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Monday, September 14, 2026

it's been.....a weird week.....

 I had been wondering what happened to Kak Nadz eversince graduation. I never got the chance to see her and I lost all her contacts-email address, phone number,social media pages....

One day, I was going through my things in the studio when I was trying to sort things, I came across the stuff she gave me and I was thinking, I need to find this woman. I did what I usually do, I typed her full name on Google search. I found her picture giving a talk at a conference. Yes, it was her. Definitely her. Unmistakably her. I went on looking for a way to get in touch with her and I found her email address. It was her work email address but it was better than nothing.

I sent her an email without realizing it was a Saturday. On Monday, she replied. I was almost in tears coz I had been looking for her for so goddamn long. She gave me her phone number and we started chatting. It's crazy coz she said for some strange reason, she was just thinking about me over the weekend and when she came into work on Monday, my email was in her inbox.

We need to hug each other properly if we ever meet in person. It's been too long and I had been missing her.

The week goes by and I went to visit Safiyya's best friend's mom who just gave birth. It was such a strange experience coz, I wanted to see the baby and we ended up chatting (Safiyya's bf's mom and her husband and I). We later discovered that they are actually my juniors from the university I attended. SUCH A SMALL WORLD. So,her husband started going through his phone, going through random names with me in case anyone rings a bell. And yes, his former roommate from matriculation was indeed an aquaintance/coursemate/friend of mine. He wasn't exactly in our immediate circle but my course was the minority on campus so yeah, we know each other.

Anywho, the next thing I knew I was talking on the phone with that former coursemate of mine. Weird, coz he did leave comments before my social media account got hacked back in 2014. And with the memories recurring every now and then, the posts with comments will still be there. So yeah, we ended up chatting during the baby visit a lot longer than intended. It was nice to meet people with more than one connections with what I do.

Safiyya's BF's dad happens to also know my sailing coach and some sailing coaches I used to sail with. Small world? VERY.

Friday, September 11, 2026

talking

 Yusuf was in the kitchen tonight with us. He was asking questions about human relations and connectivity in general. As his parents, we are always open for any discussion regardless. So, we discovered about his problem in his classroom with someone in particular. It's a girl and she has a bit of an attitude when instructing him or anyone. He wasn't really taking it well but he didn't do anything to her. He just told us how he felt at the time and what he felt like doing. The good thing is that he did not act on any of his anger at the time.

I am quite disappointed with the quality of girls we have today. As a woman/girl in general. There is no politeness in our tone when conversing anymore. Why is that? We are supposed to have a certain sense of restraint and dignity when we speak or when we deal with other people, no? Do we not have class anymore or is everyone just behaving like neanderthals and hooligans these days? Social pariahs of the lowest of levels. Disappointing. Embarrassing too. 

There is also a problem with people's inability to express themselves due to lack of vocabulary which usually results to very vulgar and degrading words. Read,for God's sake. Increase your vocabulary and ability to articulate your feelings. I also promote writing to my daughter and her friends. People don't write anymore. It's sad. Doodling is good too but most of the time, my doodles only makes sense to me....

Anywho, I think people in general have poor human interaction qualities these days. Adolescents and youths are deteriorating in terms of manners and social behaviors. 

Sunday, September 06, 2026

coming back to reality.....

 What reality? HAHAHAHA!!!

So much have been going on that I just don't even have the time to write or post or do anything basically.....

Yusuf had a school trip to KL. We decided to pick him up and head to Genting Highlands Skyworld coz.....we've never been there and.....we just needed to go somewhere......Overall, we loved it. We spent so much less than what we usually would whenever we are in Putrajaya......ok,yeah....my kids are shopaholics and the malls just aren't helping.....

We usually head to KL to chill and shop.....and yes, meet up with family....

Had to move my studio to the common area upstairs coz the windows are cracked......thanks to crazy birds.....and the ceiling was leaking too.....so.....yeah.....my printer, my 3D printer,my AMS,my.....everything.....had to move. Shu also got me a display cabinet for all of my.....uh.....figures....and dolls.....yeah.....

I have been getting shitloads of bug bites......can't tell whether they are dust mites or bed bugs or fleas from the damn cat! Damn it! We have been doing everything from steaming to vacuuming to just....intensed house cleaning.....it is so much less but I seem to be getting it the worst......-_-

Lately, I have been......distracted...again....nothing new there.....it's just a matter of what the distraction is.....before moving my studio, I was doing a lot of paintings and crafts....and then.....it's just a mess....

It wouldn't be FidZy if I didn't try to do something so......tedious and annoying but I do it anyways for the sake of making my book look good......that's a lot of OOs.....Hahahahaaah!!!!