kill me if you dare

I was kept up all night by the dissatisfaction of Tokio Hotel's end product of the Automatic video.I really don't like their songs in English and the video was awful.I expected something a whole lot more since it was after all shot in South Africa!

I don't feel like I've been fasting at all these days.I was throwing up since morning so mum told me to fill my tummy out before I started going overboard with all the gastric juice.This month had been the worst month ever.I am always hungry and my health has gone way down.I feel like a vegetable most of the time.

Went to IKEA with Shu coz he wanted to get those curry puffs they make.We bumped into CT.Haven't seen that girl in ages.Most of my school friends remember Shu from my 17th birthday bash.Shu wasn't so sure on who is who so he was surprised to hear CT say that she remembers him.

Anywho,I am still on a fashion hunt.Been going in and out of stores looking for a pair of knee high boots.I lurve them Ugg boots but until I can get myself to Australia anytime soon,I'm gonna have to just find whatever around here.I fell in love with some of the boots over at ALDO.

Shu and I have a list of things to buy once Hari Raya is over.He wants to get an RC car.I figured I should get some new wheels for the skateboard and just practise till I can no longer take the fall anymore.

Mum will be heading to Bandung sometime in November.I'm planning to tag along since I won't have anything to do then.Hahaha!I'm hoping Shu will come along so that we can get our wedding invitation card done there.I am so getting some kain batiks!

Not So Quarantined:Day6

Got earlier than the last 2 days but it was still late.I could have gotten more sleep if Fei Mao didn't make so much noise about wanting to come into my room and all.

*sigh*

Anywho,I was out and about with Shu.We went to the mall for a bit coz I needed to get shampoo.Rashid had been using my shampoo and I only used it once or twice and I found the bottle empty.Not very happy about that.

We went to check out the RC store coz Shu is planning on getting one after raya.Those things are supercool but I need a whole stash of cash and passion to get started on it.I think I'm gonna watch and observe and learn more about those things before actually getting one myself.

I went snooping around the rabbit's cage at the pet store next door.I got bitten by one of those things.Thank God its teeth was not sharp!Then,I looked at the hamsters and the fish and we left.

We got some takoyakis!YEY!We're always around that takoyaki shop eating and chatting away and we haven't been there in a while so today,we decided to get some for buka ^_^

Oh!I saw these awesome pair of Adidas all-terrain crosstrainers!ME WANT IT!

We went to get some stuff for my mum and then we did some food shopping and headed home.We walked quite a lot today.I could tell by how painful my knee tendon hurts.Hahahaha!I am gonna need one of those sonotron treatments again one of these days.I am also in major need of endless workout routines!

Not so Quarantined:Day 5

I've been going out......with my mask on,of course.It does get pretty darn boring staying in.Went out for a drink last night.It was pretty funny.I did quite a lot of things yesterday considering the fact that I got up at 3pm.Haha!

As usual,Shu and I were experimenting in the kitchen.Our experiment worked!Hahahaha!

Quarantined:Day 4

I took a walk outside last night.I got so sick of staying in.I stayed up till morning watching TV.Shu is planning to sneak me out later while my folks are out ;)

My being infected should not be kept.I should use this opportunity to spread this virus to the world.Let's start with my university since I hate that place so much.I should cough and sneeze everywhere beginning with the medical unit and then the admin.Oh!I should have done this since I first got the results!

instead of being sick and locked up all by myself

I figured maybe I should go out and spread the virus tomorrow and let the whole world fall sick.Why waste this opportunity to do something for the world?

Hahahahahahahaaaa!!!!!!!!!<---evil laugh

Shu has been hugging and kissing and temaning me eat and talking to me and sometimes he doesn't even wear a mask.I cried to him today.I can't take this anymore.He offered to sneak me out today but we didn't coz my folks were around.He wanted to take me to the park.

