annihilation

I had a vision where I stood by watching the world burn to the ground and I had this satisfaction knowing that I was responsible for it all.Then.....I smiled :)

hello world

This is weird.Shu finally signed up for a Unifi package just so we'd have internet connections at home.That would be uber kewl coz then,I'd be able to get stuff from the sims 3 online downloads and stuff.

SUGOI DESU!

Anywho,I've been sim-ing again these days.Working on some new stuff I have in mind.

I need to get out from this country!

roses are red.....violets are blue.......

.....fuck you,whore!

No,i'm not mad at anyone.I'm just totally bummed out right now.With myself,mostly.It really sucks to not know what to do.Not just when it comes to work but life in general.Is there a purpose for my existence?It's not even about doing anything right anymore.It's just me trying to figure out what I should do.What should I do?

P.S.Ignore the title and the first line.It's an excerpt from 500 days of Summer.It was one of those movies that gives me strange vibes.NO,it's not the latest movie I've watched.Shu and I went to watch Despicable Me yesterday.It was hilarious.SO much better than Date Night!<---I know,they're not even in the same genre!

HAHAHAHAHAHAAAA!!!!!!

Oh yeah,Shu totally pushed me into auditioning as a TV presenter the other day coz TV3 opened up a booth and stuff so he told me to go ahead and give it a shot and I did and it was..........different.So much more difficult than it seems when people do it :/

quickie

We got back from Penang the other weekend.It was a blast.We finally got on a jet ski and remp it in the sea and watched some crazy-ass people playing by the beach and in the sea and stuff.It was awesome.We did a whole lot of shopping and stayed at 2 different hotels within 2 days.I had a blast.

Oh yeah,Zeph came by to have dinner at our place before that trip.She came with her friend Joleen and my sister joined us after class that night.Shu insisted on cooking so we all had rice and tom yam for dinner.And some fried squids and stuff ^_^ it was some pretty amazing stuff :D

*My husband is an AWESOME cook! V(^o^)V

Anywho,after dinner,Zeph wanted to get some cigs so we all decided to go out for some ice cream anyways.

Shu and I have been staying indoors in the last couple of days.We've been cooking and watching a whole season of Parenthood.And then we moved on to watching Glee (Volume 2 of the first season).We had our share of movies in between like Invictus and Kick Ass<---AWESOME MOVIE!!!Well,we are so done with Family Guy coz we've watched 2 seasons in a row and after a while we got a bit......erm....insane....Haha!

*I keep turning into the characters and throwing lines into my everyday conversations :/ from the movie........

Oh yeah,we did go out for a movie the other night.......we watched Inception.I SO LURVED THE MOVIE!It's the kind of movie that stays in my head even when I'm asleep.Kuh-Ray-Zee!

1. Do you have any pets?

5 cats and a kitten (Fei Mao,Bubu,Mew,Kecik,Snow Bear and Apple) and a hamster named Bedah

2. Name 3 things that are physically close to you.

My handbag.........Azim's notebook.........and an empty medicine pack.......

3. What's the weather like right now?

Cold and dark

4. Do you drive? If so have you crashed?

Yup.Nope,haven't crashed yet........

5. What time did you wake up this morning?

10am-ish

6. When was the last time you showered?

At about 3pm today

7. What was the last movie you saw?

Invictus

8. What does your last text message say?

OTW.........

9. What's your ringtone?

Whataya Want From Me and Love story

10.Have you ever been to a different country?

Totally!

11.Do you like sushi?

Yeah......Unagi,especially........

12.Where do you buy your groceries?

Anywhere.........

13.Have you ever taken medication to help you fall asleep faster?

Have.....taken.....not sure what it was......

14.How many siblings do you have?

4 brothers and a sister

15.Do you have a desktop computer or a laptop?

Laptop

16.How old will you be turning on your next birthday?

26

17.Do you wear contacts or glasses?

Glasses

18.Do you color your hair?

Sometimes......blue-ish black....

19.Tell me something you are planning to do today.

Get some good night sleep and some peace

20.When was the last time you cried?

Recently.....not sure how recent.......

21.What is your perfect pizza topping?

Cheese and olives

22.Which do you prefer-hamburgers or cheeseburgers?

