I finally went to a shop and asked about a sunglasses model I had been eyeing in a while. The guy at the store said that they could order it for me and have the company/ stockist ship it over. It's a game of chance which I can foresee the outcome. Months and months and months of waiting and by the time I really need it, it's not gonna come through. Is it just me or is the courier service in this entire country has f*cked up completely?
The ones we ordered from Amazon months ago had no tracking number whatsoever. It's been about 3 months and I really don't think it's coming -_-
I have been crying a lot. The reasons are obvious but I cannot bring myself to talk about it because it just is and I hate this world so much more than I already do.
My mum finally asked me some weeks ago why is it that I hate living my life. I don't hate my life. I hate being alive in this world. I despise people. Human beings destroy everything. Especially one another. I always believed that everything that happened to the human race especially in the past couple of years is exactly what we deserve. We are gifted with intelligence to put us on top of the food chain but instead of finding solutions to already existing problems, we create more and more problems. So yeah, we deserve all the shit nature (and other things) are throwing at us.
I have also been trying to keep myself occupied with doing so many different things simultaneously. It helps my brain stay sane and away from wanting to destroy this world we live in. I lied. I am always trying clean up whatever environment I am in and I am always trying help others (humans and non-humans) I have been trying to train myself to just do what's right and fuck the rest of the world for not wanting to make things right.
It's tough but I think it's worth it.