It's not like I could kill someone.I could kill myself most likely coz I am still in a recovering state but seriously,does it really take a whole 7 days to keep me in?I don't want to take those fluhalt pills anymore coz seriously,they could kill me.I was fine before I started taking them.Yeah,I had a temperature and some head throbbing at times but after 2 days (1 day actually) it was gone and I am fine.My nose is stuck coz I cried not because of some flu.

I'm gonna start sneezing out the window and see what's gonna happen ^_^

Quarantined:Day 3

Food does NOT taste or feel good goin up your throat and out your mouth.It works better the other way around.

It is just unfortunate for me to have made the 1% of people who would have adverse reactions towards those fluhalt capsules!I threw up 4 times yesterday.Twice after popping a pill after a meal.I just popped one today and I think I'm gonna go AGAIN.I want to stop taking it but the docs tell me that those are the vital meds I have to consume.Well,guess what........if I do throw up after this,I ain't takin' no more pills and I am gonna stop this whole quarantine game coz I am fine!

I am sick of staying in,watching a lightning-free rain go by from my window.I am sick of not being able to run around freely in the sun.My cat misses me!They look at me weird when I see them with a mask on my face and they wonder why I haven't left my room at all.

*I threw up already*

I think mum is gonna take me to the hospital.I'm waiting for Shu.

This is sick.The pills actually make me sick!

I need to get my hair washed!

automatisch by tokio hotel

Wenn du lachst

Lachst du nicht

Wenn du weinst

Weinst du nicht

Wenn du fühlst

Fühlst du nichts

Weil du ohne Liebe bist

A long awaited album.Finally the first single is out.I think I've been listening to it millions of times over within the last couple of days that I keep hearing it playing in my head.

I have put one thing on my list of things to do as soon as I can leave the premises.I wanna go do my hair BIG TIME!

Shu has plans for buka puasa sessions outside while mum and Aunty Intan has plans to take me to the place in KL to have me try on some wedding gowns.

They (Aunty Intan and mum) actually bought me a pink cotton baju kurung with sakura prints all over it.It's so preeeeeetty but when I saw the tag with the size XS,I didn't think I'd fit it.I wear a size S for ready made baju kurungs but I've never tried XS.Luckily,the baju kurung fits me.

Hahaha!Shu made a funny remark about that.He says that he wears XL while I wear XS.Hurmm......and the miss XS is the one who is always up for tackling mister XL in rugby games.The plan usually fails.Shu would just walk pass me without any problems.

P.S.: NEVER EVER poke your hamster they are asleep.Mine bit me and when I pulled my hand away she flew right out from her home onto my room floor.My right finger is bleeding a little :p

Quarantined:Day 2

Just as I thought things were gonna get better,I accidentally cut myself from opening the crab shell while I was eating yesterday.I was happily enjoying the crab Shu bought me and I was telling Shu that breaking the shell open was the calming part of the eating process and I cut myself.I didn't see it at first so I carried on eating.I stopped and felt totally grossed out when I saw blood flowing down my palm.EUW!

It's horrible to know that every part of me has to be sanitized.I know that I am only at the first stage of the viral infection and any healthy person who touches me must wash their hands after doing so and that if I were to talk to anyone they must wear a mask just as much as I have to.All the tissues and whatever things I have used must be disposed separately and carefully.

Shu helped send my MC to my lecturers and my course department earlier today.I don't know what I'd do without him.This is so weird.I am trying very hard to stay ok and I am trying my best to get better but my quarantine period is still a week.I sometimes feel fine.So fine that I could probably go running in the park.Sometimes,my body temperature hikes up and that gives me the throbbing headache which really3 sucks.

I miss laughing with Shu and who ever who passes by at the dining table downstairs.I miss making fun of people on the road as well as my siblings.I miss picking on Rashid and grossing him out so much that he'd whack me.I miss listening to my sister going nuts over little things.Today was the first time I saw Kak Yah in 2 days.I haven't seen my grandma and I don't think she knows my condition.

