Shu said the last time he bought me actual jewelry was back when we celebrated our first year anniversary

 Today, this arrived from New Zealand

He kept the certificate and the actual price he paid for this from me

It's so dainty and beautiful. I love it so much! 

Di Puncak Tertinggi

Langit malam tidak mampu sembunyi

Terang bulan yang berseri-seri
Ku bersaksi
Pertemuan ini
Indah melampaui bidadari
Disini resah jiwaku tenggelam
Terluah jatuh disambut bayu malam
Bulan jadi cerminan diri
Rindui bintang penyeri hati
Mata temu mata
Berguguran bicara
Kata demi kata
Merubah tutur jadi rasa
Hanya keasyikan
Pada kewujudannya
Nafas dan nadi bak terhenti
Pertemuan ini
Kian terasa bagai bererti

Hamba harus akui
Yang kedatangan hamba ke sini
Kerana tertarik dengan keindahan pemandangan di sini
Kini telah hamba pastikan
Dan seharusnya
Hamba bermohon pergi
Memang benar rupanya
Orang Melaka bersopan santun
Dan laksamananya pula pandai berpantun
Rasa hatiku ingin bertanya
Dimanakah letaknya rahsia (Rahsia)
Pertemuan
Pengabadian
Jika kasih ini berlarutan
Gunung Ledang puncak yang tertinggi
Akhir yang sempurna, makam hakiki
Disanalah (disanakah?)
Kan ku kembali
Pada mula dan akhir ku ini
Kembali
Tak pernah ku rasa
Sentuhan luar biasa
Bagai dalam mimpi (bagai dalam mimpi)
Atau seakan telah terjadi
Aku yang terpisah
Kembali bersatu jiwa
Bagai telah diijabkabulkan
Pertemuan ini
Apa kan berakhir di syurga?
Aku yang terpisah
Kembali bersatu jiwa
Bagai telah diijabkabulkan
Pertemuan ini
Apa kan berakhir di syurga?

My sister said people in Damansara area have gone pariah

 Oh? I wonder why?

In case anyone fails to see, the idiots on mainland had always been within the state of Selangor. 

Social Distancing? What's that? Not being able to leave the house for 2 weeks? We're gonna die!

Nope, we're not the United States...... Just a state in a tiny country........ 

Water problems? On it! We live like peasants in the city! But people who live in the city act like they all that but they've never been outside to other states to actually see what life really is like. And they still think living in the city is all that. 

I do not make any sense at this point but seriously, people need to wake up. 

Shu's parents came by on Saturday

 Shu's brother and wife (Nadiah) came over too. Aina too. They stayed till dinner. It was fun. Nadiah is gonna give birth at anytime now. She's so active and up and running. I don't ever remember myself being like that when I was pregnant. I don't miss it tho..........

Shu's parents were telling Nadiah how I don't eat soups or liquids much. They know me so well.

Honestly, I don't think I eat much at all. I have a bad habit of not feeding myself well. I am in the works to fixing that. Also, I am not a soup person. Never had been. In fact, I am not enthusiastic about food at all. I could drink shitloads of coffee tho........So that would take me from DEPRESSION to ANXIETY. Awesome!

I am not depressed anymore. I think I just overthink and nothing more. 

The only thing that is keeping me hoping and praying are my plants. I hope they aren't dying. I'd get so upset everytime my plant dies. I think I have accidentally killed 3 at this point. I am trying so hard to keep the current ones alive. I have de-potted them and changed the soil composition and re-planted them. My monstera is still living in water.

Shu's mum asked if my mum had ever been to our house since we moved. I said never. Not even once. She's probably figured out what kind of relationship I have with my mom by now. It's been 10 years and everytime she asks about my mum, I wouldn't know whether or not she's ok coz she never picks up the phone. She's always too busy. The only time she'd call me is when she wants to know a dinosaur name -_- coz Hamza is a dino freak.

So.........

I guess I was kinda expecting a movement restriction order to take place...........my reaction was like..........

The only difference this time is that we are not allowed to cross over other districts. It's both good and bad. It's a good excuse to not attend events I don't want to. We're just probably gonna have to re-plan weekend dinner places coz we usually drive away for dinner and then drive around.

Shu was waiting for a restriction order to take place just so that he can stay home.

I think this doesn't change much for me since my entire life is basically just this. It's not like I have places to be or people to meet. I'm probably gonna miss driving around with Shu and the kids but we do have the Wii up and running. I have my workout routine. I have the guitars and this is probably the best time to finish up the songs I've written halfway and left hanging.

