Safiyya and I used to listen and danced to this everyday

Then,there was also this.......

And this......

Tonight's concert is one that Shu and I can sing to

Every.... Damn..... Word.....

This seems to be my song of the day today

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You know I adore you
I'm crazier for you
Then I was at sixteen
Lost in a film scene
Waving homecoming queens
Marching band playing
I'm lost in the lights

American glory
Faded before me
Now I'm feeling hopeless
Ripped up my prom dress
Running through rose thorns
I saw the scoreboard
And ran for my life

Ah, ah, ah
No cameras catch my pageant smile
I counted days, I counted miles
To see you there
To see you there
It's been a long time coming but

It's you and me
That's my whole world
They whisper in the hallway, "she's a bad, bad girl" (okay!)
The whole school is rolling fake dice
You play stupid games, you win stupid prizes
It's you and me
There's nothing like this
Miss Americana and The Heartbreak Prince (okay!)
We're so sad, we paint the town blue
Voted most likely to run away
With you

My team is losing
Battered and bruising
I see the high fives
Between the bad guys
Leave with my head hung
You are the only one
Who seems to care

American stories
Burning before me
I'm feeling helpless
The damsels are depressed
Boys will be boys, then
Where are the wise men?
Darling, I'm scared

Ah, ah, ah
No cameras catch my muffled cries
I counted days, I counted miles
To see you there
To see you there
And now the storm is coming, but

It's you and me
That's my whole world
They whisper in the hallway, "she's a bad, bad girl" (okay!)
The whole school is rolling fake dice
You play stupid games, you win stupid prizes
It's you and me
There's nothing like this
Miss Americana and The Heartbreak Prince (okay!)
We're so sad, we paint the town blue
Voted most likely to run away
With you

And I don't want you to (go)
I don't really wanna (fight)
'Cause nobody's gonna (win)
I think you should come home

And I don't want you to (go)
I don't really wanna (fight)
'Cause nobody's gonna (win)
I think you should come home

And I don't want you to (go)
I don't really wanna (fight)
'Cause nobody's gonna (win)
I just thought you should know

And I'll never let you (go)
'Cause I know this is a (fight)
That someday we're gonna (win)

It's you and me
That's my whole world
They whisper in the hallway, "she's a bad, bad girl"
Oh, I just thought you should know
You should know

It's you and me
There's nothing like this
Miss Americana and The Heartbreak Prince (okay!)
We're so sad, we paint the town blue (paint it blue)
Voted most likely to run away
With you

I don't really wanna (fight)
'Cause nobody's gonna (win)
I think you should come home

And I'll never let you (go)
'Cause I know this is a (fight)
That someday we're gonna (win)
Just thought you should know

You and me
That's my whole world
They whisper in the hallway, "she's a bad, bad girl"
"She's a bad, bad girl"

Apocalyptica did a live performance for us 🤟🏼

Heilung Norupo

Fé vældr frænda róge
Føðesk ulfr í skóge
Úr er af illu jarne
Opt løypr ræinn á hjarne
Þurs vældr kvinna kvillu
Kátr værðr fár af illu
Óss er flæstra færða
Fǫr; en skalpr er sværða
Ræið kveða rossom væsta
Reginn sló sværðet bæzta
Kaun er barna bǫlvan
Bǫl gørver nán fǫlvan
Hagall er kaldastr korna
Kristr skóp hæimenn forna
Nauðr gerer næppa koste
Nøktan kælr í froste

Ís kǫllum brú bræiða
Blindan þarf at læiða
Ár er gumna góðe
Get ek at ǫrr var
Fróðe Sól er landa ljóme
Lúti ek helgum dóme
Týr er æinendr ása
Opt værðr smiðr blása

Bjarkan er laufgrønstr líma
Loki bar flærða tíma
Maðr er moldar auki
Mikil er græip á hauki
Lǫgr er, fællr ór fjalle
Foss; en gull ero nosser
Ýr er vetrgrønstr viða
Vænt er, er brennr, at sviða

Hello old friend

I neglected you long enough. I forgot just how much joy you bring me just by looking at you and touching you. I will have you repaired and I will have you played again. I am determined to get you ready by this year.

