And I found this on the bed......
Turns out, it was a delayed anniversary gift from Shu. He ordered it but Gucci couldn't ship it out any earlier coz of the MCO. It's so bright and floral at the same time. I love it ❤️
Safiyya is going through a Dora phase. I made her the Map from an empty kitchen roll the other day.
And then, me and my scrolling, window shopping mode discovered Dora's Backpack!
We've been doing a lot of art too......
And Safiyya decided to make a totem pole. Today, her surprise gift arrived for sleeping in her own room and going to potty on her own..... She's all grown up...... I'm gonna miss her 😭
Kate is supposed to be mine but I let her play with it. She's finally getting the hang of dress changing when it comes to dolls now 😊
I'm not pregnant!
YEY!
I think the stress is slowly creeping up on me. Things are gonna change real quick real fast...........I am slightly worried if I cannot cope. Nah.....I got this!
I was sitting out with Ali Imran during his science class today coz they had to talk about materials. His teachers are so committed but he's just not very expressive so he looked bored and I had to tell him to speak up a little and show what he was doing. I think I'm gonna have to do this more coz I don't know if he's actually present during class hours.
I was also monitoring Safiyya tracing lines to help practise writing letters.
Holy smokes,she was asking me about Medusa today so I showed her some pictures of Medusa and gave her a little background information about the Greek mythological creature. I personally like Medusa but some photos online spooked Safiyya out a little.
Then, for some reason we kinda moved on to Googly Eyed Octopus.....
After that, we were looking at Dumbo Octopuses........
And after that, the Vampire Squid.......
I think I should go to sleep.........but OMNIA is on and I really like this song.........
It's alright and it's nice not to be so alone.......
It's been quite a weekend. We discovered last week that in order to get banking done these days, you gotta make an appointment using what ever numbering system the banks use. So, what could have been done on Friday last week had to be done this morning. I was lucky that the lady upfront at the customer service department and the security guard were both so very helpful. A little downside to the bank that I was at is that because it is a small local branch, there were no waiting room inside and therefore I had to wait outside. It was 9am so the sun was really hot. The damn thermometer in the bank went off coz I was hot........HAHAHA!
Geddit! HAWT!
Anywho, because we were early, Shu parked the car right up front so I went in the car to cool down and tried the thermometer again. This is a problem if you're outside in the hot sun and suddenly inside where it is air-conditioned. Well, at least I got done what I needed to get done. The people at the bank are so helpful. Actually, a lot of people have been very helpful. I'm a noob who hasn't stepped foot outside in a while.........I'd still order coffee from a cafe and have it to-go -_-
This one time, I did that coz it's automatic and the lady at the counter told me that dining-in is not allowed so it has to be a takeout :)
I used to hate that stupid thermometer where you'd have to get real close to get your temperature taken coz I didn't want to get too close to it that I could touch it...........
June is coming to an end and I am running out of time. We are running out of time. I need to get a lot done before the month is over.
Shu's birthday is coming up. Also, our season pass is expiring soon.........
I am so nervous.........
It was a planned cesarean so it was quick. Her babies are big and healthy 😊
Safiyya built a fort from the sofa today and she's been in it all day. Shu had to migrate her fort to her room coz we're all going to bed.
I think I am coming down with something. I think it was too cold last night. It's been raining late in the afternoons.
If things go according to plan, major changes are bound to happen in the next few months. I can't speak of it just yet but it makes me feel both nervous and excited at the same time.
I've been doing a lot trial-and-error with the drill set I got a few months ago. We have a lot of shells and Safiyya wants me to make her jewelries and I'm trying to make her a wind chime. I've broken a few shells and ruined a couple of drill bits along the way.
Things would be so much easier if I could stop hurting myself! I burnt my finger(s) the other day. Prior to that, I cut myself from using the serrated knife 😑
When you've done your workout and feel like you died and you just know that you are going to be in so much pain in the morning 😁
If my grandma was still alive, we'd be celebrating her birthday today........
Shu and I were having coffee after lunch today and had a talk about the things that annoy him about people in general. He said that lately, he seems to be surrounded by people who complain and whine a lot. When they were working and busy and had a hectic schedule, they were complaining and whining and now that everyone's got more free time, instead of looking for a hobby or just finding useful things to do, they have more time to complain and whine.
I think they just need an outlet. It's like blogging. It's an outlet and a place for me to let out emotions in the form of words. I don't mean to harm anyone in any way and I feel like they feel the same when they complain or whine...........or rant.........
Shu's just annoyed coz he too had plans that didn't turn out the way he wanted them to but he just kept it to himself. I'd usually talk to him or write or blog about things that bothers me. I think they need an outlet. Getting a hobby is a really good start. But again, I like to write out wherever and whenever and it's therapeutic. I highly recommend it ^_^
I've also noticed how people have a lot to say about a lot of things but most of the time, it's just comments and nothing more. The slight problem is that they like to say it out loud as if it makes a difference at all. Again, I cannot stress this enough already. DO something PRODUCTIVE even if it is a comment or a remark or a personal opinion. Be progressive and productive. Also, dream a little. It really helps to just plan out a huge dream that seems impossible to do but until you try to do something about it, it's not gonna get you anywhere.
