I'll cover this to let my inner thoughts be heard

Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins
One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I
When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins
Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?
When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins

medical check-ups

My sister spent hours over at the hospital nearby last night.She was supposed to get a confirmation whether or not she is a positive influenza A H1N1 case.It turns out that hospitals have a standard test to see if one has influenza A but no guarantees for H1N1.That could mean that Naim has been quarantined due to withdrawal effect of cigerettes since he's been trying to quit smoking.

picnic@Kemensah Village

Shu wanted to take me out today and he didn't tell me where we were going coz he said it was supposed to be a surprised.First,he pre-ordered some food from De Templer in Taman Melati early this morning.Then,he drove us both there later at about 2pm.I was totally blown away coz I did say some days ago that I wanted to eat chinese cooking.

Later on,he told me that he doesn't really know where exactly the location of our next destination was at coz he just discovered it last night.On some dude's blog online.He took a turn into the Zoo Negara entrance and we kept driving up the road.

On our way there,he finally told me that he wanted to have a picnic by the river at one of the chalets in the village.It was awesome.I lurved the place and I lurved the hut we had lunch at.We also went into the river for a bit.Shu's plan was to go to the ATV Adventure Park up the hill not far from where we were at.

We packed up our things and headed up the road.Unfortunately,the place was closed.Well,not exactly closed.No one was around when we got there.There was an albino rabbit in a cage and that was the only living thing there.We got to see the entire collection of ATVs though.And,I used the washroom.

Shu's plan B was to head over to Petaling Street which we did go to after realizing that there was no way we could have contacted anyone there at the office since we couldn't get any signals at all.At about 4pm,we were on the road heading towards KL.

It was drizzling and I was semi-wet from the river splashing session.Shu was completely soaked in the river but he managed to change into some dry clothes before the drive to KL.

We walked around for a few hours in KL.Then,we saw some dudes in uniforms walking towards the crowded area in the street.I think they were from DBKL.Then,we saw some police officers and there was a police tow truck.They really scared the shit outta people who parked along the roads.Most of them managed to get into their cars in time and drove off.One car was left unattended to so the police took it.

Shu and I actually stood around to watch coz we were curious to see such things live in action.Hahahahaha!

Kecik's front right leg is slightly injured.He was limping when we saw him at home later today.

igauan

Fei Mao was caught mengigau one afternoon as Shu and I were watching TV.We were in the lounge and she was on the single seat.Asleep.Suddenly,out the blues,she screamed.Shu and I were shocked at first coz she was asleep.Then,we started laughing out loud when we realized that she must have accidentally screamed out from a nightmare or something coz she looked a bit puzzled when she realized that Shu and I were looking at her.

cookin' out:making buah melaka

Mum helped Shu and I make buah melaka today.I lurve those things but I often get annoyed by the ones sold at the warungs coz the dough is too much and I can hardly taste the gula melaka.So,I intended to make some on my own.

Shu and I spent the afternoon making them good old buah melaka.With the help of my mum,of course.

rugby in the park

Yesterday's day at the park really wore me out.Everytime we go to the park,Shu and I would take the rugby ball with us in case the wind is too strong to play badminton,we'd toss and kick the rugby ball instead.I'd usually tell Shu to kick as high and as far as he can and I'd run for the ball.It's kinda like playing fetch.I just love running for the ball and picking it up without fumbling over.

Yesterday,Azim joined us and another guy whose been watching us play joined in.This dude usually plays basketball with the other kids at the basketball court.Sometimes,he'd join my dad play badminton.Yesterday,he asked us how to play rugby and eventually joined us.We need another 2 people to join us to enable us to have 3 on a team to play rugby touch at the very least.

quarantined

Naim called my sister early this morning saying that he's been quarantined for showing positive signs of H1N1.There goes his party tonight.Meanwhile,the rest of us here at home would have to get ourselves checked as well coz Naim was here last night.

anti-fungal wash for Kecik

That bottle of anti-fungal shampoo I got for Kecik yesterday was expensive!It better work!Of course,cleaning Kecik up is one helluva job!He was very upset to get locked up the washroom with me for about 15 minutes but I needed to get it done.It's for his own good.

UNITEN has declared the entire week off.Shu said that there was about 70 cases of students and staff being quarantined at the Pahang campus.The Bangi campus closed down as a pre-caution step as well as getting the schedule synchronized with the Pahang campus.

I am coming down with a fever.I think it's coz I was cleaning up Kecik this afternoon and I got all soaked.

Went to see some apartments for sale in BSD with my folks and Aunty Intan and Aunty Amy today.We dropped by at Aunty Gillian's place and Rynna happened to be at home.I haven't seen that girl since before she got pregnant.Now,her kid is already a year old.She was suprised to hear that I am getting married.She was laughing with me about how I am not the serious relationship type.When I said that I'm engaged to Shu,she asked about the washroom incident.Strange,people seem to remember that incident.God knows how many people I've accidentally blurted it out to!