I am still waiting on our packages.......waiting.........waiting...........waiting............

Just grab my hand and don't ever drop it, my love

 

I I I I, I I I I
I I I I, I I I I
I I I I, I I I I, I I

You stand with your hand on my waist line (I I I I, I I I I)
It's a scene and we're out here in plain sight (I I I I, I I I I)
I can hear them whisper as we pass by (I I I I, I I I I)
It's a bad sign, bad sign (I I)
Something happens when everybody finds out (I I I I, I I I I)
See the vulture circling dark clouds (I I I I, I I I I)
Love's a fragile little flame, it could burn out (I I I I, I I I I)
It could burn out (I I)
'Cause they got the cages, they got the boxes (I I I I, I I I I)
And guns, they are the hunters, we are the foxes (I I I I, I I I I)
And we run

Baby I know places we won't be found and they'll be
Chasing their tails tryin' to track us down
'Cause I, I know places we can hide, I know places
I know places

Lights flash and we'll run for the fences (I I I I, I I I I)
Let them say what they want, we won't hear it (I I I I, I I I I)
Loose lips sink ships all the damn time, not this time (I I I I, I I I I, I I)
Just grab my hand and don't ever drop it (I I I I, I I I I)
My love, they are the hunters, we are the foxes (I I I I, I I I I, I I)
And we run

Baby I know places we won't be found and they'll be
Chasing their tails tryin' to track us down
'Cause I, I know places we can hide, I know places
They are the hunters, we are the foxes
And we run
Just grab my hand and don't ever drop it
My love

Baby I know places we won't be found and they'll be
Chasing their tails tryin' to track us down
'Cause I, I know places we can hide, I know places

They take their shots, but we're bulletproof
I know places
(I) And you know for me it's always you
I know places
(I) In the dead of night, you're eyes so green
I know places
(I) And I know for you it's always me
I know places

I never grow up It's getting so old

 

Combat, I'm ready for combat
I say I don't want that, but what if I do?
'Cause cruelty wins in the movies
I've got a hundred thrown-out speeches I almost said to you

Easy they come, easy they go
I jump from the train, I ride off alone
I never grew up, it's getting so old
Help me hold onto you

I've been the archer
I've been the prey
Who could ever leave me, darling?
But who could stay?

Dark side, I search for your dark side
But what if I'm alright, right, right, right here?
And I cut off my nose just to spite my face
Then I hate my reflection for years and years

I wake in the night, I pace like a ghost
The room is on fire, invisible smoke
And all of my heroes die all alone
Help me hold onto you

I've been the archer,
I've been the prey
Screaming, who could ever leave me, darling?
But who could stay?
(I see right through me, I see right through me)

'Cause they see right through me
They see right through me
They see right through
Can you see right through me?
They see right through
They see right through me
I see right through me
I see right through me

All the king's horses, all the king's men
Couldn't put me together again
'Cause all of my enemies started out friends
Help me hold onto you

I've been the archer
I've been the prey
Who could ever leave me, darling?
But who could stay?
(I see right through me, I see right through me)
Who could stay?
Who could stay?
Who could stay?
You could stay
You could stay
You

Combat, I'm ready for combat

I know that I had always been a coffee person

 But without realizing it, I kinda started a coffee log of my own ^_^

The first time I ever tried Zus coffee was on my birthday. They are inexpensive and good. I like it ❤️

This was Cafe mocha from Jibby East. Food there is good. Coffee was not too bad. I liked it. 

This is my go-to coz we love having brunch here. Food is good. There's something for everyone. Coffee is good ❤️ Wolf and Turtle Melawati Mall 

Neslo Tarik made by Shu ❤️

Jamaica Blue ❤️

This was bought because Shu had work somewhere in Bangi and there was a coffee shop there. I liked it ❤️

Neslo Tarik from Patin Pasu was my ❤️

Everytime we decide to go driving up Genting Highland, I'd end up here and it's ❤️

Due to convenience and love, this is my regular almost daily ❤️

This had always been life in Cyberjaya ❤️

I finally found a shop that makes Neskopi (Nescafe) Tarik in Kampung Seberang Takir, Terengganu which gives me life ❤️

Wolf and Turtle 

Not my favorite but it's there when nothing else is 

Dome, I like ❤️

Nitro. Yaaass......... 

Wolf and Turtle and Omg Avocado Toast! ❤️ 

Discovered this online. Good coffee. I like ❤️

I'd be coming back for this. The kids can go do whatever around the park. I'd be here with this ❤️

❤️

Date night coffee ❤️

FidZy needs to stop........ This is driving me insane............ 