Things change and plans sometimes doesn't work out the way you want them to but I am pretty sure you have other plans too. Have multiple plans! Shu and I are both dreamers and we spend a lot of time talking to each other about what we'd like to achieve someday and we are opened to suggestions from each other regardless if it sounds impossible.
Shu got us food from Shangri-la KL and desserts and coffee from The Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf. We got dressed and even Safiyya had her makeup done 😊
It's been 11 years! And we've known each other for almost 20 years! Crazy how time flies. We have new adventures set up for us and there will be new challenges. The kids are old enough for new challenges. I think they can handle it 😉
I know that Michelle Branch's All You Wanted had always been our song but this song had always reflected how I feel about you ❤️ I love you, Foxburr-San!
Who's that super cool exploradora?
Qarim got married on Monday afternoon. He got a call from the authorities to get it done before the lockdown coz who knows when they'd be able to get married after this. He and Izreen agreed to get it done and now they are married. It's actually not a complicated thing to get done but people like to complicate things. Shu and I told my mom so many times over that if you don't spend so much on the wedding, they can save all that money to start their life together.
Once again, I have managed to keep myself awake at night by thinking and overthinking unnecessary things like Rosie the Shark. Why? I don't know. It started with curiosity, I guess.
I have new projects to work on during this lockdown so I hope I am occupied enough. Shu and I have been jamming to the Power Rangers theme song. I'm gonna just say this though..........I don't know how Hetfield plays the riffs and sings without losing the tempo. Shu's guitar solos have improved so much over a period of just months. He plays Justin Hawkins' solos for God's sake! I'll upload it onto my IG jamming page once we are confident enough to record it ^_^
The studio is a mess. It usually reflects the state of my mind but I just can't seem to be bothered enough to get it cleaned up. I really need to rearrange this space badly!
She was battling Covid in Serdang hospital. Her dad recovered though. I asked her about the burial procedures and she said it was done accordingly. The saddest part is that my friend lives in the south and her parents and family are here in KL. She said she's OK. I hope she is. I hope her family is OK too.
I hope this means that they have an actual plan to slowing down people movements and boosting up the vaccine distribution. I'm gonna keep my cup half full. I believe in wisdom behind things happening. I lost my muchness yesterday but even though I haven't pulled myself back up entirely, I am feeling more like myself today 😊
Anywho, Shu and I were talking about stuff today. I have come to a point of acceptance whereby I truly think that if I were to die, no one in my family would give a shit or know that I died until...... Whenever........
I'm not mad or whatever. I just think that it's always been this way and they really couldn't care for things other than themselves. I also think that they lack gratitude.
I also think that they hate the fact that despite me putting up a facade of being the dumb blonde in the family, I make sense when shit happens and they can't accept the cold hard truth.
I hope my brother gets married on Monday and I hope he's happy. After all, that's what really matters ☺️
When I say I like to pile things up onto my plate, I really do mean it. In a matter of about an hour, I have learned more things that would keep me up and busy in the next couple of days....... I hope.......
Once things are actually moving, I'll update it somewhere. For now, I am super psyched because I am actually learning something new 😊
This MCO is boring the living crap out of me, I'm not gonna lie. I've started working out again after about a month of break. I was in pain in the last couple of days but my body is used to it now. I injured my left shoulder slightly from a side plank but other than that, I'm good.
Shu has been talking to me about our finances because I think it's important that I know what's going on. He used to think it would worry me unnecessarily but I know that one of these days, I'm gonna have to know things myself.
I haven't left the house in a couple of days already. I've been trying to convince my plants that if they don't buck up, I'm moving them back into the pot of soil.
Safiyya came home from playing outside today and told me that she wants a bird........ Like a pet bird....... 😑 I'm not keen on the idea of keeping a bird locked up in a cage. She's gonna have to just befriend one outside from the wild.
Ali Imran is obsessed with Witherzillas and Witherstorms....... I don't know what he's talking about and it worries me.
Yusuf had been talking to the phone while playing Roblox with his cousins. Again, everytime he shows me something, I honestly have no clue what I'm looking at.
Yey, FidZy!
Today, I realized that Ali Imran and Yusuf are in 2 different schools in 2 different districts. So, the public holiday today only applies to Yusuf's school and not Ali Imran's. He missed his class anyways......
Yey, FidZy!
I hope Safiyya won't fall off her bed tonight.......
