January

So we were in Legoland for a bit just coz we wanted to let Yusuf have some fun after turning 2

City Life

Not enjoying it but its close to mum's.  Looking forward to moving back once I give birth.

BFF

chugga chugga choo choo!!!!

I admit to being addicted to Chuggington now. It's hard to go about the day without wondering what other Chuggington goodies I am missing out on.

*sigh*

Eversince Yusuf came into our lives, I admit that he was ticket back to being able to shop at toy stores every other time we go to the malls. However, I came across some REALLY REALLY REALLY cool thingys when I last visited Toys'R'Us -_-

Yeah, they have Adventure Time toys now..........I was super psyched!

And of course, everytime we come across the Chuggington aisle........EVERYTIME.........I'm usually the one stuck holding on to a few chuggers.........I could have an entire room dedicated to them chuggers.....

Yessss..........that is what I will do........

MUAHAHAHAHAHAAAA!!!!!!!!!

We're trainees We're making tracks

Wheels to the rails!

Clackety clack!

Running on time, passengers to take,

Hauling loads, pick-ups to make........

Riding the rails!
A traintastic crew!   

 >_<

sometimes........

all you need is one person to believe in you and everything else will be alright :)

dating

When we were 16, all we ever talk about whenever we go out was school and exams and every other silly things in between.
Then, when we were in universities, we'd just meet up and talk about classes and friends and our lecturers and every other silly things in between.
When we started working, we'd talk about our work, our colleagues,our bosses and every other silly things in between.
When we got married, we'd talk about future plans, buying properties and vehicles and planning for kids.
Now, after having Yusuf, we talk about raising him the right way and setting a proper environment for him to grow up in and worrying about the world around him. We still talk about our school days, our university lives and sometimes our work and funny enough, every other silly things in between.

waiting..........

Took Yusuf to the KL Bird Park again yesterday. This time, he is strong enough to walk around so he was going around chasing birds and stuff. It was fun right up until the part when Shu was holding on to him and feeding a cute little colorful bird. Yusuf kept wanting to touch the bird coz it was moving and when he touched the bird's head a few times, I think the bird thought he was giving it food so it pecked Yusuf's finger. He cried. He cried a lot of tears. That was definitely NOT the memory I want him to have of the bird park :-/

life!

Woah.....it's been forever since I was able to sit down and just blog.Well, I'm not exactly doing that right now since I kinda am at work and just sitting around. Yes, I have recently started working again. Not at the same place I used to work at. Not even doing anything close to what I was doing back then. In fact, I am doing something I never thought I'd be doing ^_^ Considering my qualifications and certifications, I am working with numbers this time around. Cheque books and bills and excel sheets. Haha!

I am not doing this full time. Not yet. I don't think I can do anything full time other than taking care of Yusuf. He is my full time job. I just love being near Shu and Yusuf both at once. So, here I am ^_^

october

My sister will be back in about 6 weeks time for her wedding. I am psyched! I miss her. My mum will be heading down under with my aunt tomorrow for my sister's graduation. I hope everything goes on well.

In the meantime, I have been planning a lot of things to do when she gets back. Typical!

I need to be at a beach.Badly :-/ I love the rain and all here but it's not like being at a beach and diving into the ocean water.........and getting tanned and burnt at the same time. Yusuf hasn't even step foot on a beach! It's been way too long!

I haven't been sim-ing which is weird. Been wanting to do it for sometime but my daily routine has changed so drastically over a period of a couple of months.It's crazy. I'd go to sleep on my bed and wake up on Yusuf's bed the next morning. Half the time, I cannot recall what's happened the night before. It tends to get scary :-/

ときどき

I sometimes feel like this......

And then.......

All of a sudden......

And........

天国

It's been months since I became a fulltime stay-at-home mom and I am telling you, it's pretty tough. I am just lucky that I don't have to worry about house chores like washing the clothes or mopping the floor. Still, it's pretty tough coz I have know where Yusuf is and what he's doing and when he is awake, I'd be sure to not pay attention to anything other than him.

He's turning 9 months soon and I am still having sleepless nights. I am just thankful that I am able to be with him around the clock coz I know that many moms have to work and they'd worry about their children being at the daycare centers or if they'd have to leave their kids at home with their maids. You just can't trust people these days. I don't trust people. It's our kids, not theirs. There is no guarantee that they'd be watching what your kid does.

A number of kids have died from careless mistakes made by the people who take care of them. Yes, they also include parents. Maybe I am just being paranoid but either ways, I don't think it's something you could just take lightly. I mean HELLO? Kids are people.........

