Wamen

 Shu and I got stuck in traffic last week over the STUPID ROAD CONSTRUCTION which was STUPID coz the damn workers put a sign that indicated the left lane was closed and that cars would start migrating to the right lane and later discovers that the right lane was closed and it wasn't the left lane. There is a COMPLETELY DIFFERENT signboard for that btw............IDIOTS!

*sigh*

Anywho, we got to talking about how a lot of ads pop up online and that I sometimes get shocked at the things they are selling coz.......erm.......well,ok.........there was an ad about I dunno......maybe a scrub or something for women to use around ........folds........maybe around the crotch area........ok.......as though that wasn't gross enough,what was stated was even more shockingly disgusting coz well........it went something along the lines of this woman has her husband complaining about how her private smells and is grossly gross.........

SHIT! WTF?! Erm........what ever happened to hygiene? Personal hygiene? Ever heard of it?

This throws me back when I was probably a teenager and my folks and I were at a friend's house. This lady was saying that her daughter wanted to start a finishing school for girls coz most girls needed it. I was quite confused at the time because I was pretty sure most girls knew what it was supposed to be like.......right?

I am not even talking about sitting up right at the dining table with elbows off the table and chewing with your mouth closed. It's more like common sense about personal hygiene.........and well.......being domesticated. Room cleaning. Clothes cleaning. Deodorizers.....

Anywho,years later I found myself and a friend sharing a dorm room in uni with 2 other girls whom we didn't know. They weren't from our faculty. You would think that having girl roommates would mean the room would be tidy and neat all the time. Boy was I so wrong. They'd always have friends over for study groups and they'd have food. They'd usually have them stay overnight and leave the next day. Usually, this happen when my friend and I weren't in the room that night. We'd come back the next day to the room smelling of leftovers which they did not bother to clean out. My friend said that her bed seemed like someone slept on it and I found my cup being used and not cleaned on one of the desks.

I wasn't raised domesticated either but my dad made sure I knew how to clean my bed and my room and how to use a broom properly. Having your own place is quite difficult but the small areas? Come on! At the very least have clean clothes and not let your dirty laundry look like they exploded all over the place.

Shu is a very domesticated human being. When we moved into our own place, I learned a lot about tidying up and cleaning from him but I made sure I kept my personal hygiene in check. Of course, I am quite blunt and honest and so is he so if there was anything that bothered either one of us, we'd let each other know. Also, I need the place to be able to give me peace and mess is definitely NOT the way to go.

I have a lot of girl stuff like makeup and makeup brushes and skincare but everytime I use them, I'd be sure to put them back in their right places. I clean my makeup brushes after each time I use them. I burn candles in the bathroom before showers. I think I'm messy when it comes to the studio and my mind being everywhere during scrapbooking or songwriting........

I am getting off topic..........

For God's sake people! Come on! Personal hygiene! 

P.S. :- One of the main reasons I try very hard not to go to public bathrooms is that women are disgusting when it comes to cleaning up the toilet seat after use ESPECIALLY when it comes to period blood. Erm.........If I ever needed to use the public toilet, I'd have to be sure to run water around the toilet seats and have toilet seat covers coz women are just disgusting.......

Hard Rock Hotel Desaru Coast

 I needed to get away from home and the city. On Saturday morning, we attended my brother's engagement ceremony over at Serendah. Then, we left early and headed south. I have grown to like Hard Rock Hotels only coz I love live bands and music and there's always good music. Also, they promote jamming in the room. 

This time around I decided to bring the Hummingbird. Shu brought the black junior Epiphone. We had a blast. 

Shu got us a duplex suite which came with a private pool since we're doing social distancing. The kids loved it. They had their own room upstairs. There's a dining area. The bathroom downstairs had a bathtub which was perfect.

This time around, Shu sent me to the Rock Spa and it was awesome. The last time I was at a spa was at Tanjong Jara last year. 

Are there still beautiful things?

 We spent the whole afternoon into the night of yesterday at Putrajaya Hospital coz Shu's mum was really sick. We had no idea what was happening at the time and Shu's dad was freaking out so much coz everything seemed to have descended so quickly. It turns out that one of her antibiotics gave her a really bad allergic reaction and that her body couldn't cope. She was discharged late last night.

None of us could go in to see her coz there was so much restriction. I think it was also the COVID-19 prevention step. The kids and I were in the car the whole time. Shu kept going back and forth but he couldn't get in to see his mum anyways. It was raining the whole day yesterday.

The sky looks like we're gonna have a massive downpour today just as much.

I love rain. It makes me happy. I also love sunshine. I am probably a plant.

Anywho, I spent a lot of time last week talking about girl things with someone who wanted to know about things like facial toners and skincare all the way to makeup and health. Seriously, I am not the best person to talk about these things to. However, I would only recommend things that I truly love.