Nevermind that I don't have an amplifier or a distortion pedal 😒

I ❤️ this song:Mongol by Omnia

Ϻиний хайртай морь
Хамтдаа хамтдаа бид ниснэ
Ϻиний морь
Тад дундуур давхина

Салхи татуулан хурдалсаар
Хамтдаа хамтдаа хамтдаа бид
ниснэ

Ϻиний хайртай хайртай морь

mood today

And she's going on a journey Always walking down the road

With a tiny rope and a bag of stone
And all heartbroken wishing bone
She's going in, she's going home
Oh this little golden knight, fighting every day
Behind the light, behind the light

Walking faster down the street
Red eyes and no shoes on her feet
Going on this journey, determined to complete
This is farewell, this is goodnight
The last time she will see the daylight
See the daylight

And she's going on a journey
Always walking down the road
And the water is always calling
"My little child, please come home"

That's when she went away
Away from the light of day
Standing by the riverside
Patiently waiting for the tide
To come along, to come along
The waters going through her feet
And on her body wind so cold and sweet
So cold and sweet

And she's going on a journey
Always walking down the road
And the water is always calling
"My little child, please come home"
And the stars were brightly shining
When she reached out they were gone
And the water started calling
"My little child, please come home"

Feel the water in her body, water's never going out

Feel the water in her body, water's never going out

Feel the water in her body, water's never going out

Feel the water in her body, water's never going out

Feel the water in her body, water's never going out

Feel the water in her body, water's never going out

Feel the water in her body, water's never going out

Feel the water in her body, water's never going out
And she's going on a journey
Always walking down the road
And the water is always calling
"My little child, please come home"
And the stars were brightly shining
When she reached out they were gone
And the water started calling
"My little child, please come home"
When a shiny light hit her eye
And she turned around and climbed
Towards the sky
Towards the sky...

I'm a child with an animal soul I don't belong here I don't belong anywhere

I can remember everything used to be warm
Lying inside the bodies of our mothers
I can remember light coming through her skin
And the first time I took my breath as she wrapped me in

Funny how we're free to walk around
Still our feet are forced to walk the ground
Even when we die we're deeper down
Down, down, down

As I am stumbling past every word, every answer
Moving around my mind like a beautiful dancer
I am here to tell what makes me hollow
In a world of hate we are forced to swallow

The animal in me

Although isolation had always been my way of life and that my sister thinks I am most likely to come out of this quarantine like myself, it gets a bit repetitive for me.

I try doing different things everyday like scrapbooking and playing the guitar and singing. Some things are still the same. 

I have started working out everyday which is nice but for some reason, my appetite has dropped.I can't say if it is caused by working out or that I am having a mild anxiety attack.

I still love it when it rains. 

My mind has been drifting back and forth in between daydreaming and being fully awake. I keep finding myself in thoughts from just a glimpse of memory I had from a time in my life. It's very strange. 

I have tried writing a lot. Lyrics. Poetry. Thoughts. Anything. I have also attempted to write new songs. Shu thinks I should record my old songs from when I was 16.

I need to rearrange a lot of words.

I am missing avocado toasts from Wolf and Turtle 😭

AURORA did a thing for us! ❤️

This song is stuck in my head now

Today's vibe :Deep Purple

Specifically, Burn!!!

Hun går ferilisseræna féressu

Hun går férilisserana irsser
Ruriguere
Ruriguere
Lissiræna hun går
Fîri lisinof
Fîri lisinof

Lost in a concrete jungle

These past couple of years had been very strange for me. I seem to find myself trying to fit in all over again. It's as though I cannot understand why things are the way they are here where I live. It feels as though I am out of place in a place where I have been living all my life. Does this even make sense?

There is like a sense of longing somewhere which is not here. I have tried being myself and I have tried not being myself just to see which version of me appeals most to the people I interact with. It sounds like a social experiment but I have not been interacting with many human beings.

I feel like a child on his first day of school. Trying to be nice to everyone but my efforts go unnoticed because I am somewhat afraid to just be myself. I would like to think that freedom is the feeling when you are drenched in the pouring rain but it makes you so happy that you dance and jump and run because you feel alive. This behavior is not common for people who perceives me the way they think they know me.

I would sometimes close my eyes and take a deep breath just to let myself be somewhere else for a little while. Then I'd open my eyes and I am here where I was before.

Why do people think quality living is living in a vertical space in a crowded place where there are pollution and destruction and chaos but by having things such as extra parking spaces and infinity pools and gymnasium and saunas,you are essentially living the ultimate city life. People own cars which cost the price of a house which can go really fast without realizing the roads are broken and cracked and full of holes and cars.

What is "prime" location? The only meaning it brings to me is congestion and hectic. Unnecessary cost of pretty much everything and nothing is quality. They label things as organic and healthy but all you are paying for is something that could cost a fraction of the price. It makes no sense.

There is no kindness or politeness or manners. Everything and everyone is fast moving.Everything must be here and now. Whenever the car slows down in heavy traffic,you could see the different types of plants that grow naturally and healthy. They make me happy. Children doing weird quirky things make me happy. I do not have many adult friends and it probably is for a good reason considering I grew up with most of my friends being felines.

When the last tree has fallen and the rivers are poisoned,You cannot eat money oh no.....