Shu has spent his time thinking of things to do once my quarantine period is over.Actually,I haven't quite thought of what I'd wanna do just yet.I spend way too much time laughing at my hamster whenever she falls asleep.She sleeps in very strange positions and sometimes she'd get nightmares.

I really want this all to be over ASAP!

Quarantined:Day 1

I was super fine this morning.Finally got to shower and washed my hair and all.I was on the phone with Shu (who was in UNITEN) and we were laughing about something he accidentally blurted out to his project supervisor.Hahahahaa!!!!!Awang Goneng betul!

As time passed,I think it must have been about 2pm-ish,my head and my entire body starting throbbing (aching).That was so painful that I wanted God to just pull the plug on me coz I couldn't take it.Finally,I passed out.I was super hungry when I got up so my mum prepared some food for me to eat downstairs.

I had to eat coz I can't take the meds on an empty stomach.Right after I drank down a Ponstan capsule,I went to bathroom to brush my teeth and I totally threw up.I think the pill went right back out.

Anywho,I feel better now.Shu is on his way back here.He went to get himself checked and he is cleared.Thank God!I am trying my very best to stay away from my mum coz her lungs are fragile.Can't do that much coz she's the house doctor so she has to monitor me.So,we'd usually have our masks on when we talk and we'd keep our distance (which is so funny) I am trying to stay away from Azim coz he's sick.I definitely have to avoid my grandmother.

So that basically leaves me with my hamster.She's so chomel when she yawns............

this looks like fun

oseltamivir phosphate capsules

aka Fluhalt capsules.

Description:

Fluhalt capsule 75mg contains oseltamivir phosphate which is a white crystaline solid with the chemical name (3R,4R,5S)-4 acetylmino-5-amino-3(1-ethylpropoxy)-1-cyclohexenes-1-carboxylic acid,ethyl ester,phosphate (1:1).The chemical formula is C16H28N2O4 (free base)The molecular weight is 312.4 for oseltamivir free base and 410.4 for oseltamivir phosphate salt.

I was tested positive for influenza A but not H1N1.So,I have been quarantined for 7 days.It's only been about an hour and I already feel sick.I have my hamster in my room.She's funny and fun to watch.Fei Mao was here a while ago.I have to stay in my room for most of the day.Especially when there are lots of people around.

This is weird.I am stuck in my room in a house full of people.I can only see Shu at my room door with my mask on :( This sucks.I already feel weird enough when he's not around.This is super weird!I know that I have been to so many places in the last couple of days.Can't really be sure where I picked up the virus from :/

I am probably going to spend my days in the room playing Sims or I'm just going to do some whacking at www.whackyourboss.com ^_^

My muscles are aching.I really wanna believe that its caused by my sudden stop in playing outdoor games............

the worst part about being sick

is basically being sick.I hate being sick.It's a waste of time and energy and money.The doctors have confirmed me as an anaemic case.My blood pressure was super low but not as low as last year.My temperature was high since last night.My feet and hands are freezing cold and my head throbs every now and then.

If tonight's h1n1 swab test returns positive,I won't be only one who is going to be quarantined.Shu had been with me all day.We would probably end up getting quarantined together.......along with the rest of my household of course.That could also mean that my grandma and my dad's friend and my sister and Rashid cannot come home or they'd end up getting quarantined just as well.

I hope it's just fever.I'm gonna have to change my diet BIG TIME!

delivery mishap

My grandma wanted to belanja everyone makan fast food yesterday.For those who eat such things,of course they are psyched about it.I had to eat proper food for breakfast.The delivery boy went missing and mum got so annoyed coz the delivery was delayed by about 45 minutes.She kept calling the number she called but the person at the other end of the phone kept saying that the delivery was on the way and had been on the way.Finally,the delivery boy called my mum himself asking for the house address.The office was notified that we moved from the previous address but they didn't tell the delivery boy.WTF?!Just minutes before breakfast,the delivery arrived.Mum was pissed and worried in case the orders didn't turn up at all coz she didn't cook nor did she buy any food for every else at home.

