I hope I made his day

 

I sent my dad this yesterday. He said thanks. Growing up, we were never taught or practised being thankful especially to him because we were trained to think that he is fear and we should always be on our toes whenever he's around. He was a pilot so we don't usually see him that much. My memories with him are mostly good ones like helping him fixing the car or bike or doing woodwork. I know tools and woodworking because of him. His dad was a carpenter so woodworking runs in my blood. I hope I'll see him once this lock down is over. He hasn't seen my Hummingbird 😉

People

 I cannot understand why some people just have to be invasive and offensive towards other people. Why can't we just be happy with what we have and take care of the little things that actual matters? It's almost like war is all they ever want and they ever want to do. I also don't understand why and how they have supporters whom at the end of the day would just be forgotten just like everything else. 

Also,there are people out there whom are either stupid or misinformed or both. 

I personally dislike people who window shop just because at times like these when every headcount matters, you really don't need to be where you have no business to be at. It's a waste of everybody's time and space,really. 

If you feel under the weather.......erm......you might wanna stay home. Despite the entire 2020 being an entire year of training us to adhere to new ways of living,some people are just too fucking densed to understand it. They don't know what social distancing is. They don't know what personal space is. Hell,they don't even know how to fucking queue up. 

Some are just dumb as fuck. If you need to write or register at a shop entrance,you need to understand that this is not some stupid log book for you to put in a short name or nickname. How stupid are you to think that this is just an autograph book? If anything happens or if there is a case and you happen to be there,they can contact you and have you checked...........

I guess that's just it. They are the most selfish motherfuckers on the face of the planet. Self quarantine is just something they would never do because it means they'd have to stay in for safety of others and they just won't have it. Doesn't matter if they came back from a red zone but tested negative. Staying in 2 weeks just to be absolutely sure is not an option.

This song is so sad : (

Friends break up, friends get married
Strangers get born, strangers get buried
Trends change, rumors fly through new skies
But I'm right where you left me
Matches burn after the other
Pages turn and stick to each other
Wages earned and lessons learned
But I'm right where you left me
Help, I'm still at the restaurant
Still sitting in a corner I haunt
Cross-legged in the dim light
They say, "What a sad sight", I...
I swear you could hear a hair pin drop
Right when I felt the moment stop
Glass shattered on the white cloth
Everybody moved on, I, I stayed there
Dust collected on my pinned up hair
They expected me to find somewhere
Some perspective, but I sat and stared
Right where you left me
You left me no, you left me no
You left me no choice but to stay here forever
You left me, you left me no, you left me no
You left me no choice but to stay here forever
Did you ever hear about the girl who got frozen?
Time went on for everybody else, she won't know it
She's still twenty-three inside her fantasy
How it was supposed to be
Did you hear about the girl who lives in delusion?
Breakups happen every day, don't have to lose it
She's still twenty-three inside her fantasy
And you're sitting in front of me
At the restaurant when I was still the one you want
Cross-legged in the dim light
Everything was just right, I...
I could feel the mascara run
You told me that you met someone
Glass shattered on the white cloth
Everybody moved on
Help, I'm still at the restaurant
Still sitting in a corner I haunt
Cross-legged in the dim light
They say, "What a sad sight", I...
I stayed there
Dust collected on my pinned up hair
I'm sure that you got a wife out there
Kids and Christmas, but I'm unaware
Cause I'm right where
I cause no harm
Mind my business
If our love died young
I can't bear witness
And it's been so long
But if you ever think you got it wrong
I'm right where
You left me
You left me no, you left me no
You left me no choice but to stay here forever
You left me
You left me no, you left me no
You left me no choice but to stay here forever

¡Bienvenidos, amigos!

 As the earth completed its circulation around the solar system, we were down south in Desaru Coast. Shu and I wanted to just kick back and rock out to live music. 

I brought my Hummingbird and Shu rented a humbucker stratocaster coz he wanted to try playing Franz Ferdinand songs. The kids wanted to go swimming so we got the duplex with a private pool. That way, I'd have my space and the kids have their space upstairs.

We discovered that we earned the Rock Royalty privilege so we had access to the lounge and that also meant that we don't have to pay a deposit for guitar rentals. The Roxity Kids Club now charges 20 bux per kid for an hour. The place was packed.

We did however managed to enjoy Arjuna (the band) live on new year's eve and the night after that. I swear to God, its either the stage sound system or just the sound engineer but they sound awesome every damn time. And the vocalist this time around was this awesome woman with this awesome powerful voice.

Anywho, we had some weird shit happening on our first night there. Then, we watched Annabelle Comes Home on the second night. The next day, the kids wanted to splash in the pool so we did a lot of that. 

Erm....... Ali Imran accidentally fell into the pool one time and I dove in to get him and I didn't even take my phone out of my back pocket. He's fine. He needs to learn how to swim. 

Anywho, it hasn't stopped pouring. This year there is definitely some serious shit happening around the South China Sea region. We had to take a different route on our way out from Desaru Coast coz the road we took on our way in was completely flooded. 

Lounge

This was good Lamb Rack. I highly recommend. 

I recommend the spa too....... 

This is Brad Paisley's Road Tour guitar 

So brown eyes, I'll hold you near, 'Cause you're the only song I want to hear

 A melody softly soaring through my atmosphere

My sister and Simon visited last weekend. They brought Hamza and Suhaila with them and the kids had a blast playing with their cousins. They haven't seen each other in such a long time. It's always been on video calls and it's just not the same.

My sister was telling me about the therapy she's been going to and how it's turning out. It's not hypnosis but it's like alternative healing. She said that growing up, all of us had been instilled with so much fear that it has become muscle memory and that at any point we came across a situation we needed to confront something that somewhat triggers a memory from the past, we'd react in a certain way. She said it could also be like sickness............