I don't eat burgers

23.Have you ever had an all-nighter?

Yup

24.What is your eye color?

Dark Brown

25.Can you taste the difference between Pepsi and Coke?

I don't drink neither of them

back in town

Got home at about 9pm last night.Had some ice cream at Swensen's before heading home.Ain't nuthin' better than their crunchy cones!Oh yeah,choc chip mint!Yup yup!

Anywho,our trip was AWESOME!!!We spent our first night in Batu Feringghi.Went to the night market and stuff.Finally falls asleep at 4am.Got ourselves a whole bunch of stuff from Crocs to DVDs and everything in between.

Got up the next day at about noon.Just in time to check out.Headed over to Bayan Lepas coz we needed to get to USM.......to go say hey to Qarim-chan.........anywho,we also had to get to a hotel there coz that was where we supposed to spend the night.Went around and around and finally found the hotel.

*That hotel is NOT the ONLY brown colored building in the area!

Qarim had lunch with us but he didn't want to hang out with us at the beach so we went ahead on our own.Played jet ski.Got ourselves soaked and then we headed back to the hotel which took us about an HOUR coz of the traffic jams in town.We went out for dinner over at Padang Kota with Qarim and Anas Bananas was supposed to meet up with us there but he was stranded at his place in Seberang Prai.

Later on,we decided to go over to see Anas anyways.Had ice cream and dropped Qarim off at his dorm at about 2am.After that we went back to the hotel to sleep.Got up in time to check out the next day and headed to town to do some shopping.Food and stuff.It was really neat to be walking in the streets and stopping by at a Nasi Kandar for brunch.

After that we went to the Snake Temple for a bit.Got our photos taken and played with some snakes.Poisonous snakes.Touched a super huge monster sized python who swallowed a 20kg goat some time ago.It was HUGE!Oh yeah,we also witnessed a huge snake eating a live chicken.

Well.......after that we just headed home.

It was a super fun trip.I had a blast.

home

Our bedroom is complete but I still use the washroom outside coz all my things are there.Shu moved the computer into the room so that I can play games till late at night ^_^ and not be alone in the lounge while he's fast asleep.

We finally have a freakin' refrigerator so our kitchen is somewhat complete.Got a proper place to put all our pots and pans.....so that would help prevent us from ever letting them fall out the window ever again :D

Anywho,got a cupboard to place all our clothes in order.Took us a while (3 days actually!) to set it all up.Shu injured himself from getting the damn thing all the way up to our place.Yes,WAY HIGH UP!

*sigh*

Our house is now safe to be called a home :)

no reservations

Dinner for 2 at our place we call home.

Shu cooked us dinner last night.He's been wanting to do it for a while so we finally went grocery shopping yesterday.Got ourselves a whole bunch of stuff.He cooked us some really good food.

It was super awesome!

capitalistic corporate bastards

My husband works for assholes.A bunch of brainless idiots whom probably has no idea what their company does or how it functions in the society.Statistics are taken but none of them are probably revised.All they ever want to do is expand,maximizing profit but no clue if the system is capable of supporting everything.

They make people go work before sunrise and make everyone manual in at times when everyone is still in their cars on their ways to work.Does that make any sense at all???And when people make a small,innocent mistake,it would be taken off their pays but when the company itself makes people stay back and do things which is not in their contracts,everyone pretends that it's all part of the job.

Then again,with all this being said,these bastards running the show are probably the idiots I curse at everyday when I drive.They are brainless behind wheels.They have cash and wants everything everyone else has without fully understanding how to use them.People have cars,they too want cars.People have computers,they want one too.If only someone can convince them that jumping off a really3 high building and fall to their doom is a good thing,they'd probably do just that :/

I live in a fucked up world.

drawing again

I have an easel now..........that means I could start painting now!YEYNESS!!!

But I still love drawing on regular papers with my mechanical pencil.It's addictive!!!

It's been a cold and wet day.I hate the fact that the clothes we've washed at home aren't drying the way they are supposed to.That stinks!Literally!It really sucks!

