happy new new year

Was online with a friend from school.She just got married.I asked her what's it like to be married.She said it's weird eventhough she's been living-in with her boyfriend for a while.I just didn't like the part when she started telling me all the negative things about being married.She makes simple things sound complicated and hard to resolve.

I know it's weird now that people are actually talking about Shu and I getting married and all.At some point in the minds of those whose known me for a while,I may still be a child.Reality check.I'll be 24 next year.I've passed the age limit as an adult for about 3 years already.I know I may sound a little kid-ish when ever I talk about animes and drawings and music.The thing is,growing up is an ongoing process.Just because I am childlike and love things which may seem kiddish doesn't mean I am not matured in other ways.

Shu and I have talked about a lot of things and we have roughly sketched out our life plans.My sister was telling me about obsessions and how it may cause a tragic ending to the fairy tale I've built.I am aware of such things.I am also aware of drawing the line between reality and the adventure of life I have laid out in my head.I think my sister forgot the part whereby eventhough there are and will be many obstacles and that at some point dreams will end and I'd have to wake up,I can still put in a whole lot of effort in balancing reality and my little fairytale and have best of both worlds if I want to.

kat tails

The story of Kecik and Fei Mao never ends.
Fei Mao can't really accept Kecik.
Kecik still loves chasing Fei Mao (along with the other 2 cats) around the house.
Shu and I are still Kecik's official parents and we are trying so very hard to make him grow a little more coz he is too damn skinny.
Kecik is officially spoiled just like Fei Mao and the other cats in the house.

All the mimsy were the borogroves

And the momeraths outgrabe

I've had a rather tiring week.Waking up early in the morning just to get to class only to find out the lecturer didn't turn up.Getting even more lost looking for classrooms which are hidden in a completely different realm.It's like looking for platform 13 1/2!WTF?!Of course,the drive to campus with fucking idiots behind wheels with absolutely no freakin' idea wtf the rearview mirror is for!

*sigh*

I've also had a rather long 24-hour.With endless emotions running through my head and my heart all at once.Tears and tears and pain deep inside.Never again will I want to go through that again!We are good.I love what we have and sometimes I just need a little reminder and motivation in finding faith again.

Shu got me a Mr. P lamp!KOOLNESS!Yeah,it does look a little disturbing.......erm,mum said it's obscene.Hahaha!It's Mr. P!WTF did you expect?!Shu also got me a white Swatch!It's superpretty!I think I'll only wear it to class coz it looks and feels fragile.Also,I wouldn't wanna wreck it!

My sister is already in Ireland.There was quite an episode yesterday.Naim is funny!

Kecik had been stealing the limelight for weeks now.Every other person whose been over to my place would not fail to play with him.And he is ever so manja!

Shu and Kecik surprised me with a little picnic breakfast after my class this morning.It was so chomel coz our plan was to take Kecik to SPCA for a vaccine shot.Since I had a 50-minute class in the morning,Shu and thought we should just go ahead and take Kecik with us to campus and then we'd head over to SPCA.

What happened instead was when I was in class,Shu headed over to some shops nearby to get food and drinks.When I got out from class,he waited for me and pretended that he missed the exit.And then,he drove the 3 of us to the campus rugby field.Weird,I often hear about that place from Shu but I've never actually been there.

So there we were,Shu,Kecik and I having a little picnic breakfast

fading

I have often thought that free-ing your mind would lead to a better life and would at least cut down the problems in your life.I was wrong.It brings out even more stupid arguements to which there are no solutions.Well,it's stupid!How the hell is it supposed to make sense to begin with?And the moment I ignore it only coz it is a waste of time to me,it makes people angry.WTF?!If it's a stupid arguement then it's just like having no arguements at all so why bother expecting a reaction from me?

Honestly,the only reason I have not been talking lately is because I tend to trigger anger instead of opening the eyes and minds of people around me.What I do and the decisions I make as well as what I think are all just insanity streaks to people.What I believe in and what I don't.Whether I like something or not or even if it's just an opinion.Sometimes,I do feel as though people only want to impose their ideas and beliefs onto me but refuse to see things from my point of view.How the hell is that justified?!

you'll bring honor to us all

I have no idea how the hell this site works but I'm gonna try anyways.

I am worried and bothered about a lot of things.Most of my worries are about the audition for my band.As much as I do want to nail the audition,I don't have that much confidence looking at our jamming session tonight.Maybe we were all tired.Maybe we were so sick of the equipments at the studio that kept failing halfway through the songs we played.Maybe all we need is more practise.

*sigh*

I am missing Shu so badly.

I have other things keeping me up at night like my folks bothering me about getting engaged and stuff.In case they fail to realize,I have no say in this culture/religion I am trapped in.I could always just runaway or not show up at my wedding or something but we all know where that would take me.It's not that big of a problem actually if you think about it.I'd probably just have to cut myself off from my family.......or something........

I have a new cat!Sarah and I and Aaina and her sister went to Bangsar (Aaina's sister's friend's apartment) to get some cats (one for Sarah and one for me) Sarah took the cat with the long-ish fur.I took the one that looked like one of the cats I've lost some years ago named LB.Anywho,I have a new cat now.It's more of Shu's and mine.I'm gonna change her name but we haven't decided on anything yet.Fei Mao was talking to her a while ago.I don't think she has a problem with the newcomer.

I am just supertired!