I've always said my parents are weird

 But my mum...........ever since Disney released Mulan back in 1998, she insists that Mulan reminded her of me. Why? How? I could never understand. 

Look at me
I will never pass for a perfect bride
Or a perfect daughter
Can it be I'm not meant to play this part
Now I see
That if I were truly to be myself, I would break my family's heart

Is that what she meant? I can't be myself? 

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight, back at me
Why is my reflection someone I don't know
Somehow I cannot hide
Who I am
Though I've tried
When will my reflection show who I am inside

My mum went to see the latest Mulan real life action movie a few months back when they released in the cinemas. She called me immediately after the show just to tell me that Mulan reminded me of her. 

Honestly, people in general cannot accept me for who I truly am so I would have to put up a facade. Sometimes, I feel like I am just happy being myself and people still have a problem with it. There will always be flaws in my ways. Whether it's about raising my kids or what I wear or my color of choice. 

I am currently at a happy state of mind. Shu loves me for who I am. Weird or not. My kids enjoy doing random things with me whether it's art or gaming or sports. It's not like I fully cut ties with everyone else. It's less of them and more of me. I give myself time to process things. I give myself time to unwind. I give myself time get shit together.

I still don't know why my mum thinks I am Mulan in her mind. If I were to pick a Disney Princess I see myself as, it would most likely be Pocahontas. Always had been.