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Wednesday, March 19, 2014

dating

When we were 16, all we ever talk about whenever we go out was school and exams and every other silly things in between.
Then, when we were in universities, we'd just meet up and talk about classes and friends and our lecturers and every other silly things in between.
When we started working, we'd talk about our work, our colleagues,our bosses and every other silly things in between.
When we got married, we'd talk about future plans, buying properties and vehicles and planning for kids.
Now, after having Yusuf, we talk about raising him the right way and setting a proper environment for him to grow up in and worrying about the world around him. We still talk about our school days, our university lives and sometimes our work and funny enough, every other silly things in between.

Monday, February 10, 2014

waiting..........

Took Yusuf to the KL Bird Park again yesterday. This time, he is strong enough to walk around so he was going around chasing birds and stuff. It was fun right up until the part when Shu was holding on to him and feeding a cute little colorful bird. Yusuf kept wanting to touch the bird coz it was moving and when he touched the bird's head a few times, I think the bird thought he was giving it food so it pecked Yusuf's finger. He cried. He cried a lot of tears. That was definitely NOT the memory I want him to have of the bird park :-/

Thursday, January 30, 2014

life!

Woah.....it's been forever since I was able to sit down and just blog.Well, I'm not exactly doing that right now since I kinda am at work and just sitting around. Yes, I have recently started working again. Not at the same place I used to work at. Not even doing anything close to what I was doing back then. In fact, I am doing something I never thought I'd be doing ^_^ Considering my qualifications and certifications, I am working with numbers this time around. Cheque books and bills and excel sheets. Haha!

I am not doing this full time. Not yet. I don't think I can do anything full time other than taking care of Yusuf. He is my full time job. I just love being near Shu and Yusuf both at once. So, here I am ^_^

Thursday, October 31, 2013

october

My sister will be back in about 6 weeks time for her wedding. I am psyched! I miss her. My mum will be heading down under with my aunt tomorrow for my sister's graduation. I hope everything goes on well.

In the meantime, I have been planning a lot of things to do when she gets back. Typical!

I need to be at a beach.Badly :-/ I love the rain and all here but it's not like being at a beach and diving into the ocean water.........and getting tanned and burnt at the same time. Yusuf hasn't even step foot on a beach! It's been way too long!

I haven't been sim-ing which is weird. Been wanting to do it for sometime but my daily routine has changed so drastically over a period of a couple of months.It's crazy. I'd go to sleep on my bed and wake up on Yusuf's bed the next morning. Half the time, I cannot recall what's happened the night before. It tends to get scary :-/

Thursday, October 10, 2013

ときどき

I sometimes feel like this......


And then.......


All of a sudden......


And........





Wednesday, October 09, 2013

天国

It's been months since I became a fulltime stay-at-home mom and I am telling you, it's pretty tough. I am just lucky that I don't have to worry about house chores like washing the clothes or mopping the floor. Still, it's pretty tough coz I have know where Yusuf is and what he's doing and when he is awake, I'd be sure to not pay attention to anything other than him.

He's turning 9 months soon and I am still having sleepless nights. I am just thankful that I am able to be with him around the clock coz I know that many moms have to work and they'd worry about their children being at the daycare centers or if they'd have to leave their kids at home with their maids. You just can't trust people these days. I don't trust people. It's our kids, not theirs. There is no guarantee that they'd be watching what your kid does.

A number of kids have died from careless mistakes made by the people who take care of them. Yes, they also include parents. Maybe I am just being paranoid but either ways, I don't think it's something you could just take lightly. I mean HELLO? Kids are people.........

Anywho, my routines have changed over the last few months or so only because Yusuf has grown and developed a lot of new personalities. He's very eager to stand up and Shu and I are trying our best to create an environment for him to be able to practice standing up. Soon, I'm gonna have to take him to the playground >_< I can't wait! He's been wanting to interact with other babies these days.

There's one baby girl living on the ground floor at our condo and he seems to like that girl. Always waving at her and calling out to her whenever we take him for walks downstairs. He needs friends and definitely a sibling or two :D

trying out stuff on the camera














It's a regular digital camera. I am not that enthusiastic about photography :p

Tuesday, October 01, 2013

fighting dragons and having fun while it lasts

I said that.......
Once.........some time ago.......
I forgot that I did........
Maybe its coz I am fighting a different type of dragon these days.........
Still........
I am having fun........

