Is the atomic weight of cobalt 58.9?

 My mom called me at about 11pm one night. Worried. I thought there was an emergency. It was more like I was the emergency. It turns out the video call I had with my sister and her kids a few days prior to that, I was in a tank top and I was steaming some clothes while talking to her. One of the things she commented was how thin I was and asked if I was sick. I told her I was fine. Just working out and practising a good diet with intermittent fasting. 

Anywho, she told my mom I was looking thin and sick and my mom called me asking if I was alright -_-

I am. I'm also tanned from all the sun. And the weather is getting colder these days...........

I have a theory. Since the Earth shifts its core about 8 minutes every year, I am guessing we are probably off by months at this point in time. Therefore, the weather is off by months too. That's why July is looking like early monsoon. Still, it's just a theory.

We got Cleo and her kittens back yesterday. They've been at the boarding house for weeks because we've been in and out of town and there were too many people at home that I felt having the kittens asking for food and not knowing how to go to the washroom properly would cause a lot of problems. It turns out that them being at the boarding house caused just as much problems. The girl who took care of them said that the entire pack was out of control. They were constantly fighting with other cats and they tend to eat other cats' food..........

From today's observation, Shu and I have concurred that only one kitten is the odd variable. I bathed all the kittens including Cleo today while the sun was hot. I put some meds on Penelope (the one who had an eye infection) *sigh* She was fine before we moved her to the boarding house. She was healthy. That crazy black and white brother of hers scratched her face while he was looking to fight her over food one day and now, her eye is infected again. I had been taking care of her and I'll be looking after her now. 

I was wondering why Cleo was angry this afternoon. Shu thought she was losing her mind. Actually, she kinda is but just over one problem. Her black and white kitten. When we feed the family, he's always angry almost as though he's bullying the rest of them to make sure all the food is for him alone. That sucks though coz the 4 kittens whom are usually hanging out together just won't bother getting food for themselves. One of them would stay and fight back. It's weird coz there's plenty of food for everyone. Even Cleo would get upset and just sit at the side. So tonight, Shu and I decided to separate them. 

I took some food for Cleo, Penelope and one of her sisters and put them far away from the crazy black and white kitten. They were eating peacefully together. The other 3 kittens were eating at the same spot that crazy kitten was at. Then, one of them moved away under the car so I took some food and gave it to her. I have a feeling that black and white kitten has to leave. He's not playing nice with the rest of the pack. Not even his mother. I'm gonna see what Cleo thinks about having him removed tomorrow.

For most people, they are just cats. For the kids and I, well, Cleo is ok. She gets a bit strange sometimes coz she'd hunt for birds and eats them which is weird considering Shu and I used to raise Georg and Pebbles. Special breed,domestic cats with a very controlled diet. Cleo is different but because she's as such, I don't worry about her too much if we're out all day and she gets hungry coz she's capable of taking care of herself..........

If plants and animals could talk.......

 They'd have a court restraining order against me by now. I seem to be drawn to touch most plants and a lot of animals I could possibly touch. I do love iguanas but they run away whenever I approach them 😑 

The jelly fish and random weird tropical fish seem to be attracted to me. I am mostly terrified of them. However, I have made progress when it comes to swimming in the ocean it seems. We recently spent a few days on an island. Not our usual island. This place is more quiet and very much less humans. It's relaxing this way........

Anywho, we spent a lot of time in the water at the beach. This one morning, we spent about 5 hours just swimming and playing sand. My dad said I'm gonna get super tanned from the amount of time I spend at the beach eversince we moved here. Well, he's right.

So, this beach....... There's a lot of baby black tipped coral reef sharks in the water and they swim with us. Sometimes, they'd come really near to us and then swim away. They've never actually attacked anyone and so far, we're not the only ones who swam with them in the ocean. The bigger ones are far off at the deeper parts where the corals are and still, people go snorkeling there.

The strangest fish were the blue hued ones with spots...... Almost orange - ish spots. They were a bit crazy. They bit my toe as I was floating on my back. Yusuf said they bit him too. Weirdos.........

My broken pieces don't fit in

 I crashed. It's been a while. It's been a long while. I think it's just pressure. I think it's an accumulation of stress.

I wish I could just wake up one day and just "get over it". I've been battling this for so long. It's always back and forth.

I am trying to get over something that happened over 20 years ago. In fact, it's probably a lot longer than that. I am aware of the contributional factors. I thought I've addressed them and it's all gone and forgotten.

I was wrong. I can't fix this. I can never fix this.

I'm so sick and tired of listening to psychologists and counselors telling me shit I already know. I know what my problems are. I can't make it go away. I have been suppressing memories. It's making me forget so many things along the way.