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I have come to terms with the fact that all that I will ever be is collateral. Anytime, anywhere. I could just be an unfortunate fate somewhere and that is that. I mean, it's not like we live forever.
But there are things that haunt me.........things that I cannot undo or control. Things that had been said and done. Not just by me but a society I am part of. As much as I wish to change it, I can't.
However, I am beginning to think that politicians are toxic and selfish. Everything that ever comes from them are lies and they have no means to serve the society. We were introduced to the idea of a technocratic governing system. Unfortunately, I live in the time and age of people not even looking up what the word means. All that matters is the flag they carry. It was an idea. It was a proposal. It could be a solution.
I long for life among people who read an entire article and understand or at least try to understand what they've read instead of just reading a headline and then react. Your reaction to a headline is useless. Why react at all? Why not contribute productive ideas and suggestions and solutions to overcome a problem instead? We have opinions but they are just comments, hateful or not. We need to be more helpful towards one another.
I've lived my whole life with people who comment on every single thing I do. They never provided solutions. They did not help one bit.
Say a prayer. For anyone, really. Or anything. For people we don't know. For people we might have hurt accidentally. For people out on the road trying to make a living.
I have found peace within myself when I stopped praying for myself and started praying for everyone else regardless if I know them at all. I am not one in the position to impose religion on anyone but my journey of trying to find peace was long and difficult and sometimes I couldn't see a way out. Hence, my depression and sleepless nights. Then, I realized that I was too focused on the negativity which was myself and all that I was.
Sometimes, just because something doesn't happen to you doesn't mean that you don't have to bother to lift a finger to help. I want to die knowing that I did try to do something good for someone out there regardless who they are or if I even know them.
