No words can describe the amount of pain I went through in the last couple of days.........

 I think it's been a week since I had this ulcer in my mouth. It is huge and it is so close to my left fang which makes it almost impossible to move my mouth at all. I could swear and curse every time but the pain was so excruciating that I don't think it does justice at all. Shu had been trying to get me some meds that could possibly help heal the damn thing but every single thing I tried made me cry. I lost weight because I couldn't eat. WTF?! I wanted to jam on the guitar but I can't sing coz I was in pain -_-

I've always noticed a pattern certain times in a year whereby my life just decides to be a complete disaster for a good few days or weeks but this past month had been nothing but disastrous. I am clumsy so accidentally burning or cutting myself is kind of normal but for it to happen repetitively throughout the week ON THE SAME DAMN SPOT is just the universe being bitch to me! I cut myself while trying to open the watering bottle for my plants and I've been using the same bottle for years but this time, it decided to cut me on my forefinger knuckle. The next few days, I cut myself again from the same damn bottle on the exact same spot! How the hell does that happen?!

My legs are like bananas. They bruise easily. I'd do a workout routine which I have been doing since last year and it bruises out of nowhere. It's a complete routine with warm ups and cool downs. It's so strange. Aeons ago before we married, Shu did take me to see a doctor about my knee clicking. We suspected that because I do a lot of running and sports growing up, it may have impacted my knees over time so the doctor gave me an infrared treatment. It didn't solve my clicking problem. It's not in pain or whatever. It just makes a strange clicking sound whenever I bend it. 

Anywho, Yusuf started going back to school earlier this week. He's not used to going to the school canteen to get food so Shu and I opted to let him bring food from home. Shu has been good at waking up super early to cook. I fell out of the routine come Wednesday. I try to wake up but I can hardly stay awake. WTF is my problem?! Ali Imran had been waking up around the same time Yusuf gets up because his school starts at 8am. On Monday, I insisted that all of us should send Yusuf off to school so we got everyone ready and carried Safiyya from the bed to the stroller and into the carseat. She's just less cranky than last year knowing that she wasn't heading to school herself.

My studio is a mess and I miss jamming on the acoustic guitar..........I should do something today which is more productive than gaming...........