Did I mention that there's so many of us living at home at the moment?Qarim has his friend over.My brothers are home.Shu and Ash are here too.And my dad's friend who is always here for dinner.

Anywho,after all that commotion,all of us had a movie to catch at 8:50pm.So basically,after eating,everyone rushed to pray and get themselves cleaned up for the movie.

Shu and I picked the perfect day to get into trouble,of course.It started with the bag Shu bought for me.I saw it yesterday and we went to check it out and Shu said he wanted to get it for me.So much for telling Shu that mum shouldn't find out how much it costs.I accidentally left the receipt on the table while emptying my pockets when we got home.She wasn't happy about it at all :/

Of course,among the other things we got into trouble for went on later in the evening.I am currently coming down with a fever.No idea why........

shoppin'

Once in a while,my sister and my mum would drag me to go for a girls only shopping trip.It's strange coz they'd always push me to buy something and when I'm not looking for anything specific,I can't really buy anything.

First,my mum told us that she wants to get an outfit which can be used for my wedding.She said I can't buy anything coz I already have my wedding outfit tailored.Then,she insisted that I buy something.WTF?!

The worst part about shopping is if you are looking for something and the item is either unavailable or just out of stock.That was exactly what happened to me while looking for some things at the pharmacy today.

Then,my mum wanted to go check out a department stall at the other end of the mall.So we went ahead and walked all the way there.She still couldn't find her baju but insisted that I got something.Just to please her,I got this off-shoulder-ish,boatneck-ish black top.My sister almost got herself the same thing in pink but didn't.That would have been weird.We were in the same fitting room and trying out the same outfit in different colors.Haha!

At the end of the day,my mum got something from her favourite store,my sister got her stuff from the Bodyshop and I got myself a black top.I wouldn't say it was totally unproductive.We did get something somewhere along the way ^_^

HotStuff,Ara Damansara

I kinda like that studio.It's new and cozy.I just have problems lookin' for a parking space coz the place is ever so packed.Where do these people come from anyways???

It's been quite a while since we last went jamming.We couldn't even play Celebrity Skin and Mental Vacation properly.I know......double-you-tee-eff-question mark-question mark.Our always-had-been-in-major-need-of-practise song would be Take Away.Tonight was funny.Kamal totally forgot the parts and he couldn't quite figure out his solo.Ayie looked at me and then I looked at Rashid and we looked at Kamal and he was just playing stuff on his guitar which was something which had never in the song.

My major bumness was singing MCR's I Don't Love You.I wasn't sure what I was singing and the chords I played were pretty much messed up.Seriously,what did I sing?

BTW,Kamal was sort of attacked by a dude when he was hanging out with his friend.There was some misunderstanding about the attacker and the dude he was chillin' with.The dude was attacked with a pocketknife.Kamal's friend managed to avoid the blade but Kamal's reflex just made him catch the knife.The dude pulled the thing and it cut Kamal's palm.Out of self defense,Kamal kicked the dude and managed to break his leg.

*Kamal used to be in the taekwondo team back in school*

I have no idea if they made a police report about it coz I only heard what ever I heard and I only got the proper story from Rashid coz Kamal told the story in the studio :/

We met Alim while we had a band discussion over at a mamak in TTDI.Haven't seen that dude in ages.Kamal said that Abang K'rol wants to see us all one of these days.Haven't seen him in ages either.

productivity report:error

Hahaha!

