Feeling like I'm 16 again

Before RadioEdit, I was doing other random things......

Such as a backup vocalist for the band MODAR

Mood of the hour

Late check-in

Better late than never........

Quarantine has been strange. I know that I had always been the one with zero social life and even though my sister thinks I'm gonna come out of this just as myself, I still get a little crazy from time to time.

Just before the quarantine went official,Shu went on this shopping spree over on Zalora and got me a whole lot of clothes......a whole lot......of clothes........

I was doing some scrapbooking which was ok I guess.......managed to learn origami........learned to bake a cake.......Oh,I picked up on working out. I was working out every single day for about a week or two.....then,I worked out with a regular schedule........It gets really addictive.........I lost some weight coz I was doing the eat less,workout more thing. I still do........it's very typical of me to not feed myself well.........

Anywho, I had a hard time keeping up with the kids' school work schedule. Yusuf has classes everyday. He has an actual schedule like for homeschooling on Google Classroom. The other two babies have classes (more like Zoom Meetings) twice a week. I felt like a Personal Assistant for a while coz I had to make sure Safiyya and Ali Imran joined the meetings in time. I sometimes fail because I forget that some classes begin earlier and later.........

Our house immediately turned into a home office. There is an actual work printer with A4 papers on standby and my gaming laptop becomes the work computer. It's so weird. It's such a mess which I am not used to.

On a more positive note,I have learned to propagate my plants and somehow I think I might have managed to save my birthday Monstera plant from dying of rotten roots. This also means that I made a mess out on the balcony. At least my plants are alive and taken care of.

The beginning of this year was hectic. I was learning to be an adult parent and I was slowly re-learning how to socialize with other human beings.It's strange because I really thought I had to put in a lot of effort. Turns out,I'm quite the Capybara of the urban area ;) Some of the teachers did ask who I was coz Shu had always been the contact parent for the kids and I was non-existent.

I started driving again. Yes, I did. It's natural and scary. People scare me. Especially those behind the wheels. So,my routine would be waking up super early to make sure Yusuf gets to school on time. At the same time,I had to make sure Ali Imran was up and ready. Safiyya puts up a fight with me every single morning so she usually goes to school later.

The nice thing about this routine is that I usually get to have breakfast with Shu. Just the two of us. It's like a short date that occurs every morning. And we both actually have breakfast which is nice.
After that,we'd just go around with one car and I'd pack my brain dumping notebook and my laptop and I'd crash at his office until it's time to get the babies from school and have lunch.

When I get home,usually I'd make sure the kids get their afternoon naps (especially Safiyya coz she'd get cranky) Yusuf only comes home at 4pm. My evening routine would be to make sure Yusuf's school bag is packed for the next day. Ready everyone's school uniforms. Do the necessary laundry or whatever. Oh yeah,make sure their pencils are all sharpened and all their school supplies are there.

I am pretty sure Safiyya is not going to want to go back to school after all this. Shu and I are planning to take her out anyways. Yusuf and Ali Imran miss their school and friends. They miss going swimming and going to toy stores. Shu is enjoying his work life at home. I just want everyone to be safe.

This song had always been the Silverchair song I keep going back to

Safiyya and I used to listen and danced to this everyday

Then,there was also this.......

And this......

Tonight's concert is one that Shu and I can sing to

Every.... Damn..... Word.....

This seems to be my song of the day today

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You know I adore you
I'm crazier for you
Then I was at sixteen
Lost in a film scene
Waving homecoming queens
Marching band playing
I'm lost in the lights

American glory
Faded before me
Now I'm feeling hopeless
Ripped up my prom dress
Running through rose thorns
I saw the scoreboard
And ran for my life

Ah, ah, ah
No cameras catch my pageant smile
I counted days, I counted miles
To see you there
To see you there
It's been a long time coming but

It's you and me
That's my whole world
They whisper in the hallway, "she's a bad, bad girl" (okay!)
The whole school is rolling fake dice
You play stupid games, you win stupid prizes
It's you and me
There's nothing like this
Miss Americana and The Heartbreak Prince (okay!)
We're so sad, we paint the town blue
Voted most likely to run away
With you

My team is losing
Battered and bruising
I see the high fives
Between the bad guys
Leave with my head hung
You are the only one
Who seems to care

American stories
Burning before me
I'm feeling helpless
The damsels are depressed
Boys will be boys, then
Where are the wise men?
Darling, I'm scared

Ah, ah, ah
No cameras catch my muffled cries
I counted days, I counted miles
To see you there
To see you there
And now the storm is coming, but

It's you and me
That's my whole world
They whisper in the hallway, "she's a bad, bad girl" (okay!)
The whole school is rolling fake dice
You play stupid games, you win stupid prizes
It's you and me
There's nothing like this
Miss Americana and The Heartbreak Prince (okay!)
We're so sad, we paint the town blue
Voted most likely to run away
With you

And I don't want you to (go)
I don't really wanna (fight)
'Cause nobody's gonna (win)
I think you should come home

And I don't want you to (go)
I don't really wanna (fight)
'Cause nobody's gonna (win)
I think you should come home

And I don't want you to (go)
I don't really wanna (fight)
'Cause nobody's gonna (win)
I just thought you should know

And I'll never let you (go)
'Cause I know this is a (fight)
That someday we're gonna (win)