It's SPOOKTOBER!

 I have a rough idea of what our Halloween plans are but I can't be too sure coz this Pandemic is getting out of control again. Are people just stupid or are they just stupid? I highly doubt that relying on each individual's righteous conscience to self quarantine is ever gonna work. They won't even care to report or just care for that matter. 

Problem: Population Density <---Densed MoFos

Nadiah (Shu's brother's wife) is gonna give birth anytime soon. I hope things go well.

We just arrived at my parent's when my mum got a call from Simon about Suhaila slipping and falling and hitting her head on an edge tile and she was bleeding. They rushed her to the ER. She's fine though. She's a tough baby.

My sister cameby later after the whole hospital visit was done. She was asking me about makeup again. She bought stuff from Nita Cosmetics. They turned out to be good just as how I expected them to swatch. She was asking me about the foundation match. (Sometimes I feel like my sister and my aunt talks to me like I am a makeup expert) 

Anywho, I feel like we are all holding our breath just waiting to see what the next course of action is when it comes to this whole pandemic situation. The numbers are shooting high. Higher than before. Shu had been preparing all week last week for another lockdown. The best part about him and his sister running the firm is that they took the pay cuts but they paid all their staff full. He didn't take about 3 months salary just to save the firm. We all make sacrifices in times like this. I hope shit gets better for everyone.

I take this magnetic force of a man to be my lover

 

We could leave the Christmas lights up 'til January
This is our place, we make the rules
And there's a dazzling haze, a mysterious way about you, dear
Have I known you twenty seconds or twenty years?

Can I go where you go?
Can we always be this close forever and ever?
And ah, take me out, and take me home
You're my, my, my, my lover

We could let our friends crash in the living room
This is our place, we make the call
And I'm highly suspicious that everyone who sees you wants you
I've loved you three summers now, honey, but I want 'em all

Can I go where you go?
Can we always be this close forever and ever?
And ah, take me out, and take me home (forever and ever)
You're my, my, my, my lover

Ladies and gentlemen, will you please stand?
With every guitar string scar on my hand
I take this magnetic force of a man to be my lover
My heart's been borrowed and yours has been blue
All's well that ends well to end up with you
Swear to be overdramatic and true to my lover
And you'll save all your dirtiest jokes for me
And at every table, I'll save you a seat, lover

Can I go where you go?
Can we always be this close forever and ever?
And ah, take me out, and take me home (forever and ever)
You're my, my, my, my
Oh, you're my, my, my, my
Darling, you're my, my, my, my lover

Most of the time, couples do stupid crazy shit before getting married

 Most of the time, they don't get into trouble with their parents. Not me. I was and always will be a horrible liar.

I can't stop laughing just thinking about it.

I once told Shu to hide in my cupboard coz Kak Yah was coming to my room to clean and while I was trying to think of what to say to her, he didn't budge. Kak Yah saw him in my room and was shocked. I told her casually that nothing happened and that he was just helping me out with something. Why didn't he go into my cupboard? Coz my cat Fei Mao was there in my cupboard. Yes, she can be condescending at times. She was giving Shu the "Don't even think about it" look.

We spent a lot of our afternoons at the park with my dad and brothers. Sometimes just playing badminton or running or rugby or whatever. Most times, we'd get really tired. One morning, I was supposed to wake Shu up. He was sleeping in the guest bedroom downstairs. I was so tired. I went into the room and tried to wake him up and then fell asleep right next to him on the bed. The door was wide open. Then, I heard my mum coming downstairs so I got up quickly. I must have been extra stupid that morning coz as she was getting her things on the dining table getting ready to go out, she saw me waltzing out from the guest bedroom. She looked horrified. Again, I told her to calm down coz nothing happened. 

I think the worst thing that happened was when I fought with my dad and he kicked me out. I was staying with Shu the whole time but the lie we told was that I was living with some female friends of his in their apartment. My mum never believed us but she played along just so that I wouldn't get killed by my dad. The dumbest thing that happened was that while we were shopping for stuff (like towels and pillows and stuff) we bumped into my sister and her boyfriend at the time who was Naim. 

2 weeks before our reception (after getting married) we were playing badminton with my dad at the park. That old man has no chill. He'd play like this was some competition and he smashed the shuttlecock into my eyeball. His friend was yelling at him asking if he was trying to kill me. My dad got more yelling from my mum at home coz I was supposed to not get injured for my upcoming wedding reception.

