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Showing posts with label Mulan. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Mulan. Show all posts

Thursday, December 05, 2024

laughing myself to tears

 Shu and I were laughing so hard over breakfast this morning coz I was talking about Artemis Gordon and the Wild Wild West movie. We both know how we feel about theoretical physics but on different levels. Shu hates theoretical physics solely because it's always theorized in an ideal state. I like a little bit of it from time to time but not to the extent of having Michio Kaku's statue erected at our yard 😂

I was quoting some lines from the movie and we were laughing so hard as we were breaking down and analyzing the gadgets and techs from the movie. We can't really be so picky on it coz Barry Sonnenfeld was the guy behind MIB after all. We all know how that shit goes down. But me being me, I am all over Star Trek and Sakura Wars and Voltron and shit. It's never fully real world with me.

Then, as we were driving and stuck at the traffic lights, I asked about how movies and shows depicts war and how the so called "villains" always has some sort of troll in their army. Shu said it's a way of justifying the battle between good and bad. The antagonists will always have some form of disfigured monster like creature on their team. It's only to portray the perfect and good looking ones are the protagonists or heroes.

Arcane, LOTR, Harry Potter.......even Mulan. The Khans are just people. They're Mongolians but they're just peeps. War armors are meant to make them look scary and intimidating just like the Samurais and the Maoris. Still, there had never been a war between people and other creatures......ok, except that one time the Aussies lost the battle against the emus....... 🤣

The best depiction of what war really is was actually portrayed so well in Black Mirror. They had these chips embedded into them so when they go into battle, they won't hesitate to pull the trigger on the innocent civilians coz what they see are monsters. Just like in games. It's so fucked up but it's happening IRL.

Monday, November 02, 2020

I've always said my parents are weird

 But my mum...........ever since Disney released Mulan back in 1998, she insists that Mulan reminded her of me. Why? How? I could never understand. 

Look at me
I will never pass for a perfect bride
Or a perfect daughter
Can it be I'm not meant to play this part
Now I see
That if I were truly to be myself, I would break my family's heart

Is that what she meant? I can't be myself? 

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight, back at me
Why is my reflection someone I don't know
Somehow I cannot hide
Who I am
Though I've tried
When will my reflection show who I am inside

My mum went to see the latest Mulan real life action movie a few months back when they released in the cinemas. She called me immediately after the show just to tell me that Mulan reminded me of her. 

Honestly, people in general cannot accept me for who I truly am so I would have to put up a facade. Sometimes, I feel like I am just happy being myself and people still have a problem with it. There will always be flaws in my ways. Whether it's about raising my kids or what I wear or my color of choice. 

I am currently at a happy state of mind. Shu loves me for who I am. Weird or not. My kids enjoy doing random things with me whether it's art or gaming or sports. It's not like I fully cut ties with everyone else. It's less of them and more of me. I give myself time to process things. I give myself time to unwind. I give myself time get shit together.

I still don't know why my mum thinks I am Mulan in her mind. If I were to pick a Disney Princess I see myself as, it would most likely be Pocahontas. Always had been.