My plan to spend my entire Saturday doing nothing was a success!Got up really3 late and I stayed in my room till it was almost 4pm playing games on my computer.I finally went downstairs to feed the hamster and played with Kecik for a bit.I think I didn't even step foot outside my house compound today.I did drive my mum and my sister to get some food stuff but I never got out of the car ;)

My knee/right leg hurts.I'm gonna have to get it checked AGAIN.I'm gonna have to work on my landing each time I fall.I'd do power slides on my knees when I play badminton.I'd fall while skating.I do a lot of climbing and running around........funny,I don't recall falling whenever I go running.Oh yeah,there was that time when I used to tackle Shu when we play rugby :p

Speaking of falling.A girl fell coz the floor was so slippery when we were at Yankie's Hut.We didn't hear her fall or what ever.A lady from the family sitting in the bigger hut not far from where we were saw her and called her friends.The poor girl was crying.The only thing that went through my mind at the time was that it totally killed time to watch her friends helping her coz we still had a few minutes more before breaking fast ^_^

Anywho,Kamal wants to go jamming today.Rashid and I opted to go later at about 10pm coz it was a really bad idea to be in Subang Jaya at about 5pm-ish.We're gonna try out a different studio tonight over in Ara Damansara.

Mona Lisa

Here's another pity there's another chance

Try to learn a lesson but you can't.

If we can burn a city in futures and in past,

without a change our lives will never last.

Cause' we're going fast.

You can sit beside me when the world comes down, if it doesn't matter

then just turn around.

We don't need our bags and we can just leave town.

You can sit beside me when the world comes down.

What can we do better, when will we know how? A man says from a

sidewalk to a crowd.

If we can change the weather, if you want it to yourself.

If you cannot guess we all need help, yeah, I need help.

We say

We do

The lies

The truth

All I need is next to me.

Mmmmmmmmm yeahhhhh we're going fast.

You can sit beside me when the world comes down, if it doesn't matter

then just turn around.

You be the queen and i'll be your clown,

You can sit beside me when the world comes down.

Yankie's Hut@Bangi

Shu wanted to break fast with me today.Just the two of us.He was telling me about this place where we can makan atas pokok which he wanted to take me to since my birthday last year.The problem was the place only opens at 5pm onwards so we couldn't go at the time.Today,we went there at about 4pm to make reservations and ordered food and left.We came back at about 7pm.

We chose to eat at one of the private huts.Small.Just enough to fit about 4-5 people.We'd have to take our shoes off and sit on the floor to eat.It's really nice and cosy.Since it was raining,we had to be extra careful in climbing up to the hut coz the stairs were quite steep and narrow and the platforms from one base to another was quite far apart.Each hut was given a mosquito repellent coil thingy which was good coz when we ordered the food earlier,we were bitten by mosquitos.

By the time we got to our hut,the food was already served on the table.The dishes were rice dishes.Perfect coz Shu and I have been eating nasi bungkus like nasi kerabu for a few days and I,particularly,was craving for white rice for quite sometime.We had to pay a deposit of MYR50 and if our bill exceeds that amount,we'd only have to top up a bit more.

The Cendawan Goreng Tepung was awesome!Like AWESOME awesome!

I had a blast.Later on,we prayed in UNITEN (the library surau)

you either do a background check or just get one of your own

Went to watch Orphan today.FINALLY.I think the movie rawked.It could scare the shit outta you and it is seriously creepy and bloody and somewhat sick.Shu and I enjoyed it.We were just wondering if Kecik would ever turn out to be like that.........hurmm...........

I was feeling all sick today.Been having nightmares for 2 days in a row.Yesterday,I had a hard time sleeping after Subuh prayers.I always have problems falling asleep and when I really3 need to sleep,I'd get disturbing dreams like having loads of baby scorpions in the house.Those clear colored little things turned green when I squished them (in the dream).That scared the shit outta me.Then,as I was desperately trying to fall asleep when I got home today,I had a bad dream about not having my guitar with me for one of those open mic sessions.I not only had to borrow a guitar which was an acoustic guitar but I didn't bring any of my cables as well.That sucked!

My right leg is hurting again.I have a feeling it's caused by the cold.The Sonotron treatment I went to helped but it relaxed my muscles with heat.The cold air conditioning in the movie theater must have caused the pain.Plus,my body was extremely cold and my fingers turned blue due to not enough food.It's fasting month!DUH!

