Hard Rock Hotel Desaru Coast

 I needed to get away from home and the city. On Saturday morning, we attended my brother's engagement ceremony over at Serendah. Then, we left early and headed south. I have grown to like Hard Rock Hotels only coz I love live bands and music and there's always good music. Also, they promote jamming in the room. 

This time around I decided to bring the Hummingbird. Shu brought the black junior Epiphone. We had a blast. 

Shu got us a duplex suite which came with a private pool since we're doing social distancing. The kids loved it. They had their own room upstairs. There's a dining area. The bathroom downstairs had a bathtub which was perfect.

This time around, Shu sent me to the Rock Spa and it was awesome. The last time I was at a spa was at Tanjong Jara last year. 

Are there still beautiful things?

 We spent the whole afternoon into the night of yesterday at Putrajaya Hospital coz Shu's mum was really sick. We had no idea what was happening at the time and Shu's dad was freaking out so much coz everything seemed to have descended so quickly. It turns out that one of her antibiotics gave her a really bad allergic reaction and that her body couldn't cope. She was discharged late last night.

None of us could go in to see her coz there was so much restriction. I think it was also the COVID-19 prevention step. The kids and I were in the car the whole time. Shu kept going back and forth but he couldn't get in to see his mum anyways. It was raining the whole day yesterday.

The sky looks like we're gonna have a massive downpour today just as much.

I love rain. It makes me happy. I also love sunshine. I am probably a plant.

Anywho, I spent a lot of time last week talking about girl things with someone who wanted to know about things like facial toners and skincare all the way to makeup and health. Seriously, I am not the best person to talk about these things to. However, I would only recommend things that I truly love.

Anyways, the conversation then lead on to being a woman. Like a ladylike woman, if it makes sense. It's strange coz I have never thought of myself to be a "woman" woman. I'm just me. I love makeup only because of the things it can do. Like a form of art. Sometimes, I'd glam up just coz I feel like it or if the occasion is suitable or calls for it. I love making myself looks like aliens or weird creatures.

I think as far as my skin goes, I spent so much time growing up being made fun of coz of my skin. I had a lot of zits in my teens. I get laughed at a lot so I had to look into skincare at a very young age. I am doing things and buying and using things that works for me. It's changed so much over the years anyways. Especially after giving birth.

When I was asked about how romantic Shu is towards me, I just say he's always been himself. If you consider being romantic as always buying me flowers, well, he doesn't buy me flowers but he likes to shop for me. He could spend so much on clothes just online. I could wait somewhere for like a smoothie or something and let him stroll around with the kids and he'd come back with something for me. There was this one time, he was waiting for coffee (for me) so he decided to go walk around and decided to get me something. I was at home at the time. He remembers dates,anniversaries and stuff. I'm not very good at it.

It turns out that not all men are like that. My dad isn't like that. At least not from what I see. It was weird to know that not everyone goes lingerie shopping with their spouses. Erm, if I had something that was a major turn off for Shu, he'd let me know and I would get rid of it. We always talk about what we're into. No matter how intimate or personal it is. I don't have friends and I don't have anyone to talk to so I will always talk to him or refer to him about anything.

I always tell him how crazy and complicated I am. Not sure if it's coz I was raised to believe that or I really just am as such. Either ways, we always have a good laugh about it. 

The thing about living in the city

 Is that you'd get bored easily. Weekends need to be exciting since....... Well, you can't possibly spend so much time in malls. Also, I do my mall shopping on weekdays just to avoid crowds so weekends need to be planned out a little better......... Or not.......

Shu and I had always been the type to just pack up and drive. No idea where to but we're moving. Our kids have gotten accustomed to this now. So, last Saturday at about 5pm,we decided to leave town and headed south. Not south south but south enough to be away from KL. 

Malacca has a night zoo and the last we ever went was when Yusuf was about a year old. It was fun. Then, we decided to head into Bandar Hilir. Shu has an entire history in this state since he spent his teenage years in KYSM. We were just laughing about random things that he's done but the kids had no idea what was going on. 

We got home at about 2am. Kids were already asleep and Shu and I just passed out till morning :) 

My Go-To jamming playlist

 

Shu was telling me how worried he is getting about raising our kids in this mad world we currently live in

 It's mad and it's a whole lot worse than before. There was a time when we would be left at home on our own as kids and we felt quite safe. We can't do that anymore. Houses get robbed and broken into within an hour. 

And then, there are pedophiles. It's sickening to think that there is such a thing and it's not something new. I did point out that 14 year-olds today are not like how I was back when I was 14. Then again, I was naive and not very good at being a typical 14 year old...........14 year olds today look like they are 18 so......there's that.........I was still asked for my identification card even when I was 21 everytime I was going anywhere where underaged kids weren't allowed in :-/

I don't know why but the more I speak about shitty crazy mofos like pedophiles, I can't help but think that my guardians didn't do a good job at keeping one at bay back when I was 15. He was 10 years older than I was. I was naive. I had no idea about a lot of things and to think that my mum kept saying he liked me the whole time..........I was 15..........how is that flattering in anyway? He was allowed into my home. He was always talking to me about sex. He was always looking at my friends around me who were my age and passing remarks about pretty they are. We were 15. My dad was a pilot so he was hardly around. 

Anyways, one day this guy went somewhere overseas and came back and said he had something for me. It was a G-string........thong.......whatever you wanna call it. I told my folks. My dad never let him back near me or our house ever.

I'm still trying to understand why my mum did let him come over even to my wedding. Growing up, I was always asked why I was 13 and did not have a boyfriend. Why I never had a social life. Why I never went out with friends or even had a lot of friends. I had friends. A small number of friends.

I don't have a social life even until today. I don't have friends to go out with. Not these days. My friends are all working and are grown up parents.

My mum cleared out some stuff and found a whole lot of books

.... And my old ginormous scrapbook. 

Here is a newspaper double spread from LinZy (I think)

I tried for the Rock Star SuperNova competition just coz I was a huge fan of Jason Newsted.

Spot me with the black shirt and orange neck tie ;)

I kept this ad. Shu and I went to this concert. It was bomb! I sang to all the songs throughout the entire concert <3

I attempted painting with different materials 

I was obsessed with Alex Kapranos and Franz Ferdinand (the band,not the archduke)

Summer Shower by Emily Dickinson

 

This was worth every penny

I was team Inviso and we lost

 

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