Just like the seed
I don't know where to go
Through dirt and shadow, I grow
I'm reaching light through the struggle
Just like the seed
I'm chasing the wonder
I unravel myself
All in slow motion

You cannot eat money, oh no
You cannot eat money, oh no
When the last tree has fallen
And the rivers are poisoned
You cannot eat money, oh no
You cannot eat money, oh no
You cannot eat money, oh no
When the last tree has fallen
And the rivers are poisoned
You cannot eat money, oh no
Oh no

Suffocate me
So my tears can be rain
I will water the ground where I stand
So the flowers can grow back again
'Cause just like the seed
Everything wants to live
We are burning our fingers
But we learn and forgive

You cannot eat money, oh no
You cannot eat money, oh no
When the last tree has fallen
And the rivers are poisoned
You cannot eat money, oh no
You cannot eat money, oh no
You cannot eat money, oh no
When the last tree has fallen
And the rivers are poisoned
You cannot eat money, oh no
Oh no

Feed me sunlight, feed me air
In a place where nothing matters
Feed me truth and feed me prayer (dancing around a shooting star)
And every cell remembers
Feed me sunlight, feed me air (that have taken us this far)
I see images of killer whales
Feed me truth and feed me prayers (sleeping in a desert trail)
Dreaming of a parallel world where nothing ever hurts
Dreaming of a parallel world where nothing ever hurts

You cannot eat money, oh no
You cannot eat money, oh no
When the last tree has fallen
And the rivers are poisoned
You cannot eat money, oh no
You cannot eat money, oh no
You cannot eat money, oh no
When the last tree has fallen
And the rivers are poisoned
You cannot eat money, oh no
Oh no

February 17th 2020

Well, my birthday was on a weekday and that usually means it's not a good time to be out and about because we have a routine to stick to and getting up early is compulsory. However, Shu insisted on celebrating even if it's just a small celebration.

So we woke up early, sent the kids to school and we headed into the city coz he said there's this place he wants to take me to but it's a surprise. We got there and parked the car and then discovered that it's non-halal.

Good thing there was a coffee shop right next to it. Coffee in the morning is always a good thing for me. The shop didn't have much food so we decided to walk to KLCC from where we were.

Morning walks are fun just not in the middle of the city. It got sunnier as we moved. There were construction sites everywhere. Typical KL.

We finally made it and we had early brunch because we didn't want to be late for the kids. It was fun. We had Dotty's. My sister told me about the branch in Taman Tun but I'll never go there. I had a good time :)

That night, everyone got ready early for a birthday dinner. Again, he said it was a surprise so I had no idea where we were going. It was a place close to home. Food was awesome!

Laguna Redang, 10th year visit

Before anything, we already have plans to return this year. We've been coming back here since we first got married (before Yusuf).

This year, Safiyya is old enough to appreciate the pool and beach sand. She and Ali Imran are not the swimming in the ocean getting soaked type. Yusuf is already snorkeling. I am still terrified of fish.

I could have sworn the same fish had been trolling me for years. According to Shu, it's a Parrot Fish. Doesn't matter what it's called, it scares me every damn time I'm in the water.

The island just opened after being closed during the monsoon season. I was desperate to get out in the sun because city life was really pushing me back into depression and I do not miss being depressed.

It rained one time but I never realized how happy I was getting soaked in the rain. I used to run in the rain and being in the rain by the beach was awesome.

The next day, the weather started picking up. That was great 😊

I know that now is the time when people have so much to say

But I just want to talk about how much I love snakes because they are so cute. I keep falling in love everytime I see them and they make me so happy.

We recently ended up in Malacca because we were so sick of hanging around the city. Shu asked what our plan was and I had no plans so yeah.........

It was awesome and wholesome.

We ended up at the Malacca Butterfly and Reptiles Sanctuary in Ayer Keroh. We saw butterfly eggs.The kids fed the koi fish and guppies. We saw American Alligators being fed. We saw Emu eggs and crocodile eggs. We played with a 5-year old ball python.

They had an Anaconda! I am terrified of Anacondas! They have the cutest kingsnake and rat snake ever!

My personal favourite is the red-tailed rat snake. I spent time just looking at the babies and they were calling to me.

Was talking to the caretaker named Mr Rizal (I think that was his name) about snakes and feeding them and taking care of them and he was recommending either the kingsnake or the rat snake or even the ball python coz they don't grow too big. I don't have a problem with feeding live animals to these predators because that's their nature.My only concern would be keeping a steady temperature for their living spaces.

I have been thinking about getting a pet snake forever. I was thinking of the cornsnake because they are so cute.

Oh yeah!We saw the poison dart frog.It is so cute that you just wanna kiss it and take it home! (And then die of poison)

Anyways,I'll post up pictures later coz they're in my phone ^_^