Anyways, the conversation then lead on to being a woman. Like a ladylike woman, if it makes sense. It's strange coz I have never thought of myself to be a "woman" woman. I'm just me. I love makeup only because of the things it can do. Like a form of art. Sometimes, I'd glam up just coz I feel like it or if the occasion is suitable or calls for it. I love making myself looks like aliens or weird creatures.

I think as far as my skin goes, I spent so much time growing up being made fun of coz of my skin. I had a lot of zits in my teens. I get laughed at a lot so I had to look into skincare at a very young age. I am doing things and buying and using things that works for me. It's changed so much over the years anyways. Especially after giving birth.

When I was asked about how romantic Shu is towards me, I just say he's always been himself. If you consider being romantic as always buying me flowers, well, he doesn't buy me flowers but he likes to shop for me. He could spend so much on clothes just online. I could wait somewhere for like a smoothie or something and let him stroll around with the kids and he'd come back with something for me. There was this one time, he was waiting for coffee (for me) so he decided to go walk around and decided to get me something. I was at home at the time. He remembers dates,anniversaries and stuff. I'm not very good at it.

It turns out that not all men are like that. My dad isn't like that. At least not from what I see. It was weird to know that not everyone goes lingerie shopping with their spouses. Erm, if I had something that was a major turn off for Shu, he'd let me know and I would get rid of it. We always talk about what we're into. No matter how intimate or personal it is. I don't have friends and I don't have anyone to talk to so I will always talk to him or refer to him about anything.

I always tell him how crazy and complicated I am. Not sure if it's coz I was raised to believe that or I really just am as such. Either ways, we always have a good laugh about it. 

The thing about living in the city

 Is that you'd get bored easily. Weekends need to be exciting since....... Well, you can't possibly spend so much time in malls. Also, I do my mall shopping on weekdays just to avoid crowds so weekends need to be planned out a little better......... Or not.......

Shu and I had always been the type to just pack up and drive. No idea where to but we're moving. Our kids have gotten accustomed to this now. So, last Saturday at about 5pm,we decided to leave town and headed south. Not south south but south enough to be away from KL. 

Malacca has a night zoo and the last we ever went was when Yusuf was about a year old. It was fun. Then, we decided to head into Bandar Hilir. Shu has an entire history in this state since he spent his teenage years in KYSM. We were just laughing about random things that he's done but the kids had no idea what was going on. 

We got home at about 2am. Kids were already asleep and Shu and I just passed out till morning :) 

My Go-To jamming playlist

 

Shu was telling me how worried he is getting about raising our kids in this mad world we currently live in

 It's mad and it's a whole lot worse than before. There was a time when we would be left at home on our own as kids and we felt quite safe. We can't do that anymore. Houses get robbed and broken into within an hour. 

And then, there are pedophiles. It's sickening to think that there is such a thing and it's not something new. I did point out that 14 year-olds today are not like how I was back when I was 14. Then again, I was naive and not very good at being a typical 14 year old...........14 year olds today look like they are 18 so......there's that.........I was still asked for my identification card even when I was 21 everytime I was going anywhere where underaged kids weren't allowed in :-/

I don't know why but the more I speak about shitty crazy mofos like pedophiles, I can't help but think that my guardians didn't do a good job at keeping one at bay back when I was 15. He was 10 years older than I was. I was naive. I had no idea about a lot of things and to think that my mum kept saying he liked me the whole time..........I was 15..........how is that flattering in anyway? He was allowed into my home. He was always talking to me about sex. He was always looking at my friends around me who were my age and passing remarks about pretty they are. We were 15. My dad was a pilot so he was hardly around. 

Anyways, one day this guy went somewhere overseas and came back and said he had something for me. It was a G-string........thong.......whatever you wanna call it. I told my folks. My dad never let him back near me or our house ever.

I'm still trying to understand why my mum did let him come over even to my wedding. Growing up, I was always asked why I was 13 and did not have a boyfriend. Why I never had a social life. Why I never went out with friends or even had a lot of friends. I had friends. A small number of friends.

I don't have a social life even until today. I don't have friends to go out with. Not these days. My friends are all working and are grown up parents.

My mum cleared out some stuff and found a whole lot of books

.... And my old ginormous scrapbook. 

Here is a newspaper double spread from LinZy (I think)

I tried for the Rock Star SuperNova competition just coz I was a huge fan of Jason Newsted.

Spot me with the black shirt and orange neck tie ;)

I kept this ad. Shu and I went to this concert. It was bomb! I sang to all the songs throughout the entire concert <3

I attempted painting with different materials 

I was obsessed with Alex Kapranos and Franz Ferdinand (the band,not the archduke)

Summer Shower by Emily Dickinson

 

This was worth every penny

I was team Inviso and we lost

 

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