Anywho,that was a very random visit and we actually sat down and talked for a bit.She said that she's bored coz her son is in Terengganu with her husband and her in-laws and it's her first time being away from her kid.

no regrets

Shu asked if I'd wanna go to the MTV World Stage Malaysia and I said no.I think gone are the days when I'd go to every damn gig or show or concerts.Of course,if he wants to go I'd go with him but I won't go coz I want to.Not anymore.

It's amazing what a year could do.I'm probably interested in doing my own thing now.I'd write songs if anything comes up.I'd draw if I have something in mind.I still like designing stuff once in a while.I like decorating in general.Haha!

A lot of things come back to me once in a while as I clear up stuff in my room.I'd remember incidents or events.Sometimes,I'd laugh or smile by just looking at those things.I don't miss them but I'm glad to have come across such things coz it brought me here to where I am now.

I like where I am now and I am probably looking for more new things to come ^_^

Vampires & Werewolves Inc.

I am stuck at the computer again.This time it's all about running a movie studio.Things like these are addictive especially when you have nothing to do.

My weekdays would be waiting for Shu to finish classes and then we'll hangout or something.Sometimes,I'd follow him to campus and we'd hangout in between classes.I was just telling him how strange this has all been for me coz I should be busy but I am stuck with absolutely nothing to do instead.

My sister brought a friend home last weekend named Tharish.She's a singer songwriter and she's an Aquarian.We had a long chat at the dining table about the songs that we write and the songs that we like.She played me the song she wrote called Voices.The words are beautiful and she has a very unique voice.Her songs should be accompanied by keyboards and violins and cellos.

I've been on the treadmill.That thing can kill me coz it's so addictive yet it could wear me out within minutes.

pix!

Festival Seni UNITEN

Shu told me about it and we went to check it out yesterday.Saw one of his junior classmates performing on an Indian musical instrument called a Tabla.The dude played alongside a solo keyboard.It was awesome.

I tried playing a Gamelan instrument called a Gambang.One guy taught us how to read the notes which were basically numbers.The trick was to use both hands and making sure that both hands hit the right note.Not as easy as it sounds.

We stopped by at a booth covered with prints in brown.The booth was all about the Fiji Islands.The guy at the booth told us about the weapons which were mostly clubs.We learned how to fully utilize the club coz each side of the club serves a different function.Usually,the head of the victim goes to the chief of the tribe (to be eaten of course) while the rest of the body goes to the tribe.Then,we looked at a whole bunch of necklaces.Some were made of boar tusks.Some were made of sea shells.The coolest thing I learned from the guy at the booth was about the tribal art and how they were made and who makes them and where they come from.The guy also explained how the inks made from mangrove trees produces different shades of brown depending on the duration of time you leave it to boil.One long sheet of clothe made from a tree bark was taken out and wrapped around Shu.The guy said that the color of the sheet indicates that the person wearing it is of royal blood and the shade of the color indicates where he comes from.How cool is that?!

Next,Shu and I stopped by at the Saudi Arabian booth.Shu picked up a sword just to see how heavy it was.We were given dates and some Arabian Coffee which we burnt both our tongues.The coffee was nice though.Very mild.Like tea.

The people at the Yemen booth were quite happy to see us.They even let us try out their costumes and had our pictures taken.Their daggers are awesome and very handy.

Kecik looked so bored so I took him for a ride

Qarim may be right.Kecik does have that longing for an adventure look.He'd get bored easily and he's always begging for Shu and I to take him along whenever we leave in the morning.

Anywho,being the troublemakers like we are,Shu and I almost got busted in UNITEN today.He didn't have his I.D. on and I didn't have a visitor's pass.I sat in his class and became his study buddy today.I also drove him around coz his left knee is injured from yesterday's accident during the rugby game we had.

I am so trying out the new Sims 3!

we do singing telegrams now?

Since when?Will we get paid?Hello?Where's Mr. Band Manager?!

I am still recovering by the way........Not sure if singing is a good idea anytime soon.........

Prince Court Medical Center,KL

Aimi was transferred there from Ampang Putri.She was told that she could leave but Shu's parents weren't so sure if that was a good idea coz she probably needs to be supervised still.Sure enough,she did need more help.Last night,she said that her whole body was in pain and today,she couldn't eat anything coz she kept throwing up.Mum said maybe it was the meds she's been on since the accident.

Apart from all that and the fact that she was exhausted when I went to see her a while ago,she's fine.Her husband (Nizar) and her baby (Irham) were there along with Shu's folks.Nizar seemed like he still had dissatisfactions with the dudes who got Aimi into this.The thing is,nothing can be done (insurance and stuff) until the driver of the other vehicle gets out from the hospital and writes a seperate report plus his confession for being guilty.