It's you and me
That's my whole world
They whisper in the hallway, "she's a bad, bad girl"
Oh, I just thought you should know
You should know

It's you and me
There's nothing like this
Miss Americana and The Heartbreak Prince (okay!)
We're so sad, we paint the town blue (paint it blue)
Voted most likely to run away
With you

I don't really wanna (fight)
'Cause nobody's gonna (win)
I think you should come home

And I'll never let you (go)
'Cause I know this is a (fight)
That someday we're gonna (win)
Just thought you should know

You and me
That's my whole world
They whisper in the hallway, "she's a bad, bad girl"
"She's a bad, bad girl"

Apocalyptica did a live performance for us 🤟🏼

Heilung Norupo

Fé vældr frænda róge
Føðesk ulfr í skóge
Úr er af illu jarne
Opt løypr ræinn á hjarne
Þurs vældr kvinna kvillu
Kátr værðr fár af illu
Óss er flæstra færða
Fǫr; en skalpr er sværða
Ræið kveða rossom væsta
Reginn sló sværðet bæzta
Kaun er barna bǫlvan
Bǫl gørver nán fǫlvan
Hagall er kaldastr korna
Kristr skóp hæimenn forna
Nauðr gerer næppa koste
Nøktan kælr í froste

Ís kǫllum brú bræiða
Blindan þarf at læiða
Ár er gumna góðe
Get ek at ǫrr var
Fróðe Sól er landa ljóme
Lúti ek helgum dóme
Týr er æinendr ása
Opt værðr smiðr blása

Bjarkan er laufgrønstr líma
Loki bar flærða tíma
Maðr er moldar auki
Mikil er græip á hauki
Lǫgr er, fællr ór fjalle
Foss; en gull ero nosser
Ýr er vetrgrønstr viða
Vænt er, er brennr, at sviða

Hello old friend

I neglected you long enough. I forgot just how much joy you bring me just by looking at you and touching you. I will have you repaired and I will have you played again. I am determined to get you ready by this year.

Nevermind that I don't have an amplifier or a distortion pedal 😒

I ❤️ this song:Mongol by Omnia

Ϻиний хайртай морь
Хамтдаа хамтдаа бид ниснэ
Ϻиний морь
Тад дундуур давхина

Салхи татуулан хурдалсаар
Хамтдаа хамтдаа хамтдаа бид
ниснэ

Ϻиний хайртай хайртай морь

mood today

And she's going on a journey Always walking down the road

With a tiny rope and a bag of stone
And all heartbroken wishing bone
She's going in, she's going home
Oh this little golden knight, fighting every day
Behind the light, behind the light

Walking faster down the street
Red eyes and no shoes on her feet
Going on this journey, determined to complete
This is farewell, this is goodnight
The last time she will see the daylight
See the daylight

And she's going on a journey
Always walking down the road
And the water is always calling
"My little child, please come home"

That's when she went away
Away from the light of day
Standing by the riverside
Patiently waiting for the tide
To come along, to come along
The waters going through her feet
And on her body wind so cold and sweet
So cold and sweet

And she's going on a journey
Always walking down the road
And the water is always calling
"My little child, please come home"
And the stars were brightly shining
When she reached out they were gone
And the water started calling
"My little child, please come home"

Feel the water in her body, water's never going out

Feel the water in her body, water's never going out

Feel the water in her body, water's never going out

Feel the water in her body, water's never going out

Feel the water in her body, water's never going out

Feel the water in her body, water's never going out

Feel the water in her body, water's never going out

Feel the water in her body, water's never going out
And she's going on a journey
Always walking down the road
And the water is always calling
"My little child, please come home"
And the stars were brightly shining
When she reached out they were gone
And the water started calling
"My little child, please come home"
When a shiny light hit her eye
And she turned around and climbed
Towards the sky
Towards the sky...

I'm a child with an animal soul I don't belong here I don't belong anywhere

I can remember everything used to be warm
Lying inside the bodies of our mothers
I can remember light coming through her skin
And the first time I took my breath as she wrapped me in

Funny how we're free to walk around
Still our feet are forced to walk the ground
Even when we die we're deeper down
Down, down, down

As I am stumbling past every word, every answer
Moving around my mind like a beautiful dancer
I am here to tell what makes me hollow
In a world of hate we are forced to swallow

The animal in me

Although isolation had always been my way of life and that my sister thinks I am most likely to come out of this quarantine like myself, it gets a bit repetitive for me.

I try doing different things everyday like scrapbooking and playing the guitar and singing. Some things are still the same. 

I have started working out everyday which is nice but for some reason, my appetite has dropped.I can't say if it is caused by working out or that I am having a mild anxiety attack.

I still love it when it rains. 

My mind has been drifting back and forth in between daydreaming and being fully awake. I keep finding myself in thoughts from just a glimpse of memory I had from a time in my life. It's very strange. 

I have tried writing a lot. Lyrics. Poetry. Thoughts. Anything. I have also attempted to write new songs. Shu thinks I should record my old songs from when I was 16.

I need to rearrange a lot of words.

I am missing avocado toasts from Wolf and Turtle 😭

AURORA did a thing for us! ❤️

This song is stuck in my head now

Today's vibe :Deep Purple

Specifically, Burn!!!

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