Anywho, my routines have changed over the last few months or so only because Yusuf has grown and developed a lot of new personalities. He's very eager to stand up and Shu and I are trying our best to create an environment for him to be able to practice standing up. Soon, I'm gonna have to take him to the playground >_< I can't wait! He's been wanting to interact with other babies these days.

There's one baby girl living on the ground floor at our condo and he seems to like that girl. Always waving at her and calling out to her whenever we take him for walks downstairs. He needs friends and definitely a sibling or two :D

trying out stuff on the camera

It's a regular digital camera. I am not that enthusiastic about photography :p

fighting dragons and having fun while it lasts

I said that.......
Once.........some time ago.......
I forgot that I did........
Maybe its coz I am fighting a different type of dragon these days.........
Still........
I am having fun........

^_^

精神层面

It's been a long while since I managed to sit down and just write. It's been a very VERY busy several months. It was Ramadhan and then Syawal and the travelling. The funny thing is, Yusuf seems to not mind.

We spent 6 days in Terengganu. It was fun. Hari Raya there is always fun. It does get tiring at some point but I guess we don't feel it much coz that would be the only "balik kampung" journey for us. We got home and chilled for a bit. Met up with my family and all. And then, we decided to go see my grandma at my dad's hometown coz one of my aunts haven't met Yusuf. It was all good fun but you can see that everyone is getting older and although we do pretty much the same thing we do every time we head down south, it's different this time around. We are no longer the "kids".

Anywho, our trips down south would always mean we would make a stop at the Johor Premium Outlets before heading back. Managed to get Yusuf some clothes. After that, we headed over to Malacca. The initial plan was to stop by for some Assam Pedas Daging Tetel . But of course, since Shu was on a long leave, we decided to go into Malacca town instead and looked for a real restaurant to have this signature dish.

It was my first time eating assam pedas and it was seriously pedas. I am not into spicy food but Shu is the exact opposite. He chews chillies. The food was great but the time we spent looking for restaurant was not as expected because Shu asked someone he knows for directions. The dude said "It's not that far. It's just around the corner" which was actually about 1 kilometer of walking distance from where we parked. It was dark sooner than we thought and before we realized it, Yusuf needed to be fed and bathed. Shu's back up plan was to spend the night in Malacca town.

The funny thing about the plan was that only Yusuf and I had extra clothes. Shu and Mar needed to get new ones. Luckily, there was a thrift store just across the street from our hotel so we did a little last minute shopping just to survive that night and the day after. It was fun. We visited a museum. Did some sightseeing. Snapped some photos. It was fun.

Shu eventually extended his leave which was great timing because the following week, Yusuf turned 7 months old and Shu turned 28 years of age. We had some nice dinner on Shu's birthday. Oh yeah, that very same week was the time we visited Aquaria just because I wanted to see the sharks. Yusuf seemed to like the tiny, fast swimming fishes. It was a good week.

Yusuf's energy level has increased tremendously that I am having a hard time keeping up with him. He's practicing to sit and he can move around really, REALLY quickly. We actually got him an inflatable pool just so that he can sit around in the lounge area knowing that he won't injure himself when we have things to do in the kitchen. His crib can no longer contain him. His legs would come popping out from the sides every now and then.

All and all, I am glad that he is not a passive baby. I am an active person. Growing up, I had always been an active person. Shu is also an active person. Someday, we hope that we can start playing badminton or tennis or squash with Yusuf...........or go running!!!!! I still have my skateboard. My dad gave us his old fishing rod. We should all probably get scuba lessons someday..............the list goes on and on.

P.S. The Aquaria trip this time actually helped me figure out how to counter my fear of fish ^_^

君だけを

For a while, my routine was sim-ing and then,it was ps3 gaming and then, it was anime watching........and drawing and writing in between but then.......it has now some to just browsing and liking fb statuses since I no longer have the luxury of doing anything else only because I make it so. I don't want to not spend my every waking hour without Yusuf when he is awake.

He'll be 6 months old on the 21st and he is getting to be quite the drama king. He has preferences. He knows who he wants to hang out with. He knows what he wants to do and what he wants to see. We can't leave him alone on the bed AT ALL coz he'd get from one end to the other in a matter of seconds. Yes, he has a crib but he still sleeps with us on the bed. He's been sleeping with us on the bed since forever. I made him that way. At some point I am beginning to doubt if the queen size is gonna hold the 3 of us at all.