I dunno about those things but I feel at peace with myself and everyone around me these days. I don't want things to change only to make me go back to a place where I don't wanna be anymore. The only thing we can't seem to change at least not immediately is helping our brothers.

I have 4 brothers and they are stuck in a place whereby they need to grow up and experience life but my parents are not allowing them to leave. It's really bad for their mental and overall development especially into adulthood. They have plans to move out and get married and call their own shots but my parents (especially my mum) is not allowing them to do so.

I wasn't kidding when I said I grew up with a mom who constantly wanted to make decisions for me. Even when I was supposed to go out on a date with Shu back when we were 16, she'd be the one to tell me the moment I get home from school that I was going on a date with Shu at the mall and that she'd send us there. She was constantly pestering me about not having a social life and a boyfriend the moment I started secondary school. She's been pushing me to do my degree and become a lecturer which I never became one coz I want to call my own shots.

I purposely missed my convocation coz I just didn't want to go............

She's still annoyed with the fact that I have a bachelor's degree and I am not making any effort to pursuing my studies or just lecturing today.

She'd get involved in everyone's life,like literally.

Well,I have no idea why I come across people like her a lot in my life. Why are you not married? Why are you not pregnant? Why don't you have more kids? Why are you not working? Why are you working? Who's gonna take care of your kids?

Shu and I have this annoyance towards people who are pessimistic about anything,really. If you have so much money,shouldn't you help the people who need money?

Firstly,we don't tell people everytime we help anyone in anyway.

Secondly, Shu worked really hard for everything that we have. We both made sacrifices that people don't know about to get us to where we are. If you need advise,we are more than willing to help you out. We help whenever and where ever we can.........but you really need to stop pestering and freeloading. 

Shu was telling me about this group of people of just asks for free things with no remorse or shame. We had our down times when we had nothing but we didn't ask for free stuff. We picked ourselves up and worked on a different path with lessons learned. We should never encourage people to just ask for whatever and give them what ever they want or possibly need.

There had been several occasions whereby I come across elderly people whom should be at home resting but instead are working several jobs to make ends meet. They'd have a day job and then they'd do odd jobs in the evening like washing dishes at restaurants or trash can diving for aluminium cans and plastic bottles to be recycled. They are not begging. They are not asking for money from anyone. They are working several jobs.

We've been there too. Shu's worked several jobs for many years and now he is able to slow down a little and take time off.

I have been waiting for this.......

 And we finally got to watch it.......... And my heart went........... And Ejen Karya......... And General Rama........ And Rahul, Rajesh and Razman......... And then Nikki and gang.......... And then Ejen Ridzwan and Dos........... And Ali used his mom's gasing weapon in the end!!!!!!.......... Ejen Hisham needs more airtime! 

Durch den Monsun

 We made it! There and back again! Hahahaha!

I am so happy we decided to go back to Terengganu during the monsoon season coz I really wanted the kids to experience monsoon season. The first time I ever stepped foot in Terengganu all those years ago was during monsoon season and I loved it so damn much! It's been a while since it poured this way during monsoon.............I had plans to stop by at a coffee shop over in Kemaman (Coffeedential) but that was a no go coz the flood was quite bad and about 7000 people were relocated due to the flood......... :-(

The kids enjoyed their time with Shu's dad who took them on the scooter along the beach near the house. Ali Imran really enjoyed himself and everyday the kids begged to go to the beach. We arrived on Saturday. Late coz we took our time to drive. Shu discovered a coffee shop (Kedai Koffie) along the way so we stopped to grab a cup of coffee and headed off to Shu's parents' house.

Got up super early on Sunday morning coz Shu planned to catch the sunrise and had breakfast or picnic but Mr Sun never showed up and we ended up driving along the beach over at Seberang Takir Miami Beach. We hungout and took photos (which I will update in this post later coz pix are in my phone) We ended up having breakfast near the airport area at a place called Warung Ibu. I had my morning coffee and the food was awesome! Later,we went home and showered and freshen up. Shu,Safiyya and I headed over to the Bus Station in town. We were looking for band tee shirts but most shops had already closed down for good and the shops that were opened hardly had any band tees........I kinda feel like I already knew this but for some strange reason I forgot......... :-/

It got pretty cold when it rained at night. I remember us going out to do laundry at one of those self service laundry places and I swear I was in my fleece pyjama top coz it was cold. Shu got us Ejen Ali comics and cards to keep us occupied while waiting. Yes, me included ^_^ He got me the one with the holographic Ejen Karya pack <3

Monday was fun. We hungout at the beach again in the morning. Took more photos and the kids wanted to get into the sand so we let them. I hae to remember to always have a trash bag with me whenever we go to the beach especially during the monsoon season coz a lot of trash gets washed up from the sea and they are not from the locals. I realized that I have a thing for driftwood........hoarder alert! We had lunch before we pushed off but we made sure to stop by at the museum coz I wanted to go to the Kampung Budaya. I am a sucker for cultural studies and language and my kids are kinda obsessed with ships so it was a win-win situation. Our tour guide was awesome. There were other tour guides over at the Rumah Nelayan who taught me that we can fry crackers with sand. There was no demo coz it had a schedule but I asked how it was done anyways.........new experiment coming soon!

I am totally going back to Terengganu. Usually,when the islands open in March but who knows. Shu wants to explore a new island and the kids just want a speedboat ride. I am going back to Kampung Budaya when all the activities are up and running again. I hope everyone who is going through the monsoon season with floods and relocations are ok. My prayers are with you <3