The day we met........

Frozen, I held my breath 
Right from the start
I knew that I'd found a home for my heart.......

I was allowed to hold Yusuf for the very first time on January 28th of 2013. That was exactly a week after he was born. I was the happiest person in the galaxy. I've been waiting for him for so long. I was longing to breastfeed him for so long. It was funny because he and I were trying to adjust to each other.He had never felt my arms before and I was learning to hold on to a newborn.

I stayed at the hospital that night because the hospital wanted me to learn how to cope with him once he gets home. It was quite an experience because I was constantly waking up whenever I heard a baby crying. It wasn't always Yusuf coz there were other babies in the ward. Other babies who were not as lucky as him coz they were all under the UV light despite being able to be with their mothers.

Yusuf recovered. Shu had been going back and forth from TTDI to HKL every single day.Our prayers were answered and Yusuf was discharged, finally. He spent his first night in TTDI and then we moved to Bangi coz my mum's house is full of cats and it may be a problem for Yusuf as he is recovering from lung infection.

My God! I remembered crying so much the night on the day I gave birth. I was so worried about my baby and all I thought about was how it was all my fault. Yusuf came out at 36 weeks of pregnancy. Most babies come out between 38 to 40 weeks. The doctor said he pooped in the womb which may have caused the lung infection in the first place.Babies would only poop in the womb before their due date coz they are stressed.

Anywho, Shu and I are just glad that Yusuf is back home with us now. We spend every single minute of the day watching him sleep and talking to him when he is awake. Shu will spoil him :) I can guarantee that.