so....I am guessing this is where it's at now....

 My studio is a mess. Nothing new. We had to move it out from the original area coz it was leaking.....coz apparently the birds like to crash the living shit into the windows.....coz I have it all tinted with UV protection and stuff.....so....occassionally, I'd have rando birds crashing themself into the windows and some of them cracked.....and when it rains, especially with strong winds, my studio would leak. Yes,my printers and my supplies and my laptop and wall power supplies have all need to be moved and turned off and unplugged. It was giving me anxiety considering times when we are away from home, I'd have to constantly hope that the water won't damage anything.

Shu decided to (at first) move my stuff out into the main area outside the bedroom. Now, the entire place is a mess coz apparently I do a lot of painting and gluing and mod podging....and yesterday, I finally starting using the 3d printer again. Shu had the other desk moved out here as well coz the DTF printer arrived and there is a WHOLE LOT of things that comes with DTF printing.......Powdering......Toasting.....Heat Pressing.....and stuff.....

*sighs*

So....my desk is a bit wobbly when the 3d printer is printing coz previously, i had it placed on a Japanese low table.....now.....it's on the desk next to mine. 

By the way,Shu recently got me a new laptop coz my old one which he got me back in 2017/2018 is slowly deteriorating. I also travel with it a lot. So.....yeah.....I am getting used to the new laptop as I type...speak....uh....

Oh yeah, our cat went missing. It's been almost 48 hours.....I should have reported it after 24 hours but I am guessing no one is gonna give a damn about a rando house cat. I just hope she's ok and safe coz it's raining season again......

I still haven't figured out where I am gonna place my sewing machine.....

*double sigh*

I finally spoke to my parents after weeks of going AWOL on them.....actually, my second phone....the one that is NOT an android phone decided to have another update and I really don't know how to update anything on that phone with APK.....so, I usually just wing it and wait for Shu to help me with it. Shu decided to fix his old phone and let me use it. Now, I am back in contact with the real world. Yay! My mom was like "WHAT ON EARTH HAPPENED TO YOU?" coz I haven't been replying her text messages......only coz I never got them in the first place.....anywho, I showed my parents my Guan Yu Kratos Nyan stool thingy Shu got me on Chinese New year and I showed them my Miu Miu Nyan super cute super soft cushion and the junior size lionhead which I have not named yet.....yeah.....I haven't fully grown up yet.....hee hee.....

God, I am thinking about Voltron now......

obsession....

 I tend to get myself fixated on something for weeks.....sometimes months.....and then.....I just....disappear from the face of the Earth completely.....I think it started with me trying to distance myself from the world as I continue creating my own little world. I didn't wanna associate myself with certain people anymore coz I just think it's a complete waste of time. I can't relate to whatever it is they are talking about anymore or their thoughts just don't resonate with me anymore......so I just decided to move on.....

It's a very enlightening journey coz the less I speak to people the less problems I seem to have. I'm not saying I am completely disconnected from what is happening around the world,I just want to focus on things that matter to me and not waste my time and energy on things that don't matter to me. It's hard to explain without sounding like I am completely abandoning everyone else but it kinda is that way right now. I find myself getting more and more absorbed into something and not care about anything else anymore.

The best thing about being in the current state of mind I am in right now is that nothing affects me. I'm not doing whatever I do to make money or to gain anything. I just love doing what I do. It makes me happy. Not many people understand that and I don't blame them. I grew up in a household constantly pressuring me into doing something so rigid to achieve a certain type of goal. I can do that. Rigidity is simple to do. It bores me though. But I can work like a robot if you asked me to and for as long as I don't have to deal with another human being, I can work. What I cannot do is trying to explain myself and the things that bring me joy to people who don't have a hobby or anything to do other than socializing. 

I never understood socializing and I never enjoyed it much. It drains my energy and the noise is deafening and distracting.

everytime we extend our stay in KL.....

 We always,ALWAYS,ALWAYS end up with so much stuff.......like seriously, our usual laundry and suitcase isn't a major issue......it's....boxes.....especially when we go to Anime Fest or malls......we have figures and boxes and Gundam boxes....shiete.....the good thing is, Shu picked up my perfume,the one I bought online weeks ago and the courier service screwed up. I got myself a free Nezuko Kamado figure coz Anihobu was doing a buy 2 free 1 figure sale. I saw a figure I want and I shall have to put him on a wishlist since.....I was saving up for a Voltron figure first....and....I am still waiting on a figure we ordered months ago......*sighs*

Oh Yeah, I got a Zoey doll! She's so FREAKING PRETTY!!!

Anime Fest was a bit of a mess this time around. It was at PWTC so.....it was a little difficult to spend a lot more time in the convention coz it was in the middle of the city....and we can't just go in and out like we did in Sunway Pyramid. Our hotel was 20 minutes away.....near to where Shu had his meeting. Yeah.....it was attached to a mall....so.....

Safiyya finally got to wear her Shinobu costume, I wore my Oguri Cap cap....uh....I brought my Kitasan Black kimono but I thought I was gonna wear it the next day.....and then.....I saw a guy who dressed as Kitasan Black at the convention! -_- I really need to just get my costume shit together at this point. A dude dressed as Chainsaw Man made his costume out of cardbox and he rocked. I met a girl dressed as Hua Cheng.....and I was like HUA CHENG!!!!! I met a dude dressed as Rice Shower....and a dude as Daiwa Scarlet.....and a lot of guys in skirts......spotted a super buff Hatsune Miku....some Mao Mao....some Shinobu...I did not see much of Demon Slayer characters....there was a girl dressed as the Ferryman from Ultrakill.....Roblox.....

it's been.....a weird week.....

