Accident!

I am.........pregnant. We were shocked when we found out. I checked a few weeks earlier and it was negative. The week after the Legoland trip,I started throwing up. Whaaa.....like craaaaay.......

I can't even wrap my head around it. I was on some pretty crazy rides over at the theme park. I even did laps over at the hotel swimming pool.

Yusuf is cool about it. He totally gets it. Ali Imran is either too young to understand or,he really doesn't want a younger sibling. He wants me beside him AT ALL TIMES and he wants to be in my face AT ALL TIMES.

We are working on a new routine. It kinda sucks coz I still am nauseous as hell :-/

In a few hours time.....

I'll be heading off to the hospital. Getting a CTG scan to determine if I should be induced.......or not. I'm terrified. I got a different gynea since we moved and it's a different hospital with better facilities. I am praying that everything will go well. I am worried about Yusuf eventhough my mum and my brothers are here for us. I don't want to tire Shu out. It's been a long week as it is.

40 days to go

My dad thinks that I'm suffering a lot coz I am underweight and not gaining enough mass to support my tummy. I am beginning to think the same. My worry now is if I cannot handle the pressure during labor. I just want the baby to be safe no matter what happens. Also, I have a new gynea so I am not sure what to expect. I keep praying and hoping that everything will be alright looking at how close by the hospital is this time around.

32 weeks/56 days to go

This pregnancy has been quite challenging although I haven't been throwing up. I've only been admitted to the hospital once so far. Hopefully it stays that way. I've been trying to get my weight back on track coz a few weeks back I've been losing a lot of weight. Maybe it's just stress. I am already a lot lighter than when I was carrying Yusuf. I sometimes find it funny whenever I look at myself in the mirror and I'm all scrawny with a huge tummy. I just need to get my diet straightened out.

DSH

Just before boarding the plane yesterday I called my gynea asking about my water leakage. It happened first on Saturday but I was advised by a local gynea to rest. It was all good until I got to the airport yesterday.  I don't know what triggered it but my gynea was shocked to learn that I was about to board a plane. Shu didn't want to risk anything so we rushed to the hospital from the airport, with all our luggage. Then my gynea told us to get myself admitted to a hospital that has the facilities that can help with a premature birth IN CASE it happens. So here I am at a hospital nearest to my current home and my family.

65 days to go

Here in good ol Terengganu for my sister-in-law's wedding. Most likely will be my last trip away from home before I pop.

+-72 days to go

I need to work on my pregnancy and my relationship with my baby. I haven't been paying much attention to him coz I've been so busy looking after Yusuf. I'm also a bit underweight so maybe that contributes to my body aches and pains. Also including the fact that we moved and that life in the city isn't my thing may also make or have made this pregnancy difficult for me.

44 days countdown

Went to see the Gynea yesterday morning. I felt like I was gonna collapse coz I was rushing for the appointment that I didn't bother eating first. So my blood pressure was a bit low. I've put on another 600g. So overall I have actually put on about 6kg. I think the baby weighs about 1.9kg now. He may sound small but he is definitely filling up space in my tummy. I asked my Gynea about the symptoms and pain I have been going through and she said its normal. I am actually considered to be on the luckier side compared to other pregnant women. My hemoglobin count was less so I was instructed to change my supplements just until I give birth. I am after all a bit on the anemic side.

I still have problems eating red meat and eggs but so far chicken is alright. I have been desperately trying to change my sleeping routine back to the way it was because in the last couple of weeks, I have been sleeping at about 3am and waking up for Subuh prayers and then falling back asleep till just before Zuhr prayers. I am eating much less portions of food but much more frequently throughout the day.I can't sleep on the bed anymore so I have been pretty much on the couch most of the days and nights.

I think if my bodyaches don't go away after giving birth, I may need to schedule an appointment with a chiropractor :-/

53 days and counting

My tummy isn't that huge according to most people but I feel like I am gonna pop real soon. I've heard stories from friends and family about how they did not see the baby coming and the next thing they know, they were rushing to the hospital. I kinda like to not panic or freak out coz I know myself better than anyone and when I do freak out, things could get messy.

My butt hurts. Maybe its coz my pelvic is expanding and so my bones are moving, making way for the coming baby. I am estimating the baby would weigh about 2.5-3kg. I read that the bigger they are, the more pain. Well, labor is pain. It is said to be the most painful of all pain one could ever imagine. I try not to think about it.

I have been trying to keep myself occupied with small chores around the house like cleaning the dishes and doing laundry and ironing clothes. On better days, I would vacuum the floor. I have problems sleeping at night in the last couple of weeks.I can't sleep on the bed anymore so I have been pretty much falling asleep on the couch. My legs hurt when I sleep on beds. No idea why.

I've been watching a lot of animal documentaries lately. They keep me happy. I have been missing my cats. Georg, especially. He's always doing something funny. Pebbles does a lot of strange things. Speaking of cats, we saw 2 kittens downstairs under the abandoned car near the dump area of our house. They look really cute and they must be cold and hungry. Maybe I should bring some food down the next time I ever go down. God knows when that would be.

Anywho, I am still obsessed with laundry and it frustrates me when my clothes does not dry when I want them to :-/

I need to get the baby clothes washed and packed by next week. I should get my overnight bag ready just as much. I have a check up next week and it MIGHT be my last. I am just bracing myself and hoping for the best.

update ^_^

• I have loads of mosquito and insect bites on my arms and legs that I am beginning to look like a leopard.
• I am back to my insomniac self. Actually, I can't sleep due to my inability to breathe properly when I sleep in certain positions. The cramps I get from my legs also wake me from my sleep from time to time which suck.
• I got myself another massage slot today. It's only my second time. I was desperate. The pain from my hips are killing me and it's been creeping up all the way to my neck.
• I met my sister-in-law who is one month (pregnant) ahead of me and her gynea tells her she may have to be induced within the next few weeks. I have about 68 days to go and I am nervous as hell.
• I am about 7 months +- pregnant now and I put on about 6kg. I read that I am supposed to be putting on at least 10kg by the end of my pregnancy but since the gynea says that my baby is fine and is growing according to schedule, I am guessing that things are OK.
• Managed to do a bit more shopping for the baby. I hope we have everything. Someone once told Shu that we have 9 months to prepare ourselves mentally and physically for the arrival of the baby. Once the baby is born, there is no excuse for not being able to adjust ourselves. He has a point.

for dear life

I am aware that mortality is something we can never fight or predict and should the world end before we'd ever get to meet, I just want to tell you that we had been waiting for you for so long that it feels like forever.
I am willing to go through the pain just to know that you are alright and that I would do anything for you.
We love you with all our hearts even though our brief meetings had only been in dreams.

Baby name

Although we have already thought of the baby name(s) long before I got pregnant, last weekend, Shu's family finally found out what our baby's name is ^_^ and everyone loves it.

the big P

Shu and I have been trying to get me pregnant. No luck so far. I want a baby boy named Yusuf.
Shu wants a baby girl...........or boy........Either ways..........we have names already....
I tested negative again.
Will keep trying.