Later on,Shu's parents took Irham to Shu's other sister's house.Shu and I sent them there and then we picked up Hana (Shu's first sister's daughter) and all of us went out for dinner.Later on,Kak Long (Shu's first sister) joined us.I had fun talking to Shu's dad.He was asking me about my plans in the future.He seemed surprised to hear that I am planning to go away from my family.He asked me what my folks think of it.My folks (mum especially) wants us all to go away.

After that,Shu and I took our time driving around KL before heading home ^_^

Shu is fast asleep now.He's been up all day since morning.

more than just luck

Aimi (Shu's sister) got into an accident yesterday morning on the DUKE highway as she was on her way to work.It was a VERY BAD accident but she survived.Two guys in a Satria were tailgating her and as she moved to the slow lane,the Satria drove too close and accidentally hit the tail of her car.

Aimi's car flipped forward and then hit the wall on the left side of the road and then rolled over ending up with all four wheels on top.LUCKILY,she DID NOT have her baby in the car with her.LUCKILY,her rear window was broken and gave her enough space to crawl out from the completely wrecked vehicle.LUCKILY,she did NOT pass out so she managed to get out of the car quickly.LUCKILY,she drives a HONDA CITY.The airbag saved her life.If it was any Malaysian car,the driver would have ended up dead.

She is currently admitted at a hospital in KL.Shu said she's quite stabil now.I was told that she has a huge cut from one side above her nose to the other side above her lips.Shu said her lips were swollen yesterday.I'm planning to go see her tonight just to see how she is.Thank God,her husband did NOT take the offer to go offshore in Vietnam so he's around to keep her company.

I,on the other hand,am sick.My immunity system is super low these days.I have a swollen tonsil and a slight flu.No,it's not influenza A or anything like that.My mum keeps telling me to take supplementaries like Cod Liver Oil and some vitamins.Why not,more pills!

I spent the weekend having to share my tatami with my sister.That alongside the fact that she also shared my comforter and my pillow.I spent sleepless nights getting her elbow and her hand off my face and sometimes,I'd wake up from the shocking cold surface of the tile floor.

mangkuk ayuns and idiots

I just asked if Qarim would have wanted to drive the car and he declined the offer.He's not that interested in driving anyways.Well,I know one very good reason why he doesn't even wanna try.We are stuck with a bunch of people whom only know how to drive but don't have a clue about what signal lights and lines on the roads are for.

For example,I never knew that many people are still anal about stopping at junctions.Most of these creatures who fall under the category of idiots would just zoom out of junctions into the main road.And after pulling such stunts,they'd drive extremely slow on the road and later on just turning into a tiny road absent mindedly<---without any signals indicating that they were about to do so.

Also,there are other types of creatures from the lowest part of the food chain who would park at a turning.One very good example would be those who'd park at the turning near Devi's Corner of TTDI.Buses would have to take up space from the lane(s) from the opposite direction just to turn into the lane.If ever these buses were to scratch of simply run into any of these cars,they would probably make the headlines of tomorrow's newspapers.Most of these cars are expensive cars.Too expensive that they cannot afford to pay for proper parking spaces.Then again,maybe they just cannot bring themselves up to walk a few meters to the restaurant.

Other insignificant but annoying assholes would just park at tiny turning,leaving very little space for other cars to pass.There was one silly fella who double parked outside a parking lot with the words KHAS printed in yellow on the ground of that lot.It was way pass office hours :/ and it definitely WAS NOT a fire hydrant.

please contact Naim for more info

Naim is selling off his Les Paul copy Santa Cruz AND the hardcase.Both for MYR700++ Please leave a comment with your contact number and I'll get Naim to call you......or something.......

*I kinda like his guitar........hurm...........*

more collisions

I was totally blown away a couple of years back when I foundout that LinZy's friends and probably some family members are associated or was associated with people whom I know from my end of the world.Then,when I met Shu and he told me that he is friends with some people in TTDI,I was surprised to find out that these dudes are kids from my school.We used to be schoolmates.Tonight,when Shu and I went over to Dan's house (next to where I used to live) Shu told me that one of the guys coming out from Dan's place looked familiar.He totally knew the guy!The dude is Eno's batchmate back in school.I was totally spooked when I heard Dan mentioning the name Clone.Clone is Shu's best buddy since his days in KYSM.It turns out that Clone and Dan and that dude we met at Dan's place were all together in the states to study.

Strange little world I live in...........

zusammen

When I was Ili's engagement ceremony a couple of years ago,I kept thinking what it was that made her change and what it was that made her want to be there where she was on the road to spending the rest of her life with that guy she was getting engaged with at the time.Now,being here where I am,I cannot explain why I want to do this.All I know is that I want to and that I am happy to be here-on my way to spending my entire life with Shu.

A few years back,I was far from deciding a date for my wedding.Everyone (myself included) thought I'd probably be the last one to tie the knot.Some people still cannot absorb the fact just yet and everytime we talk about it,they'd have a hard time believing that I am old enough to do this.