The thing about living in the city

 Is that you'd get bored easily. Weekends need to be exciting since....... Well, you can't possibly spend so much time in malls. Also, I do my mall shopping on weekdays just to avoid crowds so weekends need to be planned out a little better......... Or not.......

Shu and I had always been the type to just pack up and drive. No idea where to but we're moving. Our kids have gotten accustomed to this now. So, last Saturday at about 5pm,we decided to leave town and headed south. Not south south but south enough to be away from KL. 

Malacca has a night zoo and the last we ever went was when Yusuf was about a year old. It was fun. Then, we decided to head into Bandar Hilir. Shu has an entire history in this state since he spent his teenage years in KYSM. We were just laughing about random things that he's done but the kids had no idea what was going on. 

We got home at about 2am. Kids were already asleep and Shu and I just passed out till morning :) 

My Go-To jamming playlist

 

Shu was telling me how worried he is getting about raising our kids in this mad world we currently live in

 It's mad and it's a whole lot worse than before. There was a time when we would be left at home on our own as kids and we felt quite safe. We can't do that anymore. Houses get robbed and broken into within an hour. 

And then, there are pedophiles. It's sickening to think that there is such a thing and it's not something new. I did point out that 14 year-olds today are not like how I was back when I was 14. Then again, I was naive and not very good at being a typical 14 year old...........14 year olds today look like they are 18 so......there's that.........I was still asked for my identification card even when I was 21 everytime I was going anywhere where underaged kids weren't allowed in :-/

I don't know why but the more I speak about shitty crazy mofos like pedophiles, I can't help but think that my guardians didn't do a good job at keeping one at bay back when I was 15. He was 10 years older than I was. I was naive. I had no idea about a lot of things and to think that my mum kept saying he liked me the whole time..........I was 15..........how is that flattering in anyway? He was allowed into my home. He was always talking to me about sex. He was always looking at my friends around me who were my age and passing remarks about pretty they are. We were 15. My dad was a pilot so he was hardly around. 

Anyways, one day this guy went somewhere overseas and came back and said he had something for me. It was a G-string........thong.......whatever you wanna call it. I told my folks. My dad never let him back near me or our house ever.

I'm still trying to understand why my mum did let him come over even to my wedding. Growing up, I was always asked why I was 13 and did not have a boyfriend. Why I never had a social life. Why I never went out with friends or even had a lot of friends. I had friends. A small number of friends.

I don't have a social life even until today. I don't have friends to go out with. Not these days. My friends are all working and are grown up parents.

My mum cleared out some stuff and found a whole lot of books

.... And my old ginormous scrapbook. 

Here is a newspaper double spread from LinZy (I think)

I tried for the Rock Star SuperNova competition just coz I was a huge fan of Jason Newsted.

Spot me with the black shirt and orange neck tie ;)

I kept this ad. Shu and I went to this concert. It was bomb! I sang to all the songs throughout the entire concert <3

I attempted painting with different materials 

I was obsessed with Alex Kapranos and Franz Ferdinand (the band,not the archduke)

Summer Shower by Emily Dickinson

 

This was worth every penny

I was team Inviso and we lost

 

More photos

 

Hard Rock Hotel Penang

 

Shu was in his zone

Shu rented this guitar for me. It's Alex Kapranos's touring guitar. I was Dying. I was so psyched! Omgomgomg!!!!! 

Africa Cover

 

Where I'm at

 A lot of people have a lot opinions or perception towards me. A lot of people also don't understand how my mind works. What you see in pictures are just as is. What I write about are just is. I have my interpretation about other people too. I think it's normal. 

The one thing that I seem to never learn is that I am naive when it comes to human interactions especially online. I always think everyone I come in contact with has good intentions and that they truly want to be friends with me. That's not the case. I still can't seem to tell if people are just using me or just lying to me.

It's true when people say that animals have instincts and they act or react based on just that but people have different intentions and they sometimes manipulate situations. Shu always tells me that I need to watch out before I get hurt. How?

If I say something nice to someone is only coz I mean it and they should take it just as it is. There is no need for underlying meanings. Well, at least that is how I usually take things anyways. I don't know how to dig deep about other people coz I just don't know how to and most of the time, I'd like to think it's more of a personal space thing.

As it turns out, there are really bad,sick people out there. Shu is looking out for me as he always does. I really hope that my kids won't get online with these crazy mofos.