improvise

Kamal said that the acoustic performance will be postponed to next week.That would give us time to practise and work on our line-up.Which means,we MUST by all means have a band meeting THIS weekend.Playing along with us would be the band we met at the Rock The World audition-Phaser-and Adan's (Abang K'rol's brother) band.It would be really awesome to watch Phaser perform again coz they play rock 'n' roll and they rock.I've never seen (or heard) Adan's band perform but I heard they play some heavy stuff........the whole trashing the guitars to the amplifiers.

Anywho,in the meantime,Shu's mum is recovering.My folks and I decided to just postpone the family meeting on the 17th to the weekend or something until Shu's mum recovers.The doctors suspect that its a heart problem.Hopefully not coz Shu said she did the ECG once and there were no signs saying that she had any.Maybe her heartbeat was a bit low coz she wasn't eating and stuff.Hopefully she recovers fully.

suimen no tsuki

Had dinner with my grandma and Qarim and my cousin Anas Bananas.I was falling asleep every other second.Qarim was being himself while Anas and my grandma did what they do best-talk.Most of the time,I don't like listening to my grandma coz she tends to go overboard with her jokes which aren't funny and might just offend other parties.

Tonight,I decided to just go with the flow.I found out quite a lot of things about my late grandpa (my grandma's 1st husband) The sorta thing that makes me wonder if my mum or my aunt knew about. My grandma told us the story of her eldest sister.How she came to be the way she is now.

I was told that she saw her husband and her kids getting shot in front of her during the Japanese occupation.That's not quite how it all went down.She got married twice coz her first husband was accused of being a traitor and got shot.Her second husband died and she was found under a bridge all covered in mud and slugs and she didn't recognize anyone at all.Not even her sisters or her mum.She's still alive.She's just not living in the present time.

My family history (from my mother's side) has a number of not-very-convincing point of view towards men.They betray.They hurt the women in my family.It's always the ladies who has to get everything done.In fact,it kinda happens in my dad's family as well.My sister and I are the only 2 girls in my family.I'm weaker than my sister.Even though she'd get heartbroken at times,she'd cry and then get over it and move on.I'll always try to be there for her whenever she does.

Also,I found out tonight that my cousin got kicked out from his dad's house back when he was 13.He called my grandma in the middle of the night asking her to come get him down the road from his house.Strange how I never knew about that.I personally never liked my aunt's ex husband that much but I never knew he'd do that to his own son.

My grandma spent the entire time advising all of us which I find quite comforting coz she'd just trying to look out for all of us.She's been through a lot.I kinda feel bad for not being nice to her at times..........

I'm ok

Rashid told me that there were a couple of dudes at the park where we'd play basketball at with some weapons threatening kids and taking their cellphones last week.It would so totally suck to know that its not safe to go there anymore.I'd usually walk alone there on days when Shu is away.

There's about 2 tiny roads which I'd have to take to get to the park.Eventhough there are houses on both sides,it gets a little too quiet at times.I'm always thinking that I'm just passing through and I don't have any cash on me at all.Those muggers would either take my cellphone (or what's left of it) or kill me.I'd usually walk real fast when I pass those areas.I'm a bit stoned (or stoned looking) most of the time,so chances are people might mistake me for a muggler.

Ash called me out of the blues telling me that he just got up from sleep and that he had a dream that I got into an accident.The first thing he asked me was if I was ok.I was blur at the time.Didn't get much sleep in the morning since Shu called which was about 7am.Also,I was starving and cold.But I was (and insyallah) will be alright ;)

Shu's gone to Terengganu to check on his mum.She's been really sick.I hope she recovers soon.I hope it's not anything major.

I haven't been well myself.Apart from losing my appetite every now and then,I keep getting nauseous and sick once in a while.It's either when I get up from bed or while I'm praying.I've been taking the iron pills which I've been prescribed to but mum says I need a whole lot of potassium.The first thing that came to mind when she mentioned potassium was bananas!

the world is coming to an end

My dad saw a flock of birds pass by.He said they looked like storks.That's weird.I know there's loads of 'em around the campus area but not here.My mum suspects that the birds are migrating.Maybe something's about to happen.Who knows.We've caused the earth too much pain that it responds by giving us unpredictable weather and "natural" disasters.If anything happens right now,I don't blame nature one bit.

Shu took me for late lunch at Village View today......

It's in Bangi.We were at UNITEN for a bit.Shu had to see some people about some stuff coz all his contacts have gone missing eversince he lost his phone.Since I've been in a white rice+either thai or chinese dishes these days,Shu took me to a place called Village View.I love the place.......well,the ambience is uber kool.The food is yummylicious.It was raining when we got there so it was kinda cold.I bet the place would be an awesome place to hang around at night ^_^

A few days ago,we stopped by at a restaurant alongside the KJ mainroad on the way back from Bangi.Not quite sure what the place is called but the food there is pretty good.White rice dishes of course.We've been having early dinners over at Vicchuda last week.New places would make a good change for us ;)

alibi

Shu freaked out when my mum called at about 7:30pm today.He was afraid if my dad really was angry at me for not coming home on time.I figured out a timeline that made sense and we just worked out on it in case my folks got upset.