 I had been wondering what happened to Kak Nadz eversince graduation. I never got the chance to see her and I lost all her contacts-email address, phone number,social media pages....

One day, I was going through my things in the studio when I was trying to sort things, I came across the stuff she gave me and I was thinking, I need to find this woman. I did what I usually do, I typed her full name on Google search. I found her picture giving a talk at a conference. Yes, it was her. Definitely her. Unmistakably her. I went on looking for a way to get in touch with her and I found her email address. It was her work email address but it was better than nothing.

I sent her an email without realizing it was a Saturday. On Monday, she replied. I was almost in tears coz I had been looking for her for so goddamn long. She gave me her phone number and we started chatting. It's crazy coz she said for some strange reason, she was just thinking about me over the weekend and when she came into work on Monday, my email was in her inbox.

We need to hug each other properly if we ever meet in person. It's been too long and I had been missing her.

The week goes by and I went to visit Safiyya's best friend's mom who just gave birth. It was such a strange experience coz, I wanted to see the baby and we ended up chatting (Safiyya's bf's mom and her husband and I). We later discovered that they are actually my juniors from the university I attended. SUCH A SMALL WORLD. So,her husband started going through his phone, going through random names with me in case anyone rings a bell. And yes, his former roommate from matriculation was indeed an aquaintance/coursemate/friend of mine. He wasn't exactly in our immediate circle but my course was the minority on campus so yeah, we know each other.

Anywho, the next thing I knew I was talking on the phone with that former coursemate of mine. Weird, coz he did leave comments before my social media account got hacked back in 2014. And with the memories recurring every now and then, the posts with comments will still be there. So yeah, we ended up chatting during the baby visit a lot longer than intended. It was nice to meet people with more than one connections with what I do.

Safiyya's BF's dad happens to also know my sailing coach and some sailing coaches I used to sail with. Small world? VERY.

talking

 Yusuf was in the kitchen tonight with us. He was asking questions about human relations and connectivity in general. As his parents, we are always open for any discussion regardless. So, we discovered about his problem in his classroom with someone in particular. It's a girl and she has a bit of an attitude when instructing him or anyone. He wasn't really taking it well but he didn't do anything to her. He just told us how he felt at the time and what he felt like doing. The good thing is that he did not act on any of his anger at the time.

I am quite disappointed with the quality of girls we have today. As a woman/girl in general. There is no politeness in our tone when conversing anymore. Why is that? We are supposed to have a certain sense of restraint and dignity when we speak or when we deal with other people, no? Do we not have class anymore or is everyone just behaving like neanderthals and hooligans these days? Social pariahs of the lowest of levels. Disappointing. Embarrassing too. 

There is also a problem with people's inability to express themselves due to lack of vocabulary which usually results to very vulgar and degrading words. Read,for God's sake. Increase your vocabulary and ability to articulate your feelings. I also promote writing to my daughter and her friends. People don't write anymore. It's sad. Doodling is good too but most of the time, my doodles only makes sense to me....

Anywho, I think people in general have poor human interaction qualities these days. Adolescents and youths are deteriorating in terms of manners and social behaviors. 

coming back to reality.....

 What reality? HAHAHAHA!!!

So much have been going on that I just don't even have the time to write or post or do anything basically.....

Yusuf had a school trip to KL. We decided to pick him up and head to Genting Highlands Skyworld coz.....we've never been there and.....we just needed to go somewhere......Overall, we loved it. We spent so much less than what we usually would whenever we are in Putrajaya......ok,yeah....my kids are shopaholics and the malls just aren't helping.....

We usually head to KL to chill and shop.....and yes, meet up with family....

Had to move my studio to the common area upstairs coz the windows are cracked......thanks to crazy birds.....and the ceiling was leaking too.....so.....yeah.....my printer, my 3D printer,my AMS,my.....everything.....had to move. Shu also got me a display cabinet for all of my.....uh.....figures....and dolls.....yeah.....

I have been getting shitloads of bug bites......can't tell whether they are dust mites or bed bugs or fleas from the damn cat! Damn it! We have been doing everything from steaming to vacuuming to just....intensed house cleaning.....it is so much less but I seem to be getting it the worst......-_-

Lately, I have been......distracted...again....nothing new there.....it's just a matter of what the distraction is.....before moving my studio, I was doing a lot of paintings and crafts....and then.....it's just a mess....

It wouldn't be FidZy if I didn't try to do something so......tedious and annoying but I do it anyways for the sake of making my book look good......that's a lot of OOs.....Hahahahaaah!!!!

another not so mild obsession

 I really think it always starts with one....and then.....yeah....we have several now.....and I bring them with me.....wherever I go......coz they look so pretty!!!!

These are the 5th gen ones.....*sighs* I am waiting for a 4th gen in the mail.....

Anywho, I was at Safiyya's school for a parent-teacher meet up.....aka report card collection for academic performance. I arrived and there were some parents talking. Safiyya and her friends came up to me and we started doing handshakes.And then, other kids joined in. Then, I realized that I was there to speak to her class teacher so I went ahead and spoke to him for a bit. Asked him about several things that's been going on in school. And then.......I was hanging out with the kids again, showing them canva stuff on my ipad, talking to her classmates about art. It was fun. It always is. Safiyya's friend wanted me to wait for her mother to arrive coz she was always the last one to leave so I stayed back a bit. Shu called me coz he was waiting for us in the car. It was funny coz it's always chaotic whenever I go to Safiyya's class. It was fun.