living it

Way before Shu and I were married, I did come over to his house here, in this state. It was my first time ever here and I loved it. It was monsoon and the rain never stopped and water levels rose. It was cold and wet and I was having so much fun. I stayed for about 5 days. I remember thinking to myself that "I could totally live here".

After we married, we only ever came back when we were off or there was an important occasion or a long holiday. His old place was by the river. It wasn't really near the town area and everything seemed far. The internet connections and phone service was a little off. It was not the most ideal time and place to be here.

We came back often coz we were always on the islands. Our kids grew fond of the beach and the ocean. We were always on island holidays without fail. And then, his parents sold the old house and moved closer to the beach area. Shit got so much funner after that. We could just take the bike out to catch the sunrise by the beach. It was so peaceful and nice.

After a few years, we decided to just bite the bullet and moved the family out here. He bought the house from his parents and we moved everyone out here. We haven't looked back. It's been a few years now and our kids have slowly picked up the dialect but our BM is still atrocious. We're working on it.

Today, Shu took me out to the beach just before sunset. We wanted to sea how the waves are doing coz it's supposed to be monsoon season already. Shit's been weird and the weather hasn't been the usual. We just stood there by the beach and watched people fishing. Families having picnics. It was just so nice.

Looking back, I remember talking to some people who thought they knew me. They said I could never live out here. I was born a city girl and I could never leave the city life behind. I did. And I am enjoying every second of it. I do go back to the city to shop and maybe take a look around but I will miss home and the beach. 

I also feel a lot free-er here that there are no traffic and skyscrapers hovering my view of the sky. I can breathe and I have been doing a lot more art and writing ever since we moved out here.

monsters in my head

 do you wanna come play?

I am not......wait......I haven't been living in this world....... *laughs* that's nothing new!

I have been putting off so much writing coz my head just can't fucking work anymore. My head is all about drawing and sketching and images and shit........yeah......

It's so weird but despite the colors I keep seeing, everything I have in my head and my hands are black. I need a new perspective. I really suck at sculpting. *laughs* I really do! My damn turtle looked like a burger! 

I have this fascination with stained glass art but I know fo shizzles I'mma cut myself coz I am one clumsy mofo. I can't even burn my candle without getting my finger burnt! *laughs*

I was and always had been stuck on blood splatter. It's like my niche. My blood splatter artwork are my best works. I don't think it's something everyone else would be comfortable with especially if I had a hoodie with blood splatter designs on it walking around in public. I was being very baseline flat with my Halloween costume this year coz we were at a mall and I didn't wanna start a riot. *laughs*

Here's a free design I made........use it however you want. Make it bloodier........ HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!