^_^

Tuesday, September 03, 2013

精神层面

It's been a long while since I managed to sit down and just write. It's been a very VERY busy several months. It was Ramadhan and then Syawal and the travelling. The funny thing is, Yusuf seems to not mind.

We spent 6 days in Terengganu. It was fun. Hari Raya there is always fun. It does get tiring at some point but I guess we don't feel it much coz that would be the only "balik kampung" journey for us. We got home and chilled for a bit. Met up with my family and all. And then, we decided to go see my grandma at my dad's hometown coz one of my aunts haven't met Yusuf. It was all good fun but you can see that everyone is getting older and although we do pretty much the same thing we do every time we head down south, it's different this time around. We are no longer the "kids".

Anywho, our trips down south would always mean we would make a stop at the Johor Premium Outlets before heading back. Managed to get Yusuf some clothes. After that, we headed over to Malacca. The initial plan was to stop by for some Assam Pedas Daging Tetel . But of course, since Shu was on a long leave, we decided to go into Malacca town instead and looked for a real restaurant to have this signature dish.

It was my first time eating assam pedas and it was seriously pedas. I am not into spicy food but Shu is the exact opposite. He chews chillies. The food was great but the time we spent looking for restaurant was not as expected because Shu asked someone he knows for directions. The dude said "It's not that far. It's just around the corner" which was actually about 1 kilometer of walking distance from where we parked. It was dark sooner than we thought and before we realized it, Yusuf needed to be fed and bathed. Shu's back up plan was to spend the night in Malacca town.

The funny thing about the plan was that only Yusuf and I had extra clothes. Shu and Mar needed to get new ones. Luckily, there was a thrift store just across the street from our hotel so we did a little last minute shopping just to survive that night and the day after. It was fun. We visited a museum. Did some sightseeing. Snapped some photos. It was fun.

Shu eventually extended his leave which was great timing because the following week, Yusuf turned 7 months old and Shu turned 28 years of age. We had some nice dinner on Shu's birthday. Oh yeah, that very same week was the time we visited Aquaria just because I wanted to see the sharks. Yusuf seemed to like the tiny, fast swimming fishes. It was a good week.

Yusuf's energy level has increased tremendously that I am having a hard time keeping up with him. He's practicing to sit and he can move around really, REALLY quickly. We actually got him an inflatable pool just so that he can sit around in the lounge area knowing that he won't injure himself when we have things to do in the kitchen. His crib can no longer contain him. His legs would come popping out from the sides every now and then.

All and all, I am glad that he is not a passive baby. I am an active person. Growing up, I had always been an active person. Shu is also an active person. Someday, we hope that we can start playing badminton or tennis or squash with Yusuf...........or go running!!!!! I still have my skateboard. My dad gave us his old fishing rod. We should all probably get scuba lessons someday..............the list goes on and on.

P.S. The Aquaria trip this time actually helped me figure out how to counter my fear of fish ^_^

Saturday, July 20, 2013

君だけを

For a while, my routine was sim-ing and then,it was ps3 gaming and then, it was anime watching........and drawing and writing in between but then.......it has now some to just browsing and liking fb statuses since I no longer have the luxury of doing anything else only because I make it so. I don't want to not spend my every waking hour without Yusuf when he is awake.

He'll be 6 months old on the 21st and he is getting to be quite the drama king. He has preferences. He knows who he wants to hang out with. He knows what he wants to do and what he wants to see. We can't leave him alone on the bed AT ALL coz he'd get from one end to the other in a matter of seconds. Yes, he has a crib but he still sleeps with us on the bed. He's been sleeping with us on the bed since forever. I made him that way. At some point I am beginning to doubt if the queen size is gonna hold the 3 of us at all.

I spend my days rolling with him on the bed. Sometimes, I'd take him out for walks around the neighborhood. Sometimes, I'd carry him around the house. I've tried getting him acquainted with felines but he's not there yet. He's fascinated by lights and sounds. We've already started feeding him since he's always drooling watching us eat at the dining table. The only problem is he prefers his biscuits over his rice porridge.

