starts work at 4:30pm.Well,days which are not Tuesdays would be funner in a way coz I'd usually leave for work around 1pm-ish.Need to have time for the journey to work in case of traffic jams......also,I have the tendency to get lost :p

Which I did actually.Well,it wasn't as bad as the first time I drove to work.I always manage to get to my workplace but I'd get lost on my way home.There was a huge lorry that jumped the red light at the junction where I was supposed to turn and at that moment,I really thought I wasn't supposed to turn right at that junction :/

Anywho,I missed my exit on my home yesterday so I ended up on a busier road.I wasn't like lost or whatever.I just missed an exit.

Shu and I went to watch Alice in Wonderland (in 3D!) again this morning ^_^ That would be my 3rd time watching that movie in the last days.I've always known that I have this insane attraction towards Tim Burton movies but watching it in 3D sure makes it a whole lot muchilicious!

Also,I hate weekend and school holiday crowd (and kids!)

by Danny Elfman

Oh, Alice, dear where have you been?

So near, so far or in between?

What have you heard what have you seen?

Alice, Alice, please, Alice!

Oh, tell us are you big or small

To try this one or try them all

It's such a long, long way to fall

Alice, Alice, oh, Alice

How can you know this way not that?

You choose the door you choose the path

Perhaps you should be coming back

Another day, another day

And nothing is quite what is seems

You're dreaming are you dreaming, oh, Alice?

(Oh, how will you find your way? Oh, how will you find your way?)

(There's not time for tears today. There's no time for tears today.)

So many doors , how did you choose

So much to gain so much to lose

So many things got in your way

No time today, no time today

Be careful not to lose your head

Just think of what the doormouse said,Alice!

Did someone pull you by the hand?

How many miles to Wonderland?

Please tell us so we'll understand

Alice!Alice!Oh, Alice

(Oh how will you find your way?Oh, how will you find your way?)

a much rejuvenated muchness

Went to watch Alice in Wonderland......in 3D.......again........Hah!Actually I just wanted to take my littlest brother,Azim,to watch the movie coz he wanted to come with me the other day but the tix were fully booked at the time.So took him out today ;)

Anyways,I am super excited over the new vanity table Shu and I put together today.Well,we got it last week but we didn't have time to assemble the whole thing.This morning,we took the time to do it.It's so NICE!!!!!!!I finally have a proper mirror!

Oh!AND.......my folks decided to get me a cupboard.A proper one.It's BIG!And off-white-ish and me likes its!At least I have a proper place to my clothes into.

D'oh!

P.S.: I got really pissed off by GSC coz they have 13 freakin' cinemas and the 1 with the busted 3D whatever had to be the one showing Alice in Wonderland!WHY THE HELL were they STILL SHOWING the stupid Transformers movie anyways?That movie is so 20 years ago!ANCIENT!

Tokio Hotel feat Kerli (Almost Alice)

A Freak of nature

Stuck in reality.

I don't fit the picture

I'm not what you want me to be.

Sorry

Under the radar,

Out of the system,

Caught in the spotlight,

That's my existance.

You want me to change,

But all I feel is strange!

Strange, in your perfect world.

So-o-o strange, strange!!

I feel so absurd in this life.

Don't come closer.

In my arms,

Forever you'll be

Strange!

Strange!

You want to fix me,

Push me,

Into your fantasy.

You try to give me,

sell me,

A new personality.

You try to lift me,

I don't get better,

What's making you happy,

Is making me sadder.

In your golden cage,

All I feel is strange!

Strange, in your perfect world.

So-o-o strange, strange!

I feel so absurd in this life.

Don't come closer.

In my arms,

Forever you'll be

Strange!

Strange!

Like me.

Strange!

When you touch me.

Strange!

When you kill me.

Strange!

All I feel is,

Strange!

In my dreams together,

We'll be...

Strange, strange

In a perfect world...

Strange!

I am so strange!

Strange!

I am so strange!

Strange, strange

In your perfect world.

So-o-o strange, strange!

I feel so absurd in this life.

Don't come closer.

You'll die slowly,

In my arms.

Forever you'll be

Strange!

Strange!