I spend my days rolling with him on the bed. Sometimes, I'd take him out for walks around the neighborhood. Sometimes, I'd carry him around the house. I've tried getting him acquainted with felines but he's not there yet. He's fascinated by lights and sounds. We've already started feeding him since he's always drooling watching us eat at the dining table. The only problem is he prefers his biscuits over his rice porridge.

I've been having his leftover food for breakfast several times this week alone coz he refuses to eat. There are times when he'd finish up 2 biscuits at a time. Other times, he'd fight and struggle trying to not eat or drink. I don't force him. The only thing I have been worrying about him since he first came into this world is his temper. He gets it from both me as well as Shu. I hope he won't embrace that as much as he gets older.

July

Ramadhan is so far so good. Tarawikh prayers would always depend on Yusuf and how he is coz he doesn't have a pattern. He's sometimes asleep and he sometimes need me around. His right eye got bitten by an unknown insect this morning. Just under his outer brow is red and swollen a little. The doctor said its definitely an insect bite but its external. I hope it heals quickly.

Yusuf has recently began eating and its funny how he prefers the rusks over the rice porridge. We have to feed him immediately or he will refuse to eat. There was this one time when my mum fed him and he got angry coz my mum didn't give him enough. The food he refuses to eat from time to time are usually eaten by myself :p

We recently went back to Terengganu. It was an awesome 4 days.Finally, Yusuf was awake and we took him on the beca. It. Was. AWESOME. Hahahaha!!!!

We need to move away from the city ^_^

prayers

This year has been a very trying year. First the heat, and then the haze (which isn't seem to be getting any better).

But of all the things that has been going on, there are 2 babies who desperately needs our help (prayers).

One baby (whose name is not allowed to be mentioned) was recently diagnosed with cancer. He's only 8 months old (if I am not mistaken) I was crushed when I heard the news. I've been crying a lot when ever I think of him. I've never met him though but the thought that he has to go for chemotherapy at a very VERY young age always gets to me. I hope he isn't in any pain. He's just a baby.

The other baby is a 2 year-old girl who was adopted but her paperworks were never done properly. At the age of 2,she still does not have a birth certificate. To make it worse, it turns out that she had a bit of an accident with hot water some time ago and I discovered that her foster parents did not take her to the hospital because she doesn't have a proper record here in Malaysia. I hope she's ok. I hope she'd find better people who are more responsible to care for her.

On the brighter side of things, my sister came home last week and she brought her recently converted friend with her. He's a nice guy and is good with kids. He seems to get along well with Yusuf. He's finally spoken to my mum about marrying my sister. I hope things will go well for the both of them.

In fact, I pray and hope that things will go well for everyone.

I'm also praying for it to rain. I hope it would rain for a few days to help with the haze. My house has been all closed up because I don't want Yusuf to inhale any of it since he was born with frail lungs. Although he's strong now, I don't want him to get sick because of this.

sunlight

We took Yusuf to his follow up (check up) at HKL yesterday.The appointment was set at 2pm but we got there earlier coz we weren't sure where the building was and what we had to do.Shu dropped us off at the pediatric building and parked the car elsewhere coz the place was PACKED. He parked all the way at IJN :p

I got Yusuf registered and weighed and measured and then we waited for our turn. There were so many people but there were a lot of doctors on duty and plenty of room for everyone. It turns out that the doctor who checked Yusuf was the doctor who came to see him the morning after he arrived at HKL.She was aware of Yusuf's condition and she thought Yusuf seemed very healthy. Alhamdulillah.

However, we asked her about what Yusuf's pediatrician said to us last week about Yusuf's head growth. There a growth chart used by the hospital in Bangi and HKL have their own chart. So after doing a bit of measurement and comparison, we decided to get Yusuf's head scanned anyways just to be safe. We were referred to the radiology department to get an ultrasound scan done on Yusuf's soft head.

Alhamdulillah, everything seemed alright eventhough Yusuf was crying so loud and hard through it all coz he was sleepy and in shocked when we placed him onto the hospital bed. After the scan, we headed back to the clinic area to get the printed photos sorted out and explained.

While waiting, I was distracted by the babies and toddlers around me. There were 2 sets of twins and a very tiny 4 month old baby. Yusuf seemed rather big compared to the 4 month old baby beside me.The doctor said its coz he is fully breastfed so he is healthy and strong. Then again, Shu said the baby I was looking at looked small but he/she weighed just 1kg less than Yusuf's current weight :p

After 2 hours, we finally were able to leave. I just so thankful to know that Yusuf is alright :)

never growing up?

Oh Hello Avril! Never thought I'd see you again the way I first did back when I was 16 ^_^