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Hard Rock Hotel Penang

 

Shu was in his zone

Shu rented this guitar for me. It's Alex Kapranos's touring guitar. I was Dying. I was so psyched! Omgomgomg!!!!! 

Africa Cover

 

Where I'm at

 A lot of people have a lot opinions or perception towards me. A lot of people also don't understand how my mind works. What you see in pictures are just as is. What I write about are just is. I have my interpretation about other people too. I think it's normal. 

The one thing that I seem to never learn is that I am naive when it comes to human interactions especially online. I always think everyone I come in contact with has good intentions and that they truly want to be friends with me. That's not the case. I still can't seem to tell if people are just using me or just lying to me.

It's true when people say that animals have instincts and they act or react based on just that but people have different intentions and they sometimes manipulate situations. Shu always tells me that I need to watch out before I get hurt. How?

If I say something nice to someone is only coz I mean it and they should take it just as it is. There is no need for underlying meanings. Well, at least that is how I usually take things anyways. I don't know how to dig deep about other people coz I just don't know how to and most of the time, I'd like to think it's more of a personal space thing.

As it turns out, there are really bad,sick people out there. Shu is looking out for me as he always does. I really hope that my kids won't get online with these crazy mofos.

To kiss in cars in downtown bars was all we needed

 You drew stars around my scars and now I'm bleeding

The Secret Garden AURORA

Where have you been hiding?
You seem lost within your body and your mind
A beam of light can still remind you who you are
Wounded by the world
Your fragile nature needed shelter
In the night we made a sanctum
Out of mind and out of sight

Won't you let me take you there?
Won't you let me take you there?

Let me take you into the garden, into the garden
I'll be there, painting the flowers, give them color
I'll be there

Listen to the anthem
Hear the flowers like their hymn has healing power
Take my hand and breathe in, the colorful

Won't you let me take you there?
Won't you let me take you there?

Let me take you into the garden, into the garden
I'll be there, painting the flowers, give them color
I'll be there

Let me take you into the garden, into the garden
I'll be there, painting the flowers, give them color
I'll be there

Try to heal the heart of mind
In the garden we find
Try to heal the heart of mind
In the garden we find
Inside, inside

 

We were in Legoland just before the Merdeka weekend

We decided to get a pirate themed room this time around.

Lego Mario had just launched so this was their display outside. Lego Mario is AWESOME!

Safiyya is still crazy about Lego Friends

Because of the pandemic, the hotel's SOP is to serve us instead of us walking around the buffet area to get food. The good thing is we don't have to budge from our seats. They just don't have as many selections as they would if it was like the old times but the upside is that they have way less waste which always good in my book.

Yusuf loves Legoland to bits eversince he was a baby.

We were at Sea Life coz I love that place to bits! Also, we finally got ourselves the triple park annual passes so this makes things a whole lot easier for our next visit.

 

Come Together Justin Johnson style

 

Bitch Lasagna!

 I am just about to have had it with Dewan Bahasa! Bitch! I'm talking to you!

WTF is EKSESAIS?! WTF IS THAT?! Just WHAT?! Also, WTF is PREBIU?! Have we ran out of words? Or have people just started accepting stupidity?!

Bitch, I got sick during SPM trying not to fail my damn BM paper! It was a second language to me and it was hard! I studied HARD for the damn thing! I twisted my tongue trying to speak Bahasa Melayu Baku! Imagine, I can hardly get my vocabulary together and I had to do that doing a speaking test?!

DON'T COME AT ME WITH YEET! That ain't a word in my dictionary! 

We can't get shit straight anymore,can we?

This is UNACCEPTABLE!

Finally, they have a video out!

 

The Lakes

 

Is it romantic how all my elegies eulogize me?
I'm not cut out for all these cynical clones
These hunters with cell phones

Take me to the lakes, where all the poets went to die
I don't belong and, my beloved, neither do you
Those Windermere peaks look like a perfect place to cry
I'm setting off, but not without my muse

What should be over burrowed under my skin
In heart-stopping waves of hurt
I've come too far to watch some name-dropping sleaze
Tell me what are my Wordsworth

Take me to the lakes, where all the poets went to die
I don't belong and, my beloved, neither do you
Those Windermere peaks look like a perfect place to cry
I'm setting off, but not without my muse

I want auroras and sad prose
I want to watch wisteria grow right over my bare feet
'Cause I haven't moved in years
And I want you right here
A red rose grew up out of ice frozen ground
With no one around to tweet it
While I bathe in cliff-side pools
With my calamitous love and insurmountable grief

Take me to the lakes, where all the poets went to die
I don't belong and, my beloved, neither do you
Those Windermere peaks look like a perfect place to cry
I'm setting off, but not without my muse
No, not without you

Today is Shu's birthday

 I decided to bake him a cake. I've never baked a cake before. All I have are lessons from all the YouTube videos I've ever watched.

Buttercream frosting 👆🏼

Happy Birthday, Love! ❤️

This entire musical and the movie gives me so much love

 

I still get goosebumps when I watch this or even when I'm listening to the song 

This gives me butterflies in my tummy........ The good kind......... 