Hahaha.........this is what we do.........manipulate situations.......hahahaha.........

The good news is that Shu's thesis is NOT due on Wednesday but he's gotta pass it up by Friday.
The bad news is his mum is in bad shape.Really3 sick.I hope she recovers soon.

here comes the sun..........

Aunty Gina's been diagnosed with cancer of the breast.She had a lump removed last month and the results to the diagnostic done onto the lump piece came back as cancerous.That would mean that she has to remove a huge portion of her chest.Apart from it costing so much,her family depends on her.

She takes care of her folks and she's got 3 kids to look after.Also,just before the surgery last month,she lost her job coz her boss is an asshole.Maybe it was written in the fine prints of the contract she signed when got the job but is cutting her some slack and giving her a few days (at least) off for medical reasons so much to ask?

I cannot imagine the pain she is going through right now.She is one of my mum's oldest closest friends here in TTDI.Her kids and my siblings and I are around the same age group.God,I wish I could help her..........

Oh yeah,at the same time,Aunty Intan shall be moving into an apartment somewhere in Bandar Seri Damansara.Farah is in the middle of buying a unit and she insists on paying for a place they own rather than paying rents.Aunty Intan isn't very happy about it but she's going with the flow anyways.........

less than a week

Suddenly,I feel as though time is passing by really fast.I have less than a week till Shu's folks come over to see mine and until then,I keep telling myself to just carry on with my daily activities and pretend that we'd all have enough time to prepare ourselves for what ever comes next eventhough I somehow have this feeling that we won't have enough time to prepare although we'd have about 6 more months to go.

Was asking my mum why was it so damn hard for me to write new songs these days.She said it's coz I am complete now so I'm not actually looking for anything anymore to write about.My sister,on the other hand said that maybe it's coz I'm not inspired anymore.Maybe she meant it's coz Shu and I practically see each other everyday.He lives here with me and my family for God's sake!

I don't think my disability to write is caused by being uninspired.Maybe I'm just trying to grasp things one at a time.I've been a little spaced out these days.It's kinda good to have some gap till my next paper.It just isn't my thing to wake up super late and not have any plans at all.Also,I am worried about Shu's final year project.Eventhough I am no engineering student,I could always help out with the field work ;)

Anyways.......every now and then,I'd fall back and think of what's really happening and how things are going to change from here onwards.Well,time changes everything but I'd never get over the fact that I'm not the only one whose life hasn't move since the break-up back when I was 17.We kept in touch but it wasn't the same.I never saw us getting this far.Hell,I didn't think we'd be on the same page on this!

How can I decide what's right.......

When you're clouding up my mind?
I can't win
You're losing sight
All the time
Not gonna ever own what's mine
When you're always taking sides
But you won't take away my pride
No, not this time
Not this time

How did we get here?
I used to know you so well
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know

The truth is hiding in your eyes
And it's hanging on your tongue
Just boiling in my blood
But you think that I can't see
What kind of man that you are
If you're a man at all
Well, I will figure this one out

On my own(I'm screaming, "I love you so")
On my own(My thoughts you can't decode)

Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools
Of ourselves
Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools
Of ourselves

There is something I see in you
It might kill me
I want it to be true

-ParamorE-

Anis was the one who introduced me to this band (Paramore) Now I can't get enough of 'em ^_^

been helping Shu finish up his EMS project last night

He and my dad and even one of Qarim's friend were up all night working on taking apart an adaptor and soldering wires and some wood work (for the mounting).The objective was to build a motor.I suck at trying to figure out which way is positive and which way is negative in creating a magnetic field :/ A lot of wires were stripped so we didn't have to buy much stuff.

Shu and my dad carried on working till 4am this morning.

driving

*sigh*

Eversince I've started driving,I realized that a lot of people on the road are either reckless or just a bunch of idiots when they got their license.I doubt if anything they read in the rule book is understood nor do they even know why it is crucial for people to understand the road rules.

Are people aware that every single mirror on the car has its purpose and that there is this called a 'blind spot'?Do people know that they'd have to first turn the signal light on and CLEAR THE ROAD before changing lanes while driving and not just switch lanes after a second of turning the signal light on?Are people aware of the existence of signal lights and that there is a use for it?

My late grandfather once told my mum that when we drive,we are actually driving everyone else as well.

How do we ensure that people who get a driver's license aren't idiots?

:)

Shu's dad called him up yesterday.He was in town.It was funny how he finally blurts out how freaked out he is about us getting married coz Shu just never bothered to talk to his dad properly about it.Last night,Shu stayed over at his sister's place in Bangi where his folks were at.He and his dad finally got to talking.