I've been having his leftover food for breakfast several times this week alone coz he refuses to eat. There are times when he'd finish up 2 biscuits at a time. Other times, he'd fight and struggle trying to not eat or drink. I don't force him. The only thing I have been worrying about him since he first came into this world is his temper. He gets it from both me as well as Shu. I hope he won't embrace that as much as he gets older.

Monday, July 15, 2013

July

Ramadhan is so far so good. Tarawikh prayers would always depend on Yusuf and how he is coz he doesn't have a pattern. He's sometimes asleep and he sometimes need me around. His right eye got bitten by an unknown insect this morning. Just under his outer brow is red and swollen a little. The doctor said its definitely an insect bite but its external. I hope it heals quickly.

Yusuf has recently began eating and its funny how he prefers the rusks over the rice porridge. We have to feed him immediately or he will refuse to eat. There was this one time when my mum fed him and he got angry coz my mum didn't give him enough. The food he refuses to eat from time to time are usually eaten by myself :p

We recently went back to Terengganu. It was an awesome 4 days.Finally, Yusuf was awake and we took him on the beca. It. Was. AWESOME. Hahahaha!!!!

We need to move away from the city ^_^

Monday, June 24, 2013

prayers

This year has been a very trying year. First the heat, and then the haze (which isn't seem to be getting any better).

But of all the things that has been going on, there are 2 babies who desperately needs our help (prayers).

One baby (whose name is not allowed to be mentioned) was recently diagnosed with cancer. He's only 8 months old (if I am not mistaken) I was crushed when I heard the news. I've been crying a lot when ever I think of him. I've never met him though but the thought that he has to go for chemotherapy at a very VERY young age always gets to me. I hope he isn't in any pain. He's just a baby.

The other baby is a 2 year-old girl who was adopted but her paperworks were never done properly. At the age of 2,she still does not have a birth certificate. To make it worse, it turns out that she had a bit of an accident with hot water some time ago and I discovered that her foster parents did not take her to the hospital because she doesn't have a proper record here in Malaysia. I hope she's ok. I hope she'd find better people who are more responsible to care for her.

On the brighter side of things, my sister came home last week and she brought her recently converted friend with her. He's a nice guy and is good with kids. He seems to get along well with Yusuf. He's finally spoken to my mum about marrying my sister. I hope things will go well for the both of them.

In fact, I pray and hope that things will go well for everyone.

I'm also praying for it to rain. I hope it would rain for a few days to help with the haze. My house has been all closed up because I don't want Yusuf to inhale any of it since he was born with frail lungs. Although he's strong now, I don't want him to get sick because of this.

Thursday, May 23, 2013

sunlight

We took Yusuf to his follow up (check up) at HKL yesterday.The appointment was set at 2pm but we got there earlier coz we weren't sure where the building was and what we had to do.Shu dropped us off at the pediatric building and parked the car elsewhere coz the place was PACKED. He parked all the way at IJN :p

I got Yusuf registered and weighed and measured and then we waited for our turn. There were so many people but there were a lot of doctors on duty and plenty of room for everyone. It turns out that the doctor who checked Yusuf was the doctor who came to see him the morning after he arrived at HKL.She was aware of Yusuf's condition and she thought Yusuf seemed very healthy. Alhamdulillah.

However, we asked her about what Yusuf's pediatrician said to us last week about Yusuf's head growth. There a growth chart used by the hospital in Bangi and HKL have their own chart. So after doing a bit of measurement and comparison, we decided to get Yusuf's head scanned anyways just to be safe. We were referred to the radiology department to get an ultrasound scan done on Yusuf's soft head.

Alhamdulillah, everything seemed alright eventhough Yusuf was crying so loud and hard through it all coz he was sleepy and in shocked when we placed him onto the hospital bed. After the scan, we headed back to the clinic area to get the printed photos sorted out and explained.

While waiting, I was distracted by the babies and toddlers around me. There were 2 sets of twins and a very tiny 4 month old baby. Yusuf seemed rather big compared to the 4 month old baby beside me.The doctor said its coz he is fully breastfed so he is healthy and strong. Then again, Shu said the baby I was looking at looked small but he/she weighed just 1kg less than Yusuf's current weight :p

After 2 hours, we finally were able to leave. I just so thankful to know that Yusuf is alright :)

Monday, May 20, 2013

never growing up?

