Just keep going
No feeling is final
I have made peace with my parents. It's weird because I was feeling awkward and for my dad, well...... He's never been the one to express his feelings very much. As for my mum....... I have been telling her how I feel about a lot of things. I'm not a good liar and my honesty is sometimes not for everyone. My mum likes to sugarcoat things and I am not like that.
All and all, that day when my dad was losing his mind and I had my cousin calling me out of nowhere asking about my dad, I called my mum later that day. Spoke to my brother, Eeno briefly.
I've been battling depression all my life and it's the little things that people ignore or don't say that could actually make all the difference. Let's just say I texted my dad in all honesty and I told him he's not a bad parent. He and my mum were both trying and that whatever happened to us growing up already happened and I take it as part of growing up.
Now, we're talking a lot more. Also, I bet he doesn't think I'm an asshole anymore. Well, I was never against my parents. I was just unhappy and it was accumulated over the years. A lot had been going on and when you are 14 and trying to deal with so many things, you'd get really depressed. Failing school. Always alone. Always bullied. Almost getting sexually assaulted. And the people who were supposed to have your back were too busy so you just carry on. Dead or alive.
Anywho, our family has expanded since May 21st. Cleo gave birth to 6 kittens. We've all been playing our part in trying to keep them safe and healthy. It's working so far. Shu and I are still getting used to Cleo coz she's a stray and she's about 3 years old and she eats birds 😳 among the other things she eats. She's very intelligent and she's easy going. I tell the kids to talk to her from time to time.