It's been a long while since we actually went to Cyberjaya

 Took the kids to the park. I can't think of anything to do that doesn't involve going around crowded places. Travelling is a definite NO coz of the public and school holidays. That's not how we roll. We'd usually wait till everyone is at work and in school and then we'd go on a holiday. Besides, Yusuf has been sick. Ali Imran is coming down with something too. Shu's dad said that maybe it's something that Yusuf picked up in school coz his classmates seem to be sick too. He doesn't have a fever or anything. Yusuf was born with extra sensitive lungs so we are a bit cautious. He's been coughing a lot. No wheezing though. Ali Imran had been sneezing and his nose had been stuffy which irritates him and eventually leads him to cry and gets everything stuffy-er. 

I have allergies. Tell me something new. I realized that I have a bad bruising behind my left knee when I got home from the mall yesterday. WTF?! IT hurts like I hit myself but I am pretty sure I did NOT hit anything.

Anywho, Shu got me one of those hiking 65 litres rucksack backpacks. He said that if we're gonna change how we travel to the island,we're gonna have to pack light. Packing light is NOT something I am good at. This would be interesting considering at how I packed the last time we went to the island. I packed like a dumbass. If there is one thing I did learn from the last trip is that I seriously do NOT need that much makeup. In fact, I don't think I should bother since my skin tone is gonna change so drastically that none of my base makeup is ever gonna match me anyways. I know, petty. I am trying. I really am.

I have also been staying away from frantic phone calls from my family coz I really don't need more drama in my life. I just hope I'll remember Qarim's engagement date. I cannot recall the date right now.........erm.........yeah.......Wait, what was I supposed to bring him again?.............Erm..........I really hope I do not need to buy any clothes for that occasion.

Shu's birthday is around the corner. I am hoping to be able to bake him a cake. I've never tried. Hah!

I cannot get this song out of my head

 

We were in the backseat
Drunk on something stronger than the drinks in the bar
"I rent a place on Cornelia Street"
I say casually in the car
We were a fresh page on the desk
Filling in the blanks as we go
As if the street lights pointed in an arrowhead
Leading us home

And I hope I never lose you, hope it never ends
I'd never walk Cornelia Street again
That's the kind of heartbreak time could never mend
I'd never walk Cornelia Street again

And baby, I get mystified by how this city screams your name
And baby, I'm so terrified of if you ever walk away
I'd never walk Cornelia Street again
I'd never walk Cornelia Street again

Windows swung right open, autumn air
Jacket 'round my shoulders is yours
We bless the rains on Cornelia Street
Memorize the creaks in the floor
Back when we were card sharks, playing games
I thought you were leading me on
I packed my bags, left Cornelia Street
Before you even knew I was gone

But then you called, showed your hand
I turned around before I hit the tunnel
Sat on the roof, you and I

I hope I never lose you, hope it never ends
I'd never walk Cornelia Street again
That's the kind of heartbreak time could never mend
I'd never walk Cornelia Street again

And baby, I get mystified by how this city screams your name (city screams your name)
And baby, I'm so terrified of if you ever walk away
I'd never walk Cornelia Street again
I'd never walk Cornelia Street again

You hold my hand on the street
Walk me back to that apartment
Years ago, we were just inside
Barefoot in the kitchen
Sacred new beginnings
That became my religion, listen

I hope I never lose you
I'd never walk Cornelia Street again
Oh, never again

And baby, I get mystified by how this city screams your name
And baby, I'm so terrified of if you ever walk away
I'd never walk Cornelia Street again
I'd never walk Cornelia Street again

I don't wanna lose you, hope it never ends
I'd never walk Cornelia Street again
I don't wanna lose you, yeah

"I rent a place on Cornelia Street"
I say casually in the car

My Tears Ricochet by Taylor Swift

 [Verse 1]

We gather here, we line up, weepin' in a sunlit room

And if I'm on fire, you'll be made of ashes, too

Even on my worst day, did I deserve, babe

All the hell you gave me?

'Cause I loved you, I swear I loved you

'Til my dying day

[Chorus]

I didn't have it in myself to go with grace

And you're the hero flying around, saving face

And if I'm dead to you, why are you at the wake?

Cursing my name, wishing I stayed

Look at how my tears ricochet

[Verse 2]

We gather stones, never knowing what they'll mean

Some to throw, some to make a diamond ring

You know I didn't want to have to haunt you

But what a ghostly scene

You wear the same jewels that I gave you

As you bury me

[Chorus]

I didn't have it in myself to go with grace

'Cause when I'd fight, you used to tell me I was brave

And if I'm dead to you, why are you at the wake?

Cursing my name, wishing I stayed

Look at how my tears ricochet

[Bridge]

And I can go anywhere I want

Anywhere I want, just not home

And you can aim for my heart, go for blood

But you would still miss me in your bones

And I still talk to you (When I'm screaming at the sky)

And when you can't sleep at night (You hear my stolen lullabies)

[Chorus]

I didn't have it in myself to go with grace

And so the battleships will sink beneath the waves

You had to kill me, but it killed you just the same

Cursing my name, wishing I stayed

You turned into your worst fears

And you're tossing out blame, drunk on this pain

Crossing out the good years

And you're cursing my name, wishing I stayed

Look at how my tears ricochet