I gave a talk at my kids' school the other day

 I wasn't super prepared. I think it's coz I've never given talks or lectures to kids. I used to lecture diploma students and working people. This was definitely a whole different level of talk. At first, I was under the impression that I was gonna be speaking to kids between the ages of 13 to 17 years old. And then, I discovered that I was gonna be talking to kids between the ages of 7 to 12 years old. So.....I had to change my game.....quick.

You bet, Pokemon, hobbies, Roblox and Minecraft were all included into the talk. Fishing and football and rugby and archery and horseback riding too. Their attention level is different. I knew I had to interact with them more instead of just giving out points. So yeah.......I made a lot of new friends by the time my talk ended. Being friends with kids is kinda typical of me coz I can't relate to adults much and I am always babysitting anyways.

My daughters friends consider me their friend and we're always creating stickers and designing and writing silly songs together. Now, I have friends who talks about fishing and football and rugby. It was fun to have them reminded of staying safe online and irl. I really like the fact that these kids are doing things outside of their homes. 

I also met Yusuf's friends. They came up to me to chat. It was really nice to finally meet them in person instead of just hearing stories about them from Yusuf. I hope we become friends coz I am aware of how small the community is and I always think it's everyone's responsibility to look out for the kids in the kampung regardless if it's our kampung or the neighbouring ones. 

my brain is flooded and my thoughts are crowded

 I need to get a lot of things out of my system but I don't know how. I don't know why things happen and turned out the way it did and all I can think of are the adults who are at fault on so many levels. Why? 

The main theme that's been going on throughout this past few months are youths who are neglected by the adults who should be protecting them but failed. Now, the kids will suffer.  If you don't give a shit about your kids, you shouldn't have them. Period. 

I was dealing with teens on bikes without helmets and getting into collisions. FUCK. I am still suffering from the traumatic account,having to witness such stupidity that occured with seconds. FUCK.

And then, recently......the whole shit showdown with the school.....my kids are in the damn school. It's supposed to be a good school. Fuck all of your reputation and standards. Kids are injured and kids are being neglected because the fucking adults could not make proper decisions in trying to get the fucking situation under control. I blame the adults. ALL OF THEM.

The right call could have been made. What if someone died? What if the injuries are incurable? What kind of moron would try to fucking sweep shit like this under the rug? The adults are at fault. They always are. These are underage kids we're talking about. Yes, they should know right from wrong but someone HAS TO TEACH THEM. They aren't robots you can just update with new programs.

You wanna talk about corruption? This is fucking IT! They should all burn down and fucking go to hell. The kids are suffering because of these fucking adults.