moments

• Before I discovered I was pregnant, I thought I was putting weight and that I couldn't fit into my jeans anymore :p
• As my tummy grow bigger, I feel funny whenever I realize that I can't see my toes anymore.
• I have awkward sleeping position issues now that my tummy is so much bigger than before.
• When I first felt the baby kicking, I was sitting on the single chair in the house in Bangi watching TV. I thought my tummy was popping like gastric.
• My baby kicks the hardest when I am about to relax or doze off to sleep.
• Shu has only felt the baby kicking once. It was a really strong kick.
• I cried when I first heard the baby's heartbeat during an ultrasound while I was hospitalized.
• The baby was jumping all the time during the first few times I had an ultrasound.
• My first trimester didn't go too well but everytime I thought I was dying and went to the hospital to check on the baby, he is jumping and fine.

saying goodbye

2 years is most probably the most commitment I have ever given when it comes to work. All seems good on the surface but I am slowly decaying of boredom. I don't know if I did it all myself or if it is someone else's fault but I just need to get away from all this and do something completely new. I feel like my mind cannot expand being there. The same people I encounter would be talking about the same old things no matter how many times I've suggested solutions for them even though I didn't have to.

I seem to have that effect on people. Everyone just stops by at my cubicle and start talking to me about their problems regardless if its work related or personal. At times, I really don't mind but if you come back over and over with the same problem, it tends to get annoying. If a lot of other people have managed to move on, why can't you? I must admit, getting sick and getting things done from home has given me a lot of space for myself and not have to get engaged with annoying conversations anymore.

Again, I am not sure if my decision to leave is solely based on my boredom of working in an office environment or if it is caused by other individuals. Sometimes the lines are blurry. I have my own problems to think about and I just refuse to be found. Hahahaha..........Does that even make sense?

All I know is at this point, I can clearly see that I have absolutely no interest in the world of IT and computers. Most of the time, I know the things regarding computers only because they relate to the things that I do. I am just not interested in getting certificates like ITIL or CCNA. If I was interested in them, I would have gone ahead and spend the last 6 years of my life getting a degree in IT :-/