I don't know how to explain it but I think it's coz my son was born with a condition, Shu and I became very VERY overprotective over him. People always say "It's ok,he's gonna be fine" Well,I don't think we would wanna risk anything. It's hard enough to go through 10 days (or more) after birth without being able to hold him and just watch him from outside the incubator in the NICU. I've decided to not risk anything when it comes to him.
I will take care of him.
I will feed him even when I am tired.
I will entertain him.
I will pray for his well being.
I will learn to understand him in times when we are unsure of what's happening with him.
I had cousins who says things like "Our kids were all born early and spent 6 weeks in the incubator" Well, my son was born with lung infection and there were times when he couldn't breathe. He was constantly on the oxygen support so I don't think that our situations are in the slightest bit similar in any way.
I told Shu that I don't trust daycares and even with a maid, I wasn't about to let her juggle between taking care of Yusuf and doing housework.
I've had times when I would come out in the middle of bathing just to feed him coz he's crying. There were occasions when I'd be praying and he cries so I'd stop and calm him down and then start praying all over again.
I'm not complaining. I'll do it for his sake.Until he is stable enough and strong enough, I'll be on my toes for him.
