automatisch by tokio hotel

Wenn du lachst

Lachst du nicht

Wenn du weinst

Weinst du nicht

Wenn du fühlst

Fühlst du nichts

Weil du ohne Liebe bist

A long awaited album.Finally the first single is out.I think I've been listening to it millions of times over within the last couple of days that I keep hearing it playing in my head.

I have put one thing on my list of things to do as soon as I can leave the premises.I wanna go do my hair BIG TIME!

Shu has plans for buka puasa sessions outside while mum and Aunty Intan has plans to take me to the place in KL to have me try on some wedding gowns.

They (Aunty Intan and mum) actually bought me a pink cotton baju kurung with sakura prints all over it.It's so preeeeeetty but when I saw the tag with the size XS,I didn't think I'd fit it.I wear a size S for ready made baju kurungs but I've never tried XS.Luckily,the baju kurung fits me.

Hahaha!Shu made a funny remark about that.He says that he wears XL while I wear XS.Hurmm......and the miss XS is the one who is always up for tackling mister XL in rugby games.The plan usually fails.Shu would just walk pass me without any problems.

P.S.: NEVER EVER poke your hamster they are asleep.Mine bit me and when I pulled my hand away she flew right out from her home onto my room floor.My right finger is bleeding a little :p

Quarantined:Day 2

Just as I thought things were gonna get better,I accidentally cut myself from opening the crab shell while I was eating yesterday.I was happily enjoying the crab Shu bought me and I was telling Shu that breaking the shell open was the calming part of the eating process and I cut myself.I didn't see it at first so I carried on eating.I stopped and felt totally grossed out when I saw blood flowing down my palm.EUW!

It's horrible to know that every part of me has to be sanitized.I know that I am only at the first stage of the viral infection and any healthy person who touches me must wash their hands after doing so and that if I were to talk to anyone they must wear a mask just as much as I have to.All the tissues and whatever things I have used must be disposed separately and carefully.

Shu helped send my MC to my lecturers and my course department earlier today.I don't know what I'd do without him.This is so weird.I am trying very hard to stay ok and I am trying my best to get better but my quarantine period is still a week.I sometimes feel fine.So fine that I could probably go running in the park.Sometimes,my body temperature hikes up and that gives me the throbbing headache which really3 sucks.

I miss laughing with Shu and who ever who passes by at the dining table downstairs.I miss making fun of people on the road as well as my siblings.I miss picking on Rashid and grossing him out so much that he'd whack me.I miss listening to my sister going nuts over little things.Today was the first time I saw Kak Yah in 2 days.I haven't seen my grandma and I don't think she knows my condition.

Shu has spent his time thinking of things to do once my quarantine period is over.Actually,I haven't quite thought of what I'd wanna do just yet.I spend way too much time laughing at my hamster whenever she falls asleep.She sleeps in very strange positions and sometimes she'd get nightmares.

I really want this all to be over ASAP!