*Note to Shu* NO, I won't ask or bring up anything about any of this to my mum ever again coz I don't think she has the energy to care :p

Wamen

 Shu and I got stuck in traffic last week over the STUPID ROAD CONSTRUCTION which was STUPID coz the damn workers put a sign that indicated the left lane was closed and that cars would start migrating to the right lane and later discovers that the right lane was closed and it wasn't the left lane. There is a COMPLETELY DIFFERENT signboard for that btw............IDIOTS!

*sigh*

Anywho, we got to talking about how a lot of ads pop up online and that I sometimes get shocked at the things they are selling coz.......erm.......well,ok.........there was an ad about I dunno......maybe a scrub or something for women to use around ........folds........maybe around the crotch area........ok.......as though that wasn't gross enough,what was stated was even more shockingly disgusting coz well........it went something along the lines of this woman has her husband complaining about how her private smells and is grossly gross.........

SHIT! WTF?! Erm........what ever happened to hygiene? Personal hygiene? Ever heard of it?

This throws me back when I was probably a teenager and my folks and I were at a friend's house. This lady was saying that her daughter wanted to start a finishing school for girls coz most girls needed it. I was quite confused at the time because I was pretty sure most girls knew what it was supposed to be like.......right?

I am not even talking about sitting up right at the dining table with elbows off the table and chewing with your mouth closed. It's more like common sense about personal hygiene.........and well.......being domesticated. Room cleaning. Clothes cleaning. Deodorizers.....

Anywho,years later I found myself and a friend sharing a dorm room in uni with 2 other girls whom we didn't know. They weren't from our faculty. You would think that having girl roommates would mean the room would be tidy and neat all the time. Boy was I so wrong. They'd always have friends over for study groups and they'd have food. They'd usually have them stay overnight and leave the next day. Usually, this happen when my friend and I weren't in the room that night. We'd come back the next day to the room smelling of leftovers which they did not bother to clean out. My friend said that her bed seemed like someone slept on it and I found my cup being used and not cleaned on one of the desks.

I wasn't raised domesticated either but my dad made sure I knew how to clean my bed and my room and how to use a broom properly. Having your own place is quite difficult but the small areas? Come on! At the very least have clean clothes and not let your dirty laundry look like they exploded all over the place.

Shu is a very domesticated human being. When we moved into our own place, I learned a lot about tidying up and cleaning from him but I made sure I kept my personal hygiene in check. Of course, I am quite blunt and honest and so is he so if there was anything that bothered either one of us, we'd let each other know. Also, I need the place to be able to give me peace and mess is definitely NOT the way to go.

I have a lot of girl stuff like makeup and makeup brushes and skincare but everytime I use them, I'd be sure to put them back in their right places. I clean my makeup brushes after each time I use them. I burn candles in the bathroom before showers. I think I'm messy when it comes to the studio and my mind being everywhere during scrapbooking or songwriting........

I am getting off topic..........

For God's sake people! Come on! Personal hygiene! 

P.S. :- One of the main reasons I try very hard not to go to public bathrooms is that women are disgusting when it comes to cleaning up the toilet seat after use ESPECIALLY when it comes to period blood. Erm.........If I ever needed to use the public toilet, I'd have to be sure to run water around the toilet seats and have toilet seat covers coz women are just disgusting.......

Hard Rock Hotel Desaru Coast

 I needed to get away from home and the city. On Saturday morning, we attended my brother's engagement ceremony over at Serendah. Then, we left early and headed south. I have grown to like Hard Rock Hotels only coz I love live bands and music and there's always good music. Also, they promote jamming in the room. 

This time around I decided to bring the Hummingbird. Shu brought the black junior Epiphone. We had a blast. 

Shu got us a duplex suite which came with a private pool since we're doing social distancing. The kids loved it. They had their own room upstairs. There's a dining area. The bathroom downstairs had a bathtub which was perfect.

This time around, Shu sent me to the Rock Spa and it was awesome. The last time I was at a spa was at Tanjong Jara last year. 

Are there still beautiful things?

 We spent the whole afternoon into the night of yesterday at Putrajaya Hospital coz Shu's mum was really sick. We had no idea what was happening at the time and Shu's dad was freaking out so much coz everything seemed to have descended so quickly. It turns out that one of her antibiotics gave her a really bad allergic reaction and that her body couldn't cope. She was discharged late last night.

None of us could go in to see her coz there was so much restriction. I think it was also the COVID-19 prevention step. The kids and I were in the car the whole time. Shu kept going back and forth but he couldn't get in to see his mum anyways. It was raining the whole day yesterday.

