Everyone's been commenting about how tired I look these days.Truth is,I am.Classes are killing me.I admit it.Especially Arabic classes.Lina said that the intensity of the class tends to get me (as well as most other people) a little bit on the not-so-sane side.Shu said this to me the first time I went to get him after a dose of Arabic class.
Apart from that,I have Kecik to worry about.I discovered an unknown lump on the bottom side of his body and it worries me.He's not even 4 months old.
I have yet to hear (and see) my bandmates-Kamal and Ayie.The last text message I got from Kamal was about Ayie's dad having lung cancer.Therefore,the jamming sessions (as well as band meetings) for the weekend was off completely.I was at UKM at the time.
Reality check,I have tonnes to say about how I feel regarding the big event that has not yet taken place but everyone is praying that it will.Let's get real.It has NOT taken place so ANYTHING can happen from now till then.I'm not saying that I have doubts about him or this whole thing.I'm just not the type of person to think that far ahead regarding big decisions about my future.
Honestly speaking,it scares the shit outta me.And yes,it is one of the many things that's been keeping me up at night.I have been kinda distant these days.Spacing out ever too often.
I love him but I don't think that is enough to comfort me now.Then again,love was said the one thing that is strong enough to rescue us all.Who ever said that was wrong.The world is still at war.Fucking human beings!Fucking idiots!