😕
It's been a hell of a year........ I finally finished reading the Quran........on my own.........I know, I know........some people get it done within a month. Well, I am not eloquent enough to be reading with a group. I might slow people down. However, I am not like إقرا level either. Also, I read the الكهف every Friday. It's ike 12 pages long and I never get it done in one seating..........
Anywho, apart from me trying to not scream out loud to MKN to just STFU about telling us how to live our lives, I just wish they'd just do their job and actually get things done............
We had to cancel 3 of our holiday trips and it's coming up to June. Dude, I am and have been staying at home. What are these people doing anyways?
I swear there was a point to this entry........
Oh yeah!
My mom got vaccinated some weeks ago. Shu and I are waiting for our turns.........
In 2020, I learned how to build a house and waterproof bathroom tiles. I also learned a lot about woodworking.
In 2021, I learned to make coffee at home.....barista style. Shu got me the grinder and a manual coffee machine and all........Recently, I have been learning how to sail a boat. Boating 101,basically. I am just gonna keep myself occupied and try focusing on something just to get by until.......well, until things get by...........
We are in the planning stages of building a house. One, from scratch and the other is just a matter of interior decorating and fixtures,I hope.
Seriously, by 2022, if shit doesn't get better,I'mma learn how make a damn rocket and fly myself away from this planet yo!
Sometimes, I want to say things not because I want a reaction but just because I cannot contain it. Most of the time, I am unprepared or simply not anticipating a reaction at all but I get it anyways because I decided to say something.
I'm not sure if I understand just WTF is going on right now. We have somewhat of a lockdown but not really. Case numbers are...... Well, just numbers at this point in time. I don't know if it makes any difference at all, really. Schools are closed but malls are opened.
Oh! We discovered a new variant of covidiots! They wear masks and gloves while going around public places. They touch pretty much everything and with the same glove they've been touching things with, they also touch their faces.
So yeah...... Case numbers....... What's that?
With all that's happening, people are having a hard time celebrating. But I still see and hear a lot of fireworks everywhere around us. That's a good sign. A lot of people get emotional on this day for some strange reason.
Last night, my mum forwarded a text message to me which she received from Tasha. Well, Tasha had always been considered as part of our family since she came to our house when she was 9 years old.
She's an only child. Both her parents were always busy with work. They used to take her to the mosque. That was where she met my grandmother. Then, my grandmother introduced her to us and she started hanging out with us.
I babysat her all the time growing up. We got along. She even followed us to UK this one time. It's funny coz her parents just let her go with us.
Anywho, she was telling my mum about how thankful she was to have ever met us and that we let her be part of our family. I still think of her as a sister. Shu used to fight with her and my sister when they were kids. It's so funny every time I remember those days.
I hope everyone is doing well these days. Selamat Hari Raya to everyone ❤️
There is something magical about the Hummingbird. Everytime I pick it up, it makes such magical sounds and I'd record awesome samples. The playbacks on my phone is surreal.
Things are brewing and everyone is losing their minds.........on different levels. I keep telling myself that this is the first time this generation is dealing with a pan-ass-demic. From vaccine disputes to death rates and now we have numbers. They seem meaningless because people need to survive. We are running on backup plans after backup plans. It's getting quite exhausting at some point.
We need solutions. Suggestions have been put forth but we need something done.
The only way I am staying sane in the midst of all this chaos is to focus on what is truly important to me which is Shu and my kids. If I ever lose myself in the crazy world of never ending pain, I'd break. I do my part to help however I can but I can only do so much because I am limited to my capabilities and resources.
The new routines I have developed over the course of about a year has done wonders for me. We cannot lose our muchness for if we do, we might lose ourselves completely.
Sometimes, it seems like I pull myself away from this world which seems selfish but this world has done nothing to help me in times of need. I owe nothing.
Last week, it was Ali Imran's birthday. We planned a birthday celebration for him. Coincidentally, his cousins came over so we had an actual party.
It wasn't as elaborated as we hoped but he was happy. He didn't even eat the ice-cream cake even though it was oreo flavoured coz he doesn't like ice cream 😑
On Friday in the same week was his cousin's birthday so we went over to their house. We'll, the kids did. We came by later. I think they are getting bored.
Went to visit my parents yesterday. Sent Wani's birthday present and stuff. We went for a short while coz we had to get home in time to cook. Managed to see Mama and Kak Yah.
Of all things my dad could possibly do was to give Yusuf a crash course on guns -_- Ali Imran was not so interested in it coz he kept saying he wanted a long gun and not a short gun........ He thought my dad said shirt gun but it was shotgun.......
Anywho, Safiyya was happily eating and playing with cats. My dad also took out his hunting bow and asked Yusuf to hold it and have a go. He wanted to give Yusuf an arrow. I was like "No!"
Anywho, my aunt and my mum spent a good 5 minutes outside the front door just criticising on how I am too skinny and flat-chested as we were leaving. Apart from losing weight, I think I had always been flat-chested 🤔