The sky looks like we're gonna have a massive downpour today just as much.

I love rain. It makes me happy. I also love sunshine. I am probably a plant.

Anywho, I spent a lot of time last week talking about girl things with someone who wanted to know about things like facial toners and skincare all the way to makeup and health. Seriously, I am not the best person to talk about these things to. However, I would only recommend things that I truly love.

Anyways, the conversation then lead on to being a woman. Like a ladylike woman, if it makes sense. It's strange coz I have never thought of myself to be a "woman" woman. I'm just me. I love makeup only because of the things it can do. Like a form of art. Sometimes, I'd glam up just coz I feel like it or if the occasion is suitable or calls for it. I love making myself looks like aliens or weird creatures.

I think as far as my skin goes, I spent so much time growing up being made fun of coz of my skin. I had a lot of zits in my teens. I get laughed at a lot so I had to look into skincare at a very young age. I am doing things and buying and using things that works for me. It's changed so much over the years anyways. Especially after giving birth.

When I was asked about how romantic Shu is towards me, I just say he's always been himself. If you consider being romantic as always buying me flowers, well, he doesn't buy me flowers but he likes to shop for me. He could spend so much on clothes just online. I could wait somewhere for like a smoothie or something and let him stroll around with the kids and he'd come back with something for me. There was this one time, he was waiting for coffee (for me) so he decided to go walk around and decided to get me something. I was at home at the time. He remembers dates,anniversaries and stuff. I'm not very good at it.

It turns out that not all men are like that. My dad isn't like that. At least not from what I see. It was weird to know that not everyone goes lingerie shopping with their spouses. Erm, if I had something that was a major turn off for Shu, he'd let me know and I would get rid of it. We always talk about what we're into. No matter how intimate or personal it is. I don't have friends and I don't have anyone to talk to so I will always talk to him or refer to him about anything.

I always tell him how crazy and complicated I am. Not sure if it's coz I was raised to believe that or I really just am as such. Either ways, we always have a good laugh about it. 

The thing about living in the city

 Is that you'd get bored easily. Weekends need to be exciting since....... Well, you can't possibly spend so much time in malls. Also, I do my mall shopping on weekdays just to avoid crowds so weekends need to be planned out a little better......... Or not.......

Shu and I had always been the type to just pack up and drive. No idea where to but we're moving. Our kids have gotten accustomed to this now. So, last Saturday at about 5pm,we decided to leave town and headed south. Not south south but south enough to be away from KL. 

Malacca has a night zoo and the last we ever went was when Yusuf was about a year old. It was fun. Then, we decided to head into Bandar Hilir. Shu has an entire history in this state since he spent his teenage years in KYSM. We were just laughing about random things that he's done but the kids had no idea what was going on. 

We got home at about 2am. Kids were already asleep and Shu and I just passed out till morning :) 

My Go-To jamming playlist

 

Shu was telling me how worried he is getting about raising our kids in this mad world we currently live in

 It's mad and it's a whole lot worse than before. There was a time when we would be left at home on our own as kids and we felt quite safe. We can't do that anymore. Houses get robbed and broken into within an hour. 

And then, there are pedophiles. It's sickening to think that there is such a thing and it's not something new. I did point out that 14 year-olds today are not like how I was back when I was 14. Then again, I was naive and not very good at being a typical 14 year old...........14 year olds today look like they are 18 so......there's that.........I was still asked for my identification card even when I was 21 everytime I was going anywhere where underaged kids weren't allowed in :-/

I don't know why but the more I speak about shitty crazy mofos like pedophiles, I can't help but think that my guardians didn't do a good job at keeping one at bay back when I was 15. He was 10 years older than I was. I was naive. I had no idea about a lot of things and to think that my mum kept saying he liked me the whole time..........I was 15..........how is that flattering in anyway? He was allowed into my home. He was always talking to me about sex. He was always looking at my friends around me who were my age and passing remarks about pretty they are. We were 15. My dad was a pilot so he was hardly around. 

Anyways, one day this guy went somewhere overseas and came back and said he had something for me. It was a G-string........thong.......whatever you wanna call it. I told my folks. My dad never let him back near me or our house ever.

I'm still trying to understand why my mum did let him come over even to my wedding. Growing up, I was always asked why I was 13 and did not have a boyfriend. Why I never had a social life. Why I never went out with friends or even had a lot of friends. I had friends. A small number of friends.

I don't have a social life even until today. I don't have friends to go out with. Not these days. My friends are all working and are grown up parents.