We're planning to get a whole lot of furnitures moved into our house this Saturday.Yes,that includes the refrigerator and the queen-sized bed AND cupboards!I am so psyched!Shu and I have been living in the lounge for the past month which gets a bit strange coz all our clothes are hung on the metal clothes hangers and there's a box in which we'd stuff our other things in.Well,we do have a display cabinet and a TV cabinet but the computer desk and all are in the lounge now.So is Bedah.The furthest we'd walk in the house would be to the bathroom.Hahahahaha!!!!!!

The master bedroom is still empty!

as Shu was in the shower this morning........

I was trying to clear up some things in the kitchen.I was trying to lock the windows so I had to make sure that the right windows were on the right side of the panel.As soon as I opened the right side panel,one of the periuks from the drainer fell out the window and hit the grill of the neighbor on the floor below's washing room.Erm......I think it's still there coz there was no way in hell that anyone could get it out through the grill and I sure can't reach down that far to get it :/

Scooter Gurl

Shu taught me and let me take the scooter for a ride around the kampung area.It's in the night and there are hardly any lights AND I didn't have my glasses on.I ALMOST ran into the house gate but overall,we got home safe and sound coz almost doesn't count ;p

I've been here in Terengganu since Thursday and it's been kuh-ray-zee!I didn't think Shu's parents were gonna have this big of a kenduri.SO MANY people turned up and I totally couldn't keep up with it.I passed out at about 3pm and got up at about 6pm.Seriously,I've never done anything like this before.It's called the "Temu Menantu" session whereby the people-friends,neighbours and family-would come over and meet the new daughter-in-law (moi)Actually,I'm the only daughter-in-law in the family.So yeah,with that all done,I'd say I've met pretty much everyone.I just have no clue who most of them were.

I had a blast.I was out at the beach in the last couple of days only because my family was staying at a homestay house near the beach.Aunty Intan,Farah and Pear aka Faizal had been staying at Primula Beach Resort and we had our outing the other night.Having Sotong Goreng Tepung and Kropok Lekor by the beach in the dark.It was funny but fun to do ^_^ hahaha!

We'll be heading back tomorrow morning.I'm missing Apple Bee for some strange reason :/

Lucas Orson:Leader of the New World and the husband thief

I've been sim-ing on and off in between the weeks of preparing for the wedding reception and all.Yes,I've created another awesome misfit and have establish that "WOO!" is a proper verb ^_^

The night before the wedding,I was told to be around TTDI to get my inai done.I thought it wasn't gonna be such a hassle.Not that it was.It just took a longer time than I expected.The thing is,my make up artist for the event is this awesome dude named Nurul (Faizal) who not only does great makeup but is a cool girlfriend to chat with while getting ready.Oh yeah,he also does drag shows and stuff.I asked to be invited if there are any more upcoming shows only coz I like how they do make up and I've never been to one :D

Got home (Subang) at about 2am.Got ourselves cleaned up and prepared the photos to be displayed at the hall the next day.That took quite some time but Shu got it all figured out ^_^ THANK GOD!We slept a few hours before dawn.Managed to get the dry clothes in AND put on the inai on our fingertips after showering before leaving the house.Actually,I didn't wanna get them on but I was afraid if the make up artist or the wedding planner was gonna scream if we didn't get it done coz I said I was gonna do it at home on my own :p

Anyways,I had a blast.I know that I did get into a few arguments and disputes with my sister and my dad before the event but eventually everything turned out well and I am ever so glad.I was so happy to have met the make up artist and the wedding planner coz they are the awesomest people ever.I was super happy to see everyone at the wedding.I wasn't so happy about the fact that I didn't meet EACH and EVERYONE personally and by the time I manage to get off the stage,most people had already gone home :(

I am so THANKFUL to have seen SO MANY people at the reception eventhough I may not know some of them.THANK YOU!And a SUPERHUGE THANK YOU to everyone whose been helping out.THANK YOU!

Next stop,Terengganu!Anyone in favor of coming along please gimme a holler!

E-ing@The Curve

Went to watch a movie last night.Toy Story 3.Shu and I were really looking forward to watching it.Last week,we went out and got dvds of the previous Toy Story movies coz Shu hadn't seen 'em so I figured we should just have a movie marathon before watching the 3rd or he wasn't gonna understand it.After watching the first 2 movies,my beloved husband realizes that I have been reciting and quoting lines from those movies.