Like me.

living with boys

Growing up,I thought it was hard enough to be a girl in a patriarchal world.It's not just about having to do housework only because your culture is such but you also have to be able to do the things guys have to do like heavy lifting or use hardware tools to repair things and stuff.Of course,personally,I prefer doing all those over washing dishes anytime.

But come on,I have to know an awful lot of things and they don't know shit about simple things like flushing the toilet after use?That's just bad!Not to forget that my brother used my hair conditioner to make the washroom smell better after he flushed the damn bowl!

Today,my other brother used my facial wash to wash himself during shower!And the only reason I found it out from him was because I was talking to him about zapping zits!It's no wonder I found my facial wash outside of the cabinet in the washroom where it usually would be!Not to mention the sudden decrease of amount of liquid left in it!I could have sworn it was way more than that last I checked.

back from Underland

Tim Burton has yet again got me hooked to his latest piece of work.And of course,Danny Elfman as the composer,I could not ask for more.........oooh!But wait!Johnny Depp and Alan Rickman (voice only) are in the movie too!And Helena Bonham-Carter!

Haha!

I lurve Alice's dresses!Especially after she fell down the rabbit hole!They are so very preeeeeeeeeteeeeeeee!!!!!!I am lurving Depp's Mad Hatter make up (not the hair!)

I thought the Fudderwhacking moves were fuh-ney.It got me laughing a whole lot!

So why is a raven like a writing desk again?

in case you haven't noticed.......

We are in the 21st century.If and unless you change the way you preach,no one will listen to you.Hell,I won't listen to you.Maybe it's because your language of choice does not suit me.It's a major turn off factor,really.It's like I have to reconstruct each and every sentence......word you say to English before I can fully understand what you're trying to say.

Or........

Maybe it's just your approach.I personally wouldn't bother listening to what you have to say coz it makes absolutely no sense to me and it's kinda hard for me to relate to what ever it is you're saying.Of course,I don't know about other people but despite it being a sensitive issue,I don't really like listening to religious talks especially when it comes from people with the whole "holier than thou" tone.

So please,do us all a favor and shut the hell up.If and unless you change your style or what ever,I think you really should just not bother ;)

It's either you love God too much or you 'think' He'd love you more than others when you do this sorta shit.

like everybody else.......

I too have skeletons in my closet (not that I have a closet to begin with) I sometimes have trouble keeping them to myself.Some skeletons are just too big to be stuffed into a closet.This is the part where I'd panic coz if the closet doesn't fit,where the hell am I supposed to chuck this crap at?

Well.....back in the day,I had a counselor to thrash (and cry) at.Yes,I did have sessions with a counselor only because I had trouble sorting out the shit I have.Nowadays,I no longer have that advantage.The problem is,my depression issues hasn't resolved much.Instead,it's beginning to get out of hand.

I can't explain what being depressed feels like coz if and unless you are depressed will you know how painful this is that to a certain extent you become too numb and immune to everything around you.At that point,I would either resort to inflicting external pain onto myself just so I can feel again.........or ignore it.Sleep through it or what ever.That would not be the best thing to do coz eventually it would resurface and create a worst outburst later on.

I've tried letting it out in different ways but everything fails.This causes insomnia which I have been having lately. *extensive use of concealers!* The best thing about being depressed is that I would lose weight easily from loss of appetite.I'd usually go on for days without food and to a certain extent,I'd start to hallucinate.Its kinda fun to hallucinate coz I'd see things in a whole different level.Most of which I cannot tell if they are real or not.

*I know,why can't I just get freakin' high on marijuana?!*Well.......I have issues dealing with runners.Also,when I have the cash,they don't have the goods.It's all just bad timing,really.......

My other option would be to overdose myself with random things.Now I know what taking too much paracetamols could do to ya ;) so I'd try other drugs........in forms of medications.I haven't done this in a long while.Not sure if its a good thing.

Sometimes I think I just need to sleep a little more.And stop thinking too much!God DAMN IT!

fighting demons

We all have 'em.It's just a matter of how we do it.Been doing this in a long while.Getting quite immune to the pain it causes.It's no biggie.I'll get over it ;)