Shu has exams today.One was at 4pm which his lecturer turned out to be a no show.He studied all night for that test!He has another paper now.I hope he'll do alright.He said that since the Selangor Sultan wanted to buka puasa at his university,all the parking lots were closed and he had to park so far away and walked through the rain.What a pain!

My lecturer was going about the stupidity of my university for not having it closed down.He said he had a student from another section come in with a 4-day MC from the medical center.She was quarantined for H1N1.She's supposed to be quarantined for a minimum of 7 days.Not 4.It turns out that she was one out of about 40+ people to have been suspected of being infected.We can only do so much to take extra precaution for ourselves and the people around us.We can't do much if the authorities don't cooperate.Hell,I wonder if they even bother!

FidZy's history with pets and animals in general

When I was little (I think I must have been about 4 and living in Shah Alam),I used to have a tiny cat named Kitty which later became known as Tapai (thanks to my mum) I think she died.That was also about the time when I got chased by a mother hen coz she thought I was trying to steal her chick!

Then,I had a cat named Tiger.Black with black stripes.Ili,Dini,my sister,Jojo and I thought he was a female cat so we called him Tiger Lily.Later,he became known as Tiger.I've always wanted a dog but I wasn't allowed to keep one so I decided to train it to be dog-like.Funny.It worked.I think he must have been taken by someone in the neighbourhood coz he just never came home after a while.Some years later,I saw him at a street not too far from where I lived.

After that,I had a pet chick.It kept following me around the house.One day,I came home and found it dead.I think the cats around the neighbourhood must have killed it.Someone let him/her out while I was in school.I was so upset when I got home.

Later on,I got myself a pet tortoise.I didn't keep it for too long.I found it dead when I got home from school one day.My maid filled up the aquarium with water that it had nowhere to hang on to for air and time out.It basically drowned.I wasn't too happy about that either.

When I was in secondary school,I got myself some hamsters.Fun to have but they smelled really3 bad!The first batch died.Can't remember how.The second batch of hamsters began with a Syrian hamster my uncle found running around the street outside my house.I decided to keep it.Later on,I got him a mate and she gave birth.I think he ran off and she died (or something).I could only remember one of her kids.A brown colored dwarf hamster I called Frodo.I think my mum accidentally fried him and his siblings out in the hot sun coz she thought she wanted to dry them :/.Of course,I was in school at the time.

After that,Kak Yah kept this cat she called Lubis (no idea what it really means).An orange cat.Looks a bit like Kecik but she was round.Hahaha!That cat gave birth to 2 kittens.One named Ben and the other named Spot (I named her after Lt. Comm. Data's cat).Spot and I used to be close friends.Until she got spayed and decided to get all tensed up.She wasn't too fun anymore after that.Both,Ben and Spot died.

Then,Fei Mao came along.She was very little.Eventually,she was old enough to get pregnant and got 3 kittens-Bubu aka The Paranoid One,Mew and Leo.Leo was taken by someone.He just went missing.Fei Mao still lives with us.She and her 2 kids still do.Kecik was an addition coz Shu and I got bored and wanted a cat of our own.We were supposed to have Ophelia (a siamese mixed breed cat which was given to me by Aaina's sister's friend).She ran off.Shu and I got so mad that we resorted to driving around TTDI hunting for a cat that can be kidnapped (catnapped).

Eventually,we gave up and headed for PAWS.It was closed when we got there so we went to SPCA and found Kecik.He was clinging onto the cage crying out "PICK ME!PICK ME!" so we took him home with us.He's alright.......minus the part where he is always eye-ing on Bedah (the Winter Dwarf hamster) after everything that happened some days ago which almost got Bedah killed!

Shu and I sometimes get really upset with Kecik coz he likes to go missing and pretend not to know us when we call him so we'd spend our time designing and creating and redecorating Bedah's new home.I was helping her peel off the Sunflower Seeds for her to eat ^_^