Oh Hello Avril! Never thought I'd see you again the way I first did back when I was 16 ^_^


Friday, May 17, 2013

waka waka

I've been fasting. Replacing and trying and hopefully succeeding at puasa sunat. So far,it's been 3 days. I skipped a day. So far so good. I still have a long way to go. Gosh! I think I have been trying to repay and replace debts (with God) since forever! This just shows what kind of person I have been :-/

It's been so hot. I know that eventhough 33 degrees Celsius isn't as bad as most other places in the country, I do feel it coz I keep getting thirsty throughout the day.I almost drank this morning forgetting that I was fasting. Yusuf hasn't been able to cope with the heat.

Ok,wait. Yusuf never had been able to cope with heat. He sweats ALL THE TIME and then he'd get restless. He hasn't been wearing socks or bootees and mittens anymore. In fact, he's been wearing minimal clothing to help him not sweat. I've been drinking lots of water to help him. I just wish there was something I could do about the heat.

Shu got the car tinted super dark. The air conditioner in the room doesn't seem to help much. I'd set the aircond temperature at 22 degrees and the room temperature would only go down to about 29 degrees max. Hah! The sun sets in a way whereby the red light of the sun setting would glare directly into my room. This makes the room hotter than its supposed to.

We usually have every possible door and window opened just to get some air flow in the house. After 6pm,the house gets pretty warm coz we'd have to close everything up so that the mosquitoes won't get in. I need to fix some screen doors badly.

The cool thing about this house is that we'd have random insects coming in and out which is also a bad thing coz some of them can sting. I DO NOT LIKE FLYING INSECTS THAT CAN STING! >.<

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Yusuf's hospital trip

I don't know how to explain it but I think it's coz my son was born with a condition, Shu and I became very VERY overprotective over him. People always say "It's ok,he's gonna be fine" Well,I don't think we would wanna risk anything. It's hard enough to go through 10 days (or more) after birth without being able to hold him and just watch him from outside the incubator in the NICU. I've decided to not risk anything when it comes to him.
I will take care of him.
I will feed him even when I am tired.
I will entertain him.
I will pray for his well being.
I will learn to understand him in times when we are unsure of what's happening with him.
I had cousins who says things like "Our kids were all born early and spent 6 weeks in the incubator" Well, my son was born with lung infection and there were times when he couldn't breathe. He was constantly on the oxygen support so I don't think that our situations are in the slightest bit similar in any way.
I told Shu that I don't trust daycares and even with a maid, I wasn't about to let her juggle between taking care of Yusuf and doing housework.
I've had times when I would come out in the middle of bathing just to feed him coz he's crying. There were occasions when I'd be praying and he cries so I'd stop and calm him down and then start praying all over again.
I'm not complaining. I'll do it for his sake.Until he is stable enough and strong enough, I'll be on my toes for him.

Sunday, May 12, 2013

awesome possum

Weekends are usually fun but tiring coz sometimes we'd wake up super early in the morning just to make the most of it and then we'd be out all day and then we'd be home by nightfall. Other times, we'd just laze around at home and play video games or clean the house or maybe just run out to get some groceries.

Speaking of groceries, I am yet again OBSESSED with groceries.  It's weird that growing up, my favorite time spent with my mum would always be grocery shopping and I could memorize the items and aisles. Now, I seem to still love doing it but lately, I've began making lists of the price of things we'd buy and compare them between the hypermarkets/supermarkets around.

I used to be obsessed with laundry but eversince we got someone to do it, I kinda not do it much anymore. I should get back into the habit of cleaning my clothes myself. It liberates my soul. Hahahahahaha!!!!!!!

When I was pregnant, I used to have problems sleeping at night and sometimes, my cure or rather thing to do to past time is to clean the toilet floor. It's weird.........

Friday, May 10, 2013

wedding bells?

OOOH! LIFE!!!! >.<

Despite the chaos this country has been going through, I do pray that what ever the outcome may be,it is for the best. I firmly believe that everything happens for a reason and I pray that we all have faith in God.

Speaking of everything happening for a reason, I did receive some good news about some people I love getting pregnant. It is wonderful news! I can't begin to express how happy it makes me feel inside!!!

Also, Yusuf recently got a new cousin who is all the way in JB ^_^ Can't wait to see her!

And last but not least, I do pray that this will indeed end well for I always feel that something good such as marriage is a sacred thing to do. I do hope that my parents will find the light in all of this. It is always a happy moment to receive new family members.