Now........Shu is freaking out about his folks meeting mine.Hahaha!All this while,it was me who was freaking out in case my mum (or my dad) would behave weird (coz they always had been and since my dad's been home,they sorta get a little bit too much for my brain to take)

?????

I realized that I would make the best yet most cruel ruler ever in the history of mankind.This is because I tend to list out the punishments I'd impose onto people who just cannot make use of justice in general.

For instance,to those who cannot get a job done properly and accepts bribe money at the same time would first be sacked and then be blacklisted for life so that the next job they'd get (if they ever get another job) would have a record of such crime commited by the person.So they'd probably live their lives on probation until the day they die.

Shu was telling me about some bigshot food company who was sued for not dumping their trash properly and polluted some river somewhere.Think about it,as it is,big shot companies get a whole lot more than anything anyone could ever get in a month.Punishing them by making them pay MYR20k would mean nothing to them.They should be put out of business for at least a month and let them learn (if they actually have such ability to do such a thing) from their mistake.

As far as I am concerned,smokers should be punished as murderers because secondary smokers suffer so much more than the smoker himself.Since smoking in public is taken very lightly (especially here where I live) I propose that all smokers should only smoke in a small room with absolutely NO ventilation so that these smokers would inhale the smoke they produce only because the particals of burnt tobacco is so small that it can hardly be filtered.Yes,those so called filters sold at pharmacies are actually bullshit.

*I still have doubts about smoking being makruh.I have a strange gut feeling telling me that it is actually haram in the teachings of Islam*

I really try hard to not think about how unfair it is for people who have passion to save the one and only planet we live on and yet,there are ignorant idiots destroying everything we work so hard to save.How shallow and self-centred can people be?And the worse part is that most of the time,people who do not deserve to be punished gets the worst torment from MotherNature.

*I am still smiling about wud happened at the recent F1 Sepang circuit race.It's as though Mother Earth's timing to react is so perfect*Yes,to those who condone to contributing to such pollution should be punished full force!

Long live Mother Nature!

at last!

isn't it ironic?

The media went all out about Earth Hour and at the same time promotes (macam giler) F1 at the Sepang Circuit.I mean,technology aside.Economy aside.It pollutes the Earth either ways.

I find it kinda sorta strange......don't you?

RadioEdit update!

Kamal-san called earlier today saying that Ayie's workplace has some acoustic thingy going on and he's booking a slot for us.KOOLNESS!!!!!I so need a break now!

sometimes........the only way out is the hardest path to follow.........

It's ok to cry.Sometimes,crying helps clear off the smoke from the frictions of anger you have accumulated over the years.Hopefully you can see and think clearer now.

I'll always be here for you cry out to.

I love you........

Sweep slides on my stereo

Short wave ’round my rodeo
Became from that of Savalon
But I’m flying to Istanbul
Oh so why don’t you meet me … there?
There is no nation of you
There is no nation of me
Our only nation lives in Lucid Dreams
Lucid Dreams I’m living in Lucid Dreams
I’m living on short based dreams tonight

-Franz Ferdinand-

auf achse

It seems like forever waiting for Franz Ferdinand's new album to be released (HERE specifically!!!!) I love their single Lucid Dreams and No You Girls.I still love watching them perform live.I just wish I could see them perform live (HERE specifically!!!!) I'd still watch their videos from Take Me Out to Matinee to Michael to Darts of Pleasure to Do You Want To to Walk Away to The Fallen to L. Wells to Wine In The Afternoon to Your Diary...........Eversince the forum where I'd got all the latest updates (and B-side/rare downloads) from got hacked into and eventually shut down,I've been at a complete lost.I want a fresh new slice of them Franzies!

insanely self-destructive beings

It's quite disappointing to know that a lot of people make such a big fuss about not wanting to be part of saving the earth and the environment but still wants a spot living on this very planet.At the very least,they should be thankful that there are things being done to reduce pollution and the destruction of earth.

People complain about the weather being super hot and that the weather is becoming unpredictably dangerous everyday when they aren't doing anything about it.Little messages on commercials like recycling or things we can do to help reduce pollution are more of reminders but most of the time,people choose to ignore these messages and carry on complaining.

Of course,these are the people whose minds cannot think further than themselves.People whose lives revolve around what they do and their comfort and stuff.Things like how the pollution we fail to stop or reduce causes bigger impacts on other beings like the polar bears losing icecaps for them to cling on on fishes die in the sea or rivers or even mutate becomes a problem for those whose source of food comes from the sea.

I often express my hatred for mankind which had lead me here.Not wanting to save the lives of human beings but instead,I would rather spend my time and effort on saving animals because the live by the code of nature.Human beings destroy.I have no guarantee that the human beings I can save would turn out to be people who care about mothernature.Human beings in general are selfish.

Having said that,I would have to extend my apologies to UNICEF for not being able to help them because I would rather help WWF or SPCA or PAWS.