I want your dreary Mondays
Meetings with Eeno gets funnier and stranger everytime. He'd usually starts the conversations about things pertaining the family like problems with my mum and my sister. I am aware of the things he speaks of but I cannot go beyond certain boundaries for many reasons. For instance, it's not my reception my mum is planning for. It's his. And as much as I agree with a lot of the things we stand for when it comes to many things, I don't think I can push for a confrontation. I can suggest things but he's gotta tell it how he wants it to be.
Family is just complicated. I stay away for many reasons and I am aware that I am always the last person they contact when it comes to anything (coz my mum calls Shu more than she'd ever call me). It's never bothered me. I am also aware that they think Shu is a successful person and that I am just married to him. Again, it doesn't bother me. Just don't tell me how to live my life. Don't tell me how to raise my kids and don't tell me things I already know because if it's a problem, I'm working on it and if it's not, it's just not.
I have also come to a point in my life whereby planning ahead means planning what I wanna do with Shu and the kids. It basically doesn't concern anyone else and I like to just make a decision and pack up and just go for some random road trip somewhere. I don't need to tell anyone what I'm doing or where we're heading.
Anywho, I've been doing a lot of arts and craft in the studio. I have only managed to clear out the floor today. I think I've been going through a mental block. Can't seem to do anything creative these days. Not sure if it's stress. If it is, I am unaware of what the source of my stress is.
I miss looking at snakes. They make me so happy.
Lately, I've been a beacon for bugs. Like random bugs. Sometimes, they'd bite me and my blood reacts very strangely. Sometimes it looks like I am bleeding under my skin. Sometimes, it swells up. Sometimes it itches for weeks. A lot of bugs like to hang around me too. Like that time when we went to the park in Cyberjaya, there was a tiny moth that followed me all the way to the car. It wanted to stay on my arm. When I am at the dining table at home, usually after dark, there's been several occasion whereby this tiny green bug would sit on my leg or my arm. It doesn't do anything. It just sits there.
After so long, Shu decided to take us to a mall we haven't been to in a long while. Actually, he needed to get a couple of pairs of jeans and I needed to get stuff from La Senza. There was a huge Hamley's store and Safiyya found herself a huge singing Princess Petals pony -_- I found a Joker figure to add to my collection. It was fun.
I've been gathering footages from 2016 about how our boys grew up in The Royale Chulan Damansara hotel. It's so funny. We spent almost the entire year there and if we were to accumulate the amount of money we spent living there, we could actually pay for a downpayment for a house! Hahahaha!!!! Good times!
