resolved!

I am always telling people to do what they believe in and if they end up doing things they don't like,they should stop doing it only coz other people tell them to do so.Ironically,things never turned out that way with me.I was shoved into doing shit I hated for years and the worst (or best) part is that I survived.I did it.

I hated school and I wanted to be home schooled but such things cannot be done.Not here.Not in this country.So I was shoved into school.Spent 11 years there and thought that when I was done with the major exams when I was 17,I was done with school.I was wrong.I was very wrong.

Shit loads of things headed my way after that.The university I shoved into wasn't somewhere I wanted to be at all.I wasn't given much choice.I was threatened to either do it or I was gonna get kicked out.I almost did quit halfway through but I couldn't risk not being able to play with my band.The only way I could do what I love most in the entire world (jamming & making music) was for me to endure the degree program.

I really was on the verge of suicide AGAIN.Managed to pull myself right out of it and here I am now.Happily out of the God-Forsaken place I hated so very much.

SO........I can't really tell people shit like "if you don't like doing it,then you might as well drop everything and leave before it's too late" coz I am the living proof of having to go through such things in my life.

I'mma surviver,muthafuckas!

Because I have survived such hell in my life,I've decided to give myself a break by just doing what ever I want now ;) Let's start with getting into a fashion school...........

major issues

I am going to say this and I am going to be really honest about it.

I really am not up for working.I've been sending in job applications only because I have to.I'm not up for a routine life.Not yet.

As boring as it may seem,I really lurve waking up super late in the mornings (afternoons) and not knowing what's gonna happen.Not knowing where I'm gonna end up at the end of the day.Not knowing what I'll be doing.

It's not like I've given up on my band.Not completely.I just cannot find my bandmates (Kamal & Ayie)

I cannot wait for 2010 coz I am getting a bit sick of so many people swarming the malls.Even on weekdays!WTF?!

I really wanna go on a holiday away from the city.

I was just telling Shu that I may not want to stay in KL.I am not a city person.I'm not a people person.

I wanna find a place where I can just take my time to do what ever it is I want and I want to feel happy and comfortable being where I'll be with the people (and animals) I love ^_^