being parents

My husband once said "Usually,whenever I walk in a mall and I see parents....they're always doing weird things.But now that I am a dad,I am doing just the same weird things........." And then,when we were on the hunt for the right stroller for Yusuf,we began to realize that there are just so many kids on strollers being pushed around the mall. My husband once accidentally pushed Yusuf and his stroller into a pillar coz he was too busy looking at this one chomel baby in a stroller. What's even weirder was that I was walking ahead of them at the time and I too was looking at that same chomel baby.

Haha.........

Having a baby is like a dream.The pregnancy seemed like forever and when we (Yusuf and I) finally meet,it's like we've been the best of friends since forever.We have our own way of communicating.We understand eachother and now that Yusuf is beginning to see his surroundings,it's hard to not look at his reaction to everything.It's hard to be apart when I spend my every waking (and sleeping) moment with him.My whole world has changed from my sleeping and waking hours to my decision with work.I am constantly looking out  for him and listening extra careful (whenever I am outside while he is asleep in the bedroom) to him just to make sure he is alright.

This is by far the biggest responsibility I have ever had to carry and honestly,I've never been much of the type of person who is up for any form of responsibilities.Seriously, I am like fixated on Yusuf.I wonder if most parents are like this with their first baby.