Wednesday, May 08, 2013

house hunting?!!

Hahaha! Lately, we've been looking at houses AGAIN. My husband is looking for a house with a bit of land. No, won't be selling off this condo. We would most likely rent it out. Anywho, we were in Nilai the other day just lookin' around thinking that I might have to move for my new job and all. I love some of the houses. They have very unique designs and layouts and DUH it definitely is cheaper than here! But of course, I had my eyes on the 1.3 million Ringgit house :p It comes with a swimming pool!!!!

We're still looking.........and then, we got side tracked........by the idea of getting a bigger car since our current car is all full of stuff. We have Yusuf's stroller occupying 60% of the boot and Yusuf's car seat in the back. I love our current car but then, we thought.......how about getting a Hummer?! WOAH!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! Insanity strikes! I ain't payin a 6 liter SUV road tax! The idea of a bigger car is a good plan but not the Hummer.

It's been weird for me lately especially since I began getting attached to a certain TV Show. I watch cartoons and animes. Not TV Shows. Waiting for a new season sucks. It's like being stuck in space until the new season is released. How the hell did I get here?!!!!

I FINALLY managed to get a haircut!!!!! I thought it would take forever that my hair would end up all over the place when ever I walk around the house.It's short now. Also, the post pregnancy hair loss is annoying me.

It's been really, really, really warm these days. Lately may not be as warm as before but it is warm and it just so happens that my son does not do well in warm weather. He's all red and sweaty and he'd get all annoyed. He bathes 3 times a day and just before bed, we'd have to make sure he is wiped clean with warm water before getting his last diaper change for the day.

The past few weeks have been pretty tiring and fast moving. I hardly leave the house on weekdays. Oh wait, I never leave the house on weekdays.My life is basically revolved around my son.And yet again, I am being spoiled by Mar.She makes sure I eat rice at least once a day coz I have to feed Yusuf. I must say, breastfeeding has motivated me to eat healthier food these days. I'm still a junkaholic but not as bad as before.

I was hanging out with one of my husband's nieces back when we were in Terengganu. She likes Yusuf a lot and they converse with another from time to time.She said she wanted to trade Yusuf with her youngest brother so that she can eat Yusuf. It was funny. She was doing a bit of writing with me. Maybe next time I should bring a whole lot of papers and some toxic-free crayons and we can all have a good doodle time together. Me and all of Yusuf's cousins. Yeah, we should do that...........

Friday, May 03, 2013

PCTFD

Ya know......with all the elections coming up and stuff,I feel like I get more and more annoyed by FB. I mean yeah I am aware that when it comes to elections, campaigning is definitely something unavoidable but when it gets a bit too much, it gets annoying.

Here's how I see it. This event affects everyone coz it could make a drastic change especially when it comes to helping out the needy and of course, knowing that our tax is well spent. I have my stand and I know which direction I would want my country to head to. And yes, I do talk about it with my family and all but let's just  face it, even within a family, not all of us are looking at this the same way and its fine coz I respect their opinions and point of views.

And yes, we have supporters who are campaigning online and stuff. I totally think that its definitely a step up from how it's been done before. Kudos for that. Yey! And again, not everyone is seeing eye to eye on this which is cool coz that's what makes us all different anyways.

What I don't get is that (typically) when rivals come head to head, they each have their own goals and stuff. It's up to us to either accept it or not. Having said that, I can't seem to make sense of it all when the supporters from both sides begin behaving just as bad as the other. So you say A is not a good at ruling coz he's done all this crap and so on and so forth, well, OK, it is time for a change then. But how the hell would that statement convince me when you are behaving the same damn way A is behaving!

The changes you propose are supposed to make things better but it ain't lookin' no better when you start dissing the same way.Not cool AT ALL.It's like we're deciding between 2 sides of the same coin.WTF?!

Again,it's probably a mentality issue.A major issue most Malaysians are facing. I honestly do not have anything against the candidates but I do hope that they can just tell their supporters to CALM THE FUCK DOWN! We're all in this and we're all rooting for a change and we've all been paying our taxes the same way so just please,let's not get things out of control and stay calm.

I do wonder if there would ever be a major change where social problem is concerned. Just trying to do what's best for my kid :)