We really enjoyed the 3rd Toy Story movie <3

trippin'

At about 11pm last night,Shu and I decided to go get dinner and head up to Cameron Highlands.We ate at Strawberry Fields near our place and then headed for the highway.Being on the road going uphill on a highway that has no road lights tend to get pretty spooky.I had constant images in my head of something leaping onto the road or something crossing the road.Something like a tiger or something.I seriously did NOT want to have to get out from the car in the middle of the night in complete darkness!

The road uphill once we got to Perak was scary coz it was twisted and dark and if you don't know how to control your car,you can seriously die.Fall of the cliff or something.I could hardly keep my eyes opened coz I realized that I get motion sickness.BADLY!I could hardly keep my head up properly.It was super cold up there and the hotels were fully booked.Then again,it was 4am and we were probably the only ones walking around looking for a place to stay.It could get creepy :D

Finally,I fell asleep in the car.Shu drove around the town area and finally gave up.It turns out that the market that usually opens at about 5am no longer exists.Everything else was closed.We couldn't even find a place to eat.I got up as Shu pulled over at some RnR down the highway.He was trying to use the washroom and get some food.He ended up with some doughnuts and some drinks.That was good enough for me coz I was getting really sick.We got back in Subang at about 10am and slept in till about 4pm :p

Well,I was playing computer games for a bit and the last thing I remembered was having the game on pause.We finally left for TTDI at about 630pm.Managed to do some laundry and stuff.Bedah is gonna have a few more nights on her own it seems.

SUH WEET!

If it's meant to be by Ilynn Virgobiru

mad world

Shu and I have been talking over things around us.Scary things.The kind that scares the shit outta us if we ever have to raise our kids in this place and time.

Growing up,we're often told what to do and what shouldn't be done but as we grow older,we'd come to know a world so much different than what we were told.Some of us would freak out and not know what to do and end up in some cultural shock dilemma.Some of us would just ponder on which road to take.Some of us would go with the flow.

I am a very paranoid person.I'd think over small things again and again and eventually get confused and afraid and then,I'd want to hide in my own little shell.I'm paranoid.I've learned a lot from the schools I've been to.I see and hear a lot of people saying and doing things which aren't the things they preach about.I'm trying so hard to not lose myself.Luckily,so far,I haven't.Nope.Not even to drugs.I'm clean ^_^

Actually,Shu and I were talking over a great deal of things which people say or pass remarks about in public which reflects their lack of knowledge.There are many things that we see and do on a day-to-day basis which we think is normal but is not.How many kids are able to steer themselves properly through life without getting caught in things which could easily be prevented but are not able to prevent themselves from them because the society allows it to happen?

If there was an option to live in an alternate world which hasn't been contaminated,we would have moved there :/

finally!

I am now in TTDI.My old room at my old place.Shu is at work.In case anyone's missed out.We got married last week (June 5th) That was the longest Saturday I've had.I was so glad to see a whole lot of people at the mosque that day.A lot of people had put in a whole lot of effort with the preparations and I am so thankful that they helped out coz my mum would have not gotten it all done properly on her own.The weeks before that were the longest weeks I've ever had.It's like counting down to something that never seems to come any closer.Strange.

I was so happy to see everyone at our wedding.Friends.Family.Everyone.

I am so glad that everything turned out ok.

The following week passed by pretty quickly.It's already Monday again!

My mum has left for the states with Azim and Qarim.They left last Wednesday.My sister left for Barcelona last night.I'm waiting for Rashid to come home so that Shu and I can go back to Subang to check on our things and Bedah!BEDAH IS HOME ALONE!

zennified!

Spent the whole of yesterday cleaning up our place.The entire house had bits and pieces of cat litter!And of course,Bedah's sunflower seeds.I have no idea how the hell that happened!Well,I know for sure that Apple Bee is not the tidiest in the house.AND,he tends to run around with what ever that stuck on its paws and cover several places with it.It's annoying! can't keep cleaning up after him!

Shu and I have been doing laundry eversince the washing machine arrived.We lurve them loads! ^_^ YUP YUP!We have a whole stash of clothes to wash anyways so the washing machine totally saved our asses!

Since deciding on a couch sucks BIG TIME,we decided to get ourselves a zen bed instead for the lounge.We've been lying on it while playing the PS2.We were taking turns killing and annihilating innocent people.SUH-WEET!Of course,throwing grenades all at once at one place without making a run for it is NOT a good idea AT ALL!HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAA!!!!!!

My sister said that Kecik had been hanging around the bedroom door back at my place in TTDI.Sometimes,he'd climb onto the bed and just lie there.Strange,if and unless he is injured,Kecik usually spends his nights outdoors walking around looking at stuff :/ I gotta get him to the vet for his second vaccination real soon.Snow Bear is still skinny and dirty as usual.Apple Bee is super happy running all over the place that I can't bear to take his freedom and space away from him by taking him back to Subang with us :(

Colmar Tropicale@Bukit Tinggi

Shu had planned this short vacation for the longest time and finally we went for this much anticipated getaway on the morning of June 7th.We packed up our stuff the night before at my place back in TTDI and got up early the next day.

The drive was awesome.Maybe it was because we were heading East.The drive uphill has a really awesome view ^_^ We stopped by at Genting Sempah for some food before heading for our exit.As we went uphill,we were both anticipating some sort of indication that we were heading the right way coz there was nothing but just a 2-lane road and trees.

Shu drove really slow at some parts of the journey just so that I could take a few pictures.Moments later,we saw the tips of the castle of Colmar Tropicale.It's a hotel with an Old French Town theme.It looked really neat from where we were.When we finally got there,the whole place looked spectacular!

It took us a while to check in coz there were some missing information since Shu made online reservations about a month ago.Finally,we were given our key cards and we lugged all our luggage to our room which was in the building across the hotel reception.Imagine Tolkien's LOTR's Bree.That's exactly what the whole place looked like.

We got up to our room and slept in the whole after noon coz we were super tired.Well,I totally passed out.Shu spent some time watching tv and taking photos from the balcony.When I got up,it was about 6pm so we cleaned ourselves up and went downstairs to see what was going on.We had dinner at the pizza parlor La Flamme which was right below our room.Then we strolled around and tried some games which totally sucked coz I believe they cheated! ;/

Anywho,we took more pictures later on and by 10pm,we were back in the room coz there was nothing much going on anymore.We got up early the next day to have breakfast at La Blason.Then,we decided to check out and headed up towards the Japanese tea house.The hike uphill was exhausting but the cold air and water from the drizzle in the morning kept us cool.I was in my hoodie coz I was freezing.

We got to the Japanese tea house where I rented a kimono.It was fun but we were too early for the tea ceremony so we left after taking photos.We drove down and headed for the rabbit park.I've never heard of a rabbit park before so I was quite excited.It turns out that we could go around feeding the rabbits.RABBITS!HUGE FAT RABBITS!I got scared coz they'd start chasing after you feed a couple.More and more rabbits would flock you and a couple of 'em started sniffing my shoes and my bag and stuff.I gave Shu the rest of the packet of food and grabbed the camera.

At the rabbit park were also some donkeys and deers and some tortoise and storks.Oh yeah,we also saw the place where they breed them rabbits and there was an area where they kept the baby rabbits.After that,we went to see the four-faced buddha.It was a huge gold statue in the center of a temple.I managed to take photos of all the 4 faces.They looked a bit scary at some point :p

Our next plan was to head to Cameron Highlands since our visit to Bukit Tinggi was done.But since Shu got sick,we decided to drive home to Subang instead.Unpacked our stuffs and hung around the house for a bit and headed out to Kampung Baru at about 11pm coz Shu wanted to take me out.We were trying to look for places where they JAIS people would be but there were none around the areas we went to so we headed to the family clinic in TTDI at about 2am to get some medicine for Shu's flu.After that we made a quick stop at the convenient store to get some more supplies and headed home.

Shu made us breakfast this morning ^_^ and then we headed to KLIA coz my mum just informed us that she got tickets to go to the States to visit Eno-san.She'll only be back about a week before our wedding reception in TTDI.

We were supposed to play badminton today but it was raining cats and dogs so we stayed in AGAIN :/

The last couple of days had been fun.I need sleep now.I regret taking those